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I Won't See You Tonight Part I	By : WickedxHearts Category: Singers/Bands/Musicians > Avenged Sevenfold Views: 1455 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Title: I Won't See You Tonight Part I
Author: Yours truly, WickedxHearts
Disclaimer: I own merely the plotline, this sadly is a work of fiction. The lyrics belong to Avenged Sevenfold, not me.
A/N: A songfic type, my first a7x fic. If I get enough reviews or am merely bored enough at home [which I probably will be] you'll get a continuence with 'I Won't See You Tonight Part II'. [Brian= Synyster Gates] Review please!

I Won’t See You Tonight Part I

Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
I've made the change
I won't see you tonight

Love.

It consumed me. It made me believe that what we were was real. When you wrapped your strong arms around me and held me through the night…all those nights spent that way…all this time such a lie; such a waste of time. The warmth that ran through my blood when you pressed your lips to mine elated me. But I knew, all this time, I knew. I knew that it was nothing but make believe. Why I let it go on for so long I don’t know…why I played the part I don’t know.

Nor will I ever.

But I do know there was something more there…we were more than friends, Syn. There is no way to deny it. There is no way one could have lived the way we both did with only a friendship. Maybe all emotions weren’t feigned; maybe you did love me, maybe I did love you. But I know we never admitted to it. I know all this time we were make believe.

But why then, do I still feel the need to be held by you?

I miss it, I miss you. And although you’ve never really gone away, although you’re still here every night holding me and kissing me and pretending to love me, I miss you because everything seems so much more insincere. Your smiles and your caresses and your love seem so painfully forced and I can’t fucking bear to watch it anymore.

I want this to be real.

But it never will.

Because we are make believe and always will be. Zacky and Synyster will never be what they are thought to be. Zacky and Synyster will never, ever live happily ever after. Because unfortunately Zacky will die alone and hopefully Synyster will move on and die in real love’s essence. I hope you do live on, I know you will. I hope you don’t shed a single black tear for me, baby.

I know you won’t.

Because you’re strong and I am weak. Because I’m here on my knees while my life slips from me. I can’t do this anymore. I can’t pretend…I can’t see myself like this anymore; with me in your strong, loving arms. You deserve so much more than me. You deserve something real not synthetic. You deserve to be loved every night. Don’t waste your nights with me.

A single black tear.

It falls to the ground, staining it. And more follow, cascading upon my face. My eyes swell and I wipe them away ashamed at my weakness. The mere memories haunting me choke me, hurting me more than anything. I’m dying here alone…crying here alone. You aren’t here holding me anymore. A pathetic sob wracks through me and suddenly it’s uncontrollable. The tears, the cries, the pain. I tremble wishing you were here.

But wishing you’re not.

And through the tears I muster a smile, a small curve of the lips, a single twitch on the corner of the mouth. Because I know now that you are free. My death will elate you, I know. You will have rid yourself of my fake emotions, another burden thrown away. And now everything is going to be real.

No more nights wasted away.

I’m taking everything with me. The small amount of dignity I hold, the love I never admitted and I’m sorry to those who will mourn my loss. But I’m doing this for you. And I’m beginning to fade away. The shadows are beginning to crawl towards me, the eerie shadow of death stalks towards me. Enveloped in your pain and your memory and for once, I want to believe my love for you.

And it isn’t as painless as I thought.

Because my bleeding heart burns in a fiery blaze, a hole inside me. I feel emptier now than ever as the black ghost blurs my vision more than my tears. The room begins to fade away but the internal pain remains, the daunting memories still stay. I want to go now, now before I go farther insane.

Everything is going to be fine, Syn, I swear to you. It’s all going to be alright after this despite my pain, despite my horrific sight. I don’t want you to see my body sprawled upon the floor, pale, cold, and stone dead. But you will and everything, everything will still forever and ever be alright. Because I’m swearing it to you. Because I’m no longer here to bother you…because you’re free, Syn. My sweet, sweet Synyster…

And through the small remaining haze I think I see you, your sweet, beautiful face filled with horror. But my mind lies to me, its plays tricks.

You’re not there.

I’m dying here alone…all alone.

And with my final breath a whisper escapes my bluing lips; though it’s barely audible it matters not for nobody is here to listen, to hear…

“I love you, Brian.”

So far away, I'm gone
Please don't follow me tonight
And while I'm gone everything will be alright

~Tbc~
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