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Until You Lose Your Breath	By : theProphet Category: > Kyo/Kaoru Views: 1741 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
Disclaimer: This is the work of fiction. Don't know Dir en grey and don't make any money from this.

Chapter List
- 9
- 10
- 11
Author’s comment:
I can see that I’m not the only one bored to death lately! lol So before going to bed I decided to post one more chapter ^^ I’m just feeling generous tonight! LOL :P Ok, seriously, I’m happy people read AND comment ^^ Cause I don’t feel like posting this thing for no reason whatsoever :P lol
And I can’t possibly post 50 chapters 'cause this fic has 'only' 19 chapters total :DDD So not much is left of this mediocre story >_< (I’m not as happy with it as I used to be >_< I hope the sequel is really better and I’m not just remembering things incorrectly >_< lol)
Ok, I'm off to bed ^^ Happy reading ^^

CHAPTER 10

It was the most boring month they ever had, but Kaoru was pleased with the work. Kyo did his job well but he almost never talked now. He said to the others that he wants to rest his voice during the break but the real reason was that he was in no mood to talk with anybody. He felt that everyone abandoned him. Kyo felt almost all the time depressed and moody. But everyone assumed that it was ok because it was their Kyo.
While singing every song Kyo felt like singing for Kaoru. It was getting harder and harder for him not to think of Kaoru. He started to cry more often though he himself hated it. And then there also was that constant pain in the throat but Kyo ignored it deliberately.
And finally the recording ended. It was already late, but the guys were still not leaving. After the stuff went away Kaoru asked other three to stay a bit longer.
-What for? –Kyo muttered angrily.
-You’ll see, -Kaoru said and glanced at the clock.
-What are we waiting for? –Toshiya asked curiously.
-You’ll see, -Kaoru repeated. –Just stay here until 10.
So the guys did as they were told. When the clock showed almost 10 o’clock the doors opened and Shinya entered the room. Everyone looked at him and was stunned. Shinya’s face was smooth. His lips looked like they never had that loathsome scar on them. The scars were gone. His hair was now shoulders long and nicely cut. Shinya looked as beautiful as never before.
-Shinya… -Die whispered in disbelief. –Shin-chan…
He suddenly came up to him and hugged him tightly then drew back and looked him in the eyes.
-I’ve missed you so much, -he whispered and Shinya smiled to him. Die saw faint remains of the scars, they were still seen from this close. But Die felt so happy for him. His little Shin-chan was adorable again.
Die smiled back at him and kissed him on the lips lightly.
-That’s my surprise for you, -Shinya said. –Now you can be not ashamed of being with me.
-Stupid Shin-chan, -Die said and placed a light kiss on his nose. Suddenly Shinya blushed a deep red and was looking over Die’s shoulder. Die for a moment didn’t understand what happened to Shinya, but the thought struck him: we’re not alone!
Die released Shinya from his grip and turned back. Kaoru and Toshiya were staring at them eyes wide open. Kyo even managed to force a smile seeing all this.
-What does it all mean? –Kaoru finally asked.
-We’re together, -Die answered immediately. –I never wanted to keep it a secret but Shinya didn’t want to tell you immediately after we got together. We wanted to keep it in private for some time.
-Since when are you together? –Kaoru demanded.
-Since my birthday.
-It won’t affect the work, Kaoru san, -Shinya said still blushing.
-I hope that it wouldn’t, -Kaoru retorted. –I hope it won’t cause any problems to the band. How could you… What is it anyway? Some your caprice, Die?
-It’s not a caprice, Kaoru. I love Shinya and Shinya loves me back.
-There’s no love in this doomed world. I hope you’ll soon get bored of each other and that this relationship of yours won’t last long.
-How can you talk like that, Kaoru? –Toshiya asked angrily. –It’s their personal life, they can do whatever they want with it. Don’t be so unfair and cruel to them!
-I just don’t want you to get hurt and be disappointed in the end, -Kaoru sighted. –I know it won’t last. You’re too different.
-Your words hurt us more, Kaoru, -Shinya said finally looking up. –Your support means so much to me… I love Die and I believe in us. Why can’t you believe in us too, Kaoru san?
Kaoru approached Shinya and hugged him.
-I don’t want you to get hurt, Shin-chan. You’re so delicate and grave and Die is a happy-go-lucky sort of guy. If anyone in the end will get hurt, it’s only you…
-I know, Kaoru san, -Shinya smiled gently and hugged Kaoru back, -but I believe in Die. And if after all we’ll break up, at least I’ll know that we tried. Only this makes it worth all the trouble.
Kaoru stepped back and looked at Shinya.
-Still, I don’t think it’s wise.
-But I’m so happy now, Kaoru san, -Shinya smiled widely. Kaoru looked closely at him and sighted. Then he turned back and looked at Die.
-If you’ll hurt him I’ll make your life miserable!
-Yeah… Thanks for the support, -Die shot back, but he was not angry. He didn’t expect any other reaction from Kaoru. He was not stupid. He saw how Kyo still was in grief over his and Kaoru’s break up. He knew Kaoru saw it and felt guilty. But there was nothing he could do. After such a bitter experience Kaoru just couldn’t react in any other way. It affected Kyo’s work. Kyo now almost never smiled and talked to them. He was slowly slipping in his own world and the only one who could help him to be the same again was powerless.
-You’re not right, -Kyo suddenly spoke and everyone turned to look at him. –Die said he loves Shinya. That makes it all different. You never loved me so you should have told yourself what you’re telling them now. Die’s not such a jerk as you are. He won’t break Shinya’s heart intentionally.
-What… -Kaoru started but Kyo grabbed his bag and went away slamming the door. Everyone was silent again. Kaoru sat down and put his head in his hands. His shoulders started to tremble a little.
-You understand now? Do you understand? –he said with a shaky voice. –I don’t want you to undergo the same as I did… Do you think I’m happy that Kyo still suffers? Do you think I enjoy his hatred? I have to see him growing distant from us all more and more with every day and I can’t help him… nobody can…
Die put a hand on Kaoru’s shoulder and squeezed it lightly.
-He needs more time, Kaoru, -Die said sympathetically. –He’ll get over it.
-Yes, Kaoru, don’t worry, -Toshiya added and hugged Kaoru. –Kyo’s going to be alright.
Only Shinya didn’t say anything. He stood still looking at his three band mates with a worried expression on his face.
***
Die was staring at Shinya since they sat at the table in the kitchen. They were eating supper in silence. Shinya had prepared quite a big feast earlier, so they were now enjoying a stake with potatoes and salad. There was also Shinya’s famous cherry cake waiting its turn. Add some vine and everything will look perfect.
Die managed not to lower his gaze even eating so Shinya after some time couldn’t take it anymore.
-Die, is everything ok? –he asked.
-Yes, everything’s perfect.
-Are you angry at me?
-Well… yes, I am. What else do you expect? You vanished for a month and not even called me! For a whole month, Shinya!
-I’m sorry, -Shinya lowered his eyes, -but I wanted to do a surprise for you.
-I know and I like the surprise a lot. But I was just worried. And I missed you a lot!
-I missed you too.
Die sighted. Shinya took a bite of steak.
-I’m angry on you too, you know, -Shinya said silently.
-Why is that?
-You gave away our secret…
-Ah… that… I didn’t do it on purpose, Shin-chan. I was so happy to see you and so surprised to see your face so beautiful again that I just forgot everything. You, on the other hand, left me for a month on purpose.
-I thought so.
-What?
-That I’ll never here the end of it when I’ll come back.
Die suddenly started laughing. Shinya looked at him angrily.
-Oh, Shin-chan! You’re just adorable!
Die moved to sit closer to him and caressed Shinya’s cheek with a hand. He looked at him adoringly and then kissed.
-Let’s finish eating, -Shinya managed to say in between the kisses. –I don’t want to go to bed with an empty stomach.
-Ok, -Die smiled. –But you better prepare to feel sore in the morning and get those looks from the guys, if you know what I mean.
Shinya blushed and Die could only just smile. After some time Die spoke again:
-Was it painful?
Shinya raised his head and looked at Die questioningly.
-The operation. Was it painful?
-The first several days were horrible, but later it was ok. At some point just after the operation I even wanted to call you and ask you to come because I didn’t want to endure it alone anymore.
-So you should have called me!
-But I would have spoiled the surprise. It’s always like that in the beginning.
Die didn’t know what else to say, he felt guilty that his Shin-chan was alone in this hard time.
-Die, can we forget it now? –Shinya asked. –It was my decision and you’re not responsible of it. Only the thought of your face when you’d see me beautiful again gave me all the strength I needed to undergo the procedures.
Die sighted and smiled.
-I’m so damn lucky you fell in love with me, -was all he said that evening.
***
Kyo dropped his shoes and a bag in the corner and went to the kitchen. He made himself coffee and sat at the table. A cup of coffee and a cigarette was becoming his usual meal. He was in no mood cooking anything.
-Damn! –Kyo swore. He just felt like swearing all the time and throwing around things, breaking everything and beating the shit out of everyone. He rubbed his throat. It hurt so much these days that it was becoming very tiring.
-Damn!
Kyo took a deep drag of cigarette and his thoughts drifted to Shinya. He looked like he used to again. Kyo was glad for him but he was very jealous as well. Why could Shinya have Die and be happy with him. Die even said in front of everyone that he loves Shinya.
Oh, how he envied their happiness.
She’s pretty. She’s very shy and… she’s not very experienced in bed but I intend to teach her everything that I know.
Yeah, Shinya’s pretty and a virgin. He was a virgin. They’re already enjoying themselves in bed.
-Damn it!
Why can Shinya give Die everything he needs? What’s the secret?
Kyo stubbed the cigarette angrily and lit another one. He didn’t even notice how the memories flooded his mind.
~~~
Kaoru left the work earlier than others because he had to take some papers to their manager. Because of this reason Kyo was going home alone. Well, he was not going exactly home. He was going to Kaoru’s place as they had agreed earlier that day. When he arrived, Kaoru opened the door with a strange smile on his face.
-What’s up with you? –Kyo asked curiously.
-Go into the living room, -Kaoru just said and went back to the kitchen. Kyo did as he was told. When he entered the living room he saw that the table was laid for a nice supper. Some candles were lit and put on the table near the bottle of vine. A strange but nice scent of perfume lingered in the air. Kaoru entered the room with the supper. It was a stake with potatoes and salad. Kyo was totally taken aback. Kaoru did not like cooking because he thought it was a waist of time.
-You did this all for me?
-Of course, don’t you like it?
-Oh, I think I’ll just love it. It smells so good!
Kaoru chuckled and put the food on the table.
-It’s so easy to please you, -he said.
They sat at the table and enjoyed their supper. Kyo was completely satisfied with everything. He was even more content when they had the dessert which was a nice chocolate cake with strong coffee.
-Ah… That was just yummy!
-Glad you liked it, -Kaoru smiled fondly. –Come.
He took Kyo’s hand and leaded him to the bedroom. Kyo was too happy to even wonder why they were going there at this early hour. But he was so surprised when they finally got there. The curtains were closed, but lots of big candles lit the bedroom with dim light. Lots of rose petals were on the bed and some lay scattered around it too. Kyo looked questioningly at Kaoru but the other man just closed the bedroom door and led Kyo to the bed. Kaoru gently kissed Kyo on the lips deliberately touching his piercing in the lip with the teeth. Kyo felt that Kaoru started to undress him so Kyo helped him. Then Kaoru’s turn came.
They lied on the bed only when they were totally naked. Kyo was getting hard with every second and Kaoru was already needy. Kyo brought his hands up and started to caress Kaoru’s hair.
When Kyo understood that Kaoru wanted so much more from him and not only a blow job, he became worried. He didn’t know why it made him feel like that. He wanted to make love to Kaoru so much. Kyo decided not to say a word this time even if it would be too painful. Kaoru deserves it. Kaoru waited for so long.
The guitarist was kissing Kyo’s shoulder and that made the vocalist shudder. He loved the strange wet feeling the kisses left. Kaoru extracted a bottle of lube from somewhere and wetted his fingers. He smiled gently at Kyo and then pushed himself down a little. Kyo lied on his back silently watching Kaoru.
Kaoru gently spread Kyo’s legs apart and carefully pushed one finger inside without any warning. Kyo suddenly tensed but just for some seconds. It didn’t feel very bad. But when Kaoru pushed the second finger, Kyo got worried. When finally the third one was added, Kyo gripped the sheets and closed his eyes. He was so full! It felt like someone would have stuffed a hand into his ass. He felt like he was going to tear apart into two peaces. And it was just three fingers. Kaoru was much bigger than that. Sometimes it was so hard for Kyo to deep throat him. He couldn’t imagine how Kaoru would fit in him. How would he move in him.
Kyo bit his lip and kept silent. He didn’t want to get into an argument with Kaoru again. Maybe it’s always like that at the first time. He just has to endure this once or twice until he’d get used to it.
Kyo opened his eyes and saw that Kaoru was looking at him but his expression did not betray any emotion. Kyo smiled at him weakly. Kaoru started to move his fingers inside his lover and Kyo shut his eyes again. It didn’t feel pleasurable at all.
Finally Kaoru removed the fingers and was back next to Kyo again. He positioned himself between Kyo’s legs, his erection touching the inside of Kyo’s thighs. Looking directly at Kyo Kaoru carefully started to push himself inside. Kyo put his hands around Kaoru’s shoulder and squeezed his eyes shut. He didn’t feel that he was almost choking Kaoru with his grip. Kaoru entered him very slowly but Kyo’s body started to tremble from the pangs of pain and fear. When Kaoru was inside him completely, he stopped. Kyo didn’t dare even to move because with every slightest movement he received pain. Kyo felt that he was no longer aroused, he just felt scared and in pain.
Kaoru suddenly withdrew and then pushed back inside. Kyo didn’t even understand that he released a yelp. He just clung to Kaoru with his hands strongly embracing the other man and his legs trying to clamp themselves together.
Kaoru suddenly withdrew completely and sat. Kyo opened his eyes and looked at his lover. He didn’t feel the tears that ran down his cheeks.
Kaoru looked at him with anger in his eyes. Kyo suddenly felt scared. He knew he fucked up again. Kaoru was disappointed with him. But Kyo didn’t dare to say a word.
Kaoru got up and went to the bathroom. After some seconds the running water was heard. Kyo climbed under the sheets and lied on his side of the bed. When Kaoru got back, he didn’t even look at Kyo. The older man put out the candles and laid on the bed his back to Kyo.
Only after several hours Kyo managed to finally fall asleep.
~~~
Shinya snuggled close to Die and closed his eyes. He was so tired. And sticky. And sweaty. Shinya sighted.
-What was that for? –he heard Die’s voice.
-Nothing… I’m just tired, -Shinya replied.
-It’s not surprising, -Die chuckled and got a light punch on his shoulder.
-Hey!
Shinya giggled and put a hand over Die’s waist.
-Does it hurt much? –Die asked.
-A little. You’re just too big for me.
-Well, what else do you expect? I like to eat sometimes, not like you! You’re so skinny, no wander your… er… little passage is so small and narrow.
Shinya blushed a little but didn’t comment.
-If you want, we can change places next time. I’m sure it’ll be not as painful for me as it is for you.
-Why is that?
-I don’t want to insult you.
Shinya opened his eyes and looked at Die.
-What do you mean?
-Well, having in mind that you’re just SO skinny, your little fellow down there is not so big either.
Shinya didn’t say anything.
-Are you angry?
-I can’t be angry for you telling me the truth. I know I have a small…
-Not small, -Die interrupted him, -but just smaller than mine. That’s a big difference.
-Huh…
-So? Do you want to change places?
-No… Not now, anyway. Later. I want to get used to this first. I wouldn’t know what to do if I’d be on top anyway.
-Ok, then.
They laid for some time in silence.
-Die, did you have lovers before me? I mean, guys…
-Yes.
-How many?
-I don’t remember.
-Sure you do, -Shinya answered calmly.
-Huh… Well, not much, just five or so, I guess.
-So that’s were you’ve learned all the stuff.
-Maybe… I was drunk, so I don’t really remember all the details.
-You were drunk when you were with all of them?
-Yes. I wouldn’t screw other guy being sober.
-But you’re sober now, -Shinya smiled.
-You know, I try to do for you things I like myself and I hope that you’d like them too.
-I like everything you do to me, Daisuke…
-I’m glad to hear that.
Shinya smiled again and closed his eyes.
-What are you doing? –Die asked.
-Sleeping…
-Oh no, it’s only one in the morning. I’d like to try something else with you!
-But I’m already so tired and sore…
-I’ll try to be extremely gentle.
Die put his hand on Shinya’s hip and started caressing it. He kissed Shinya on the lips enjoying the new sensation that was caused by the smooth and soft lips.
-I just can’t get enough of you, -Die whispered into Shinya’s ear and the drummer felt his body go numb in excitement.

TBC

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