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Nexus	By : GatesVengeance Category: Singers/Bands/Musicians > Avenged Sevenfold Views: 1355 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 1
Disclaimer: I do not know Avenged Sevenfold personally,nor am i affiliated with them in any way. This story is a work of fiction. I make no profit whatsoever from this story.

Chapter List
- 1-Nexus
- 2-Part 2
- 3-Part 3
- 4-Part 4
- 5-Part 5
- 6-Part 6
- 7-Part 7
- 8-Part 8
- 9-Part 9
- 10-Part 10
- 11-Part 11
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Part 1:
Zack Baker, better known as Zacky Vengeance, stood in front of his dirty, smudged mirror, eyes narrowed as he pulled at the non-existent fat on his stomach. Despite the fact that there was clearly no fat on him at all, he could only see the chubby, slightly overweight teenage version of himself staring back at him with that stupid grin he used to pull.
“Fat fuck” he mumbled as he tried to squeeze away the tiniest bit of excess skin he could grab. “Lose some fuckin’ weight” he spat.
The heavy banging on the bathroom door panicked him slightly as he heard Matt’s voice on the other side. “Zack! Are you nearly done?!”
“Hang on!” Zack called back as he pulled on his shirt and opened the bathroom door on their tour bus to see his singer staring angrily back at him. “Sorry.” He mumbled as he bowed his head and squeezed past the larger man and walked out towards where he could hear the rest of the band talking in the front of the bus.
The revolting stench of McDonalds greeted him as he approached where the other three members of his band were seating, already digging into their meal. He took his usual seat on the far chair where his large Double Quarter Pounder meal sat, awaiting its digestion. He felt physically ill as he sat down in front of it, unwrapping his burger to reveal it in all its greasy glory.
He picked up the burger and took a small bite out of it. Despite the fact that he could feel the grease dripping on to his fingers as he held it in his grasp, the burger did taste good. Before he knew it, he was taking bite after bite, the burger quickly disappearing before his eyes.
“Zack, slow down buddy.” He heard Brian’s voice laugh and he immediately stopped eating to look at the other man who was barely half way through his own burger. “It’s not a race.”
Zack, immediately feeling repulsed by his ownbehaviour, dropped the burger back onto its wrapping and wiped his hands on his serviette, trying to get rid of any trace of the food on him. He sat back on his chair and stared blankly at his food.
“I didn’t mean stop eating.” Brian laughed again. “I just meant that you look so good lately that wolfing down a burger isn’t going to do you any good.”
Zack was even more disgusted with himself. It made him begin to feel physically sick as he dwelled more and more on the fact that he had treated his body like a garbage bin. He heard the sound of the toilet flushing before Matt emerged a few moments later and that was when he seized his chance.
He leapt up from his seat and headed for the bathroom, locking the door behind him and closing his eyes as he leant against it. He felt a single tear roll down his cheek as thought about how stupid he’d been. He snapped his eyes open as he reached for his toothbrush from the basin and dropped to his knees on the cold tile floor in front of the porcelain toilet.

He took a deep breath as he lifted the lid and leant forward, ramming the toothbrush down his throat, bristle end first, making himself gag. He continued the process several times until something finally came up. He pulled his toothbrush out just in time for the remains of his dinner to land into the toilet.
He took a deep breath before he vomited again, each time the contents were less and less and mainly bile. He rested his head against the tiled wall behind him, his face was perspiring slightly and his head was spinning as he dove his head down to the toilet one last time for the last little bit of bile that came up.
He didn’t know how long he sat on the bathroom floor, trying to regain his breath. When he was finally able to stand, he made his way over to the basin, clammy hands gripping onto the furniture as he looked at his pale, gaunt reflection. His head was spinning as he stared into the mirror; his dark eyes were looking at him with nothing but disgust.
He turned the tap on, his gaze dropping from the mirror as he watched the water flow freely from the rusting tap. He cupped his hands and splashed some water onto his face, immediately cooling his burning face. His gaze moved back up to the mirror but only lingered for a moment as he slammed off the taps and walked to the door.
His hand lingered on the doorknob for a moment before he pulled it off and took the few steps towards the white set of bathroom scales that sat perfectly next to the sink. He took a slow breath before he stepped onto the scales for the fourth time that day.
He felt incredibly angered as he looked down and saw the ugly 176 pounds staring back at him. He had gained 2 pounds since the first time he weighed himself this morning. He stepped off the scales and kicked them hard against the wall, ignoring the throbbing pain in his foot as he yanked open the bathroom door and headed towards the front of the bus where he knew the rest of the band were sitting.
As he approached them, he noticed that all of them were looking at him with the upmost concern, except for Jimmy, who looked annoyed for some reason. He carefully took his seat and pushed his cold food away from him.
“Everything okay, Zacky?” Johnny asked cautiously, his voice cracking slightly as he pulled a slight smile at his band mate.
“Everything is fine.” Zack snapped, folding his arms across his chest and leaning against the chair. Johnny immediately stopped smiling but Zack was more concerned with the repulsed look on his drummer’s face. “What’s your problem?” He spat.
“My problem?” Jimmy snapped back, equally as vicious. “What’s your problem?”
Zack opened his mouth to speak but Matt, who spotted that there was going to be an argument, beat him to it. “Jim, don’t.” He said in a composed, calm voice. “Please.”
Jimmy nodded, folding his arms tightly across his chest as he still stared at Zack. His penetrating gaze was far too much for Zack to handle.
“I don’t need to deal with this shit.” Zack snapped, standing up. “Good night.” He added and quickly headed to the back area of the bus where the bunks were.
He slid into his bunk and rolled over onto his stomach, burying his head deep into his pillow. He felt the tears escape from his eyes as they drenched his pillow but he did not make a sound. He knew from past experience that if he made even a single noise the rest of his band would act strangely around him.
After a few minutes of heavy crying, he managed to roll himself onto his back. He stared at the black roof above him, wondering why it had to be him. He had worked so hard to get to the position he was in, practiced on his guitar so hard that he had permanent calluses on every finger.
He always figured that his depression and self-loathing would disappear when he finally achieved his lifelong dream of being a world famous rock star but the more famous Avenged Sevenfold became, the more he found himself spinning into a black hole of despair. He covered his face in thick, heavy make up so he could hide behind his alter ego mask while his hair, which covered half of his face, made it almost tolerable for him to look into the mirror.
His tattoos were a completely different story. Almost every part of his arms was covered in the colourful, artistic design but they acted as a deterrent for his self harming. He knew that underneath nearly all of those tattoos there were scars from the numerous times he used to self harm himself. But he refused to be that person anymore, instead controlling his eating.
As he covered his eyes with his hands, trying to black out any distractions, he couldn’t help but wonder why it had to be him that was like this.
a/n: this story will be a lot different to anything I’ve ever written, very dark. thanks for reading and reviewing :)
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