I wanna save you

The next day i was the first one up i checked to see what time we were playing. It said 11 it was now 10:40 i went to wake up Zoe and Lexie they were both up already.
"We play in 20 minutes."
"Were not playing today." Lexie says
"What?"
"Kevin found out about last night and said we don't have to play" Zoe explains
"I want to play."
"What? you probably got a beating of a lifetime and you want to play?" Zoe ask
"Yeah....were on in 20 minutes so get ready." i say as i head out the door and to the stage. My arm is sore probably from when David kicked me so many times. I see Zoe and Lexie heading towards the stage and i'm excited about playing this is my escape playing in front of a crowd this is all that I've got.

"You know we don't have to do this." Lexie says
"I want to."
"Why?" Zoe ask
"Because this is all i have."
"What?" they ask at the same time
"David killed part of me that i'll never get back, You guys are always together, Dan doesn't love me, My family and i were haven't talked in 6 years this is all i have....these fans singing along with songs i wrote....this is all i have." neither of them say anything they just walk onto the stage.

I grab my guitar and strum it a few times and then i begin to play an older song called "Wait for tomorrow." my arm is hurting and i can tell my playing is bad. After the song I grab my microphone stand and adjust it:
"How's it going warped tour?" i yell into the mic the crowd cheers
"I'm sorry i know my playing is shitty but i got into a fight last night And i got my ass beat!" I looked over at Zoe she looked shocked
"How many of you have gotten drunk off your ass and started a fight for no good reason?!" some people cheer
"Then this next song is for all you mother fuckers like me!" i say and more people cheer as i play the beat to "Fuck tomorrow live for today." a song about having fun on Friday nights. As far as the crowd knew i was in a fight because i was drunk i knew i had to explain what happened to my face or there would be rumors flying around.

The set seemed to last for only a few minutes after that i walked off to head for the bus. I didn't want anybody to talk to me and i didn't want anybody to tell me how sorry they were about last night. In my head i felt like this was all my fault i could have left him a long time ago but i didn't I thought he would change i thought that things would get better but they didn't. I walked onto the bus and saw that i had one missed call it was from David my phone rang it was him for some reason i hit accept.

"Hello?" he ask
"What do you want?"
"I'm sorry." he mumbles
"Ok." i was about to hang up
"Wait....i know that i hurt you badly last night and i'll never forgive myself for that. I'm going to get help and i'm doing it for you."
"Am i supposed to be impressed?"
"No."
"Good because i'm not, you go ahead and get all the help in the world it won't change a thing it won't heal these scars i have nothing ever will....i don't need you i thought i did but i don't, i don't want you to call, or write me or some to my shows. As of this moment you are just somebody i used to know, as of this moment you are dead to me."
"Ok." he says in a low tone
"I hope someday somebody hurts you as badly as you hurt me because i know you'll never be able to handle it......Have a nice life asshole and thank you for fucking up mine!" i say and hang up the phone that felt good.

I hear somebody walk on the bus it is Dan he is with Gwen
"Hi."
"Hi." i smile weakly
"How are you doing?" she ask i notice she is wearing a short white skirt with a green tank top her boobs are practically falling out.
"Fine." i say not looking at either of them
"We were going to go eat do you want to come?" he ask
"No i'm not hungry."
"Ok....i'll talk to you later." he says and they leave.

After a while of being alone on the bus I got tired of being alone and i need somebody to talk to so i head outside talk to somebody. I see Dan and Gwen standing by the bus right behind mine. They are talking to some roadies and some of the guys from some other band i walk over they stop talking once i get there.

"What are you guys talking about?" i ask
"Your set how it was awesome." one of the roadies says
"No it wasn't it was shitty." i say softly
"No it was really good i wouldn't have gone out there but you did....you're my hero." he says in a funny voice we all laugh. After a while of talking more people come and talk to all of us. I stop talking and notice that Gwen is talking to one of the roadies but it looks like she is really flirting i don't any anything.

"Miranda?" she ask
"Yeah?"
"Do you think you could teach me how to play guitar some time?"
"Ok."
"I've always wanted to learn."
"why doesn't dan teach you?"
"i wanted you to teach me."
"why?"
"because i love your band." she says with a smile
"Ok you want to learn a little right now?"
"yeah." she says excitedly i go to my bus and find my guitar

"Ok." i hand her the guitar and she looks nervous
"Do you want to learn here or on my bus?"
"Your bus."
"Ok." we head back to my bus and she sits down. After what seems like hours of her trying to learn about the chords she gives up
"Its not as easy as it looks." she says handing me my guitar
"Yeah." she is really annoying
"I bet you're excited about tomorrow being the last day of the tour huh?"
"Not really why?"
"Oh because i heard the guys talking about how they were excited."
"That's just for the groupies."
"Oh." she smiles
"You wanna head back to see what Dan is doing?" i ask
"Yeah." she says un amused

We go to his bus and she right away kisses him before sitting down
"How did it go?"
"I gave up....it was too hard." she said
"Oh." he smiles
"I gotta pee." she announces and walks off
"So what do you think of her?"
"She's ok?" i say in more of a question rather a statement
"You don't like her huh?"
"Not really...she's a little bit annoying." he looks away
"Oh."
"But don't worry i'll still be nice." he smiles
"I'm gonna go take a nap."
"Ok." i walk off their bus and back to mine i only meant to sleep for an hour instead i slept the whole night though