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The Moon	By : theProphet Category: Dir en grey > AU - Alternate Universe Views: 1373 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Chapter List
- 9
- 10
- 11
So here it is, a new chapter finally, after what feels like forever >_< I really hope there still were people waiting for it :( I’m sorry it took ages to pull out an update! Next chapter is already written, so you won’t have to wait forever until I update again! :) As what concerns this particular chapter, the deeper into this forest, the darker it gets >_< Somehow the plot got a bit too complicated and I’m just trying to untangle this mess now :) And it’s probably going to be 13 chapters altogether XD Anyways, please enjoy this instalment and forgive me my slowness! ^^

CHAPTER 10

Toshiya slammed the door behind him and stormed down the hall. He punched the elevator button angrily and waited for the door to open.
The reasonable side of him knew he wasn’t right at shouting at his band mates and going as far as even pushing one of them, but he couldn’t see reason anymore. He was exhausted, sleep deprived, tired and angry. And the worst part of it was that he knew why, but he couldn’t really do much to change it.
Kyo was tiring him out.
Somewhere along the weeks they were together Toshiya finally noticed that Kyo barely ever slept. Usually he would be very quiet, but sometimes he would stay up talking and even arguing with somebody.
That was another thing Toshiya couldn’t make himself be comfortable with. Kyo was seeing things, talking to imaginary people and he didn’t even realize that!
Sometimes at night when Toshiya would be woken up by Kyo’s voice, he would find it extremely unnerving to have Kyo lying on the ground between the bed and the wall, and murmuring to somebody in the darkness. Toshiya knew there was nobody in the bedroom with them, but he couldn’t help looking around just to make sure.
Other nights Kyo would be shouting downstairs, slamming doors, even screaming. During nights like that Toshiya barely would have any sleep at all. And he always needed to get up early to get to his band’s office or the studio, because Kyo lived on the other side of Tokyo from it, which meant almost two hours of traveling for Toshiya. And the company his band belonged to wasn’t accepting any excuses.
Toshiya did try gently suggesting to Kyo that maybe he should see a doctor, he wasn’t even specific enough and didn’t say what doctor he had in mind, but Kyo wasn’t listening. He said he felt fine, just had a little trouble sleeping.
I have to think how to persuade him. Maybe if I asked Kaoru to tell Kyo to go see a doctor…
The saddest part for Toshiya was that he thought Kyo would immediately do as Kaoru told him. But Toshiya didn’t want to ask Kaoru’s help. At least not yet. He was still hoping to solve this problem on his own.
When Toshiya finally got back to Kyo’s house, he felt some of his anger vanish. He breathed easier and felt calmer. He knew he will have to apologize to his bandmates next day. After all, they were colleagues working closely together, even though he wasn’t nearly as close to them as he was to Dir en grey members. Deep down inside he knew his former bandmates will always be closest to his heart. But this was now his new band and his new job, and he had to make it work. In a week they were going to have their first show filmed at Budokan. There cannot be any arguments between them, especially not because Toshiya felt like exploding in front of everybody because of some silly reason.
Stopping at the front door of Kyo’s house, Toshiya took a deep breath and then unlocked the door. Kyo gave him the key long ago, because he said it made more sense for Toshiya to let himself in. Less trouble and inconveniences.
I wish he gave me the key because he wanted me to have it.
Toshiya stepped inside and locked the door behind him. There still was time to change Kyo’s heart, he was constantly telling himself. After all, Kyo wouldn’t be fucking somebody he didn’t like just because he wanted sex. He had to like Toshiya, he just had to, at least a little bit. And he wasn’t going to be in love with Kaoru forever, knowing Kaoru was with Die for years.
So if anyone asked Toshiya, he would say he still had a chance with Kyo. And quite a big one.
Feeling slightly better, Toshiya took off his shoes and went to the kitchen where he could see the only light in the house. He found Kyo sitting at the table, rice cooker in front of him full of steaming rice as smells suggested, fried vegetables in a pan and freshly made curry sauce in another one.
“Evening” Toshiya smiled and leaned in to peck Kyo on the lips. “Smells wonderful.”
“Hey” was Kyo’s quiet answer.
“How was your day, Kyo-kun? Are you ok?”
“’m fine.”
“You sure?”
Kyo just nodded and Toshiya decided to accept this answer for now, even though Kyo looked a little down. Come to think of it, Kyo looked a little upset lately, but Toshiya couldn’t manage to get Kyo to tell him what was bothering him.
They ate in silence and then washed the dishes. Toshiya took a shower and as it was almost eleven they retired to bed to watch some program on TV. Toshiya hugged Kyo with one arm and was relieved to find his hands full of Kyo. Kyo made himself comfortable, putting his head on Toshiya’s chest, his leg between Toshiya’s legs and closed his eyes.
After a while the bedroom filled up with the sounds of Kyo’s deep breathing and Toshiya simply turned off the TV and watched Kyo’s small frame resting in his arms. When the clock neared twelve, Toshiya turned off the lights and made himself comfortable in bed.
oOoOoOo
Constant bumping and crashing woke Toshiya up. At first he was confused as to what those sounds were and where they were coming from. Kyo wasn’t in bed with him anymore, so Toshiya glanced at the floor behind the bed, but the sheets down there were empty as well.
Something crashed downstairs again and Toshiya jumped out of bed. He ran downstairs and almost tripped over something, as no lights were on. The sounds were coming from the living-room. He ran inside it and turned on the light.
Kyo was standing in his underwear in the middle of the wrecked room, holding what looked like chair’s leg. When Toshiya turned on the light, Kyo flinched and turned to Toshiya.
“Kyo, what’s happening?”
But the look Kyo gave was one of confusion and fear.
“It’s on, and I can’t find the switch to turn it off!”
“What are you talking about, Kyo?”
Kyo turned away and threw the leg of a chair at the window. The glass didn’t break, but the piece of wood rebounded and landed on the floor.
“Where the fuck is it? I can’t take any more of this fucking beeping!” Kyo shouted and grabbed a table and turned it over. “Help me find it!” Kyo screamed, but he wasn’t talking to Toshiya.
“Come on, Kyo, let’s go back to bed” Toshiya said, coming closer to Kyo and trying to ignore the wrecked living-room. He took Kyo by his arm, but Kyo immediately freed himself from Toshiya’s grip and grabbed the magazines lying on the table, threw them aside and kicked the table with his leg.
“Kyo, stop it, let’s go back to bed” Toshiya pleaded, feeling like he was losing his temper already. He grabbed Kyo’s arm again, but Kyo pushed Toshiya back, smacking him on the face with another hand.
Kyo then ran up to the mirror on the wall, forced it off the wall with some difficulty and threw the whole mirror directly at Toshiya.
“Leave me alone!” Kyo screamed. “Both of you!”
Toshiya ducked to avoid the mirror, but its wooden framed corner hit his face and Toshiya screamed in pain. For a moment Toshiya stood there dumbfounded, clutching his face. Bright drops of red blood found their way through Toshiya’s fingers and fell on the floor. Chards of broken glass scattered on his right as the mirror broke into pieces landing on the floor behind him.
Toshiya didn’t have time to recover from shock and pain when a heavy book appeared out of nowhere and hit him on the head. The next second he heard footsteps and then Kyo jumped on him, beating him frantically whenever he could reach.
“Where did you hid it?” Kyo screamed hysterically. “Turn it off! Turn it off!”
For a moment Toshiya felt disoriented and could only cover his head with his hands to avoid the blows, but in a few seconds he grabbed Kyo’s arms and pushed Kyo off him. He then pinned Kyo’s arms behind his back and managed to hold him pressed to the wall.
Kyo was struggling in his grip, madly trying to get away, squeezing his eyes shut as if he was also in pain.
“Toshiya, help me! Totchi, please!”
The scream startled Toshiya and he stared at Kyo for a moment.
“I’m here, Kyo!” Toshiya said as clearly and loudly as he could, but Kyo was still struggling in his arms, not looking at him.
“Toshiya!” Kyo screamed again and suddenly hit Toshiya between the legs. Toshiya fell to the ground, clutching his penis and balls in his big hands, his vision clouded for long, long moments. Somewhere in the distance he would hear Kyo scream for him, but at that moment he could only concentrate on his pain.
When he felt he could stand up again, Kyo was gone from the living-room.
It took another forty-five minutes to get Kyo to calm down. All the time Kyo didn’t recognize him, for Toshiya it looked like Kyo didn’t even really see him, he was somewhere far away.
When Toshiya finally managed to get Kyo to calm down, it was ten to four in the morning – less than three hours of sleep left.
oOoOoOo
“What happened to you?”
Toshiya looked up and saw Kyo’s worried face. He did hear Kyo’s quiet footsteps on the wooden floor, but was reluctant to look up even when he heard Kyo stop a few feet away from him. The concern in Kyo’s voice didn’t help at all. Toshiya was tired, sleepy, beaten up and angry. It was hard for him to find some compassion for Kyo right at that moment.
“It’s all thanks to you” he said, for the first time in weeks directing anger straight at Kyo.
“W-what?” Kyo looked genuinely confused.
“What do you think happened to your living-room and kitchen?” Toshiya asked, looking irritated. “You did all of this, including my black eye and these cuts on my face.”
Kyo looked shocked. He closed the distance between them and lifted his hand to touch Toshiya’s cheek, but Toshiya moved away from Kyo.
“I don’t remember doing any of that….” Kyo said, sounding upset. “I’m so sorry…”
“Well, I’m sorry as well” Toshiya said. “I’ve got a show at Budokan in a week! How am I supposed to go on stage now, looking like that?”
“I… I’m sorry” Kyo repeated, his voice now sounding weak and small.
“Kyo, do you even realize that you’re having hallucinations all the time?”
Kyo looked at him like he thought Toshiya was the mad one.
“I’m serious here, Kyo. It’s a really big problem and the sooner you get help for that, the better.”
Kyo turned his head to the right, as if glancing at somebody.
“There’s nobody there, Kyo” Toshiya said, sounding colder than he intended.
He didn’t want to upset Kyo or be cruel about this, but he was so tired, so sleepy, his face felt like it was on fire, still very fresh and painful. And it was hard for him to find some pity in his heart for Kyo. Even if he loved Kyo so damn much.
“You know what, Kyo, I need rest. I’m not coming back here tonight after work. I’ll go straight home and sleep for twelve hours. And I need to take care of my cuts and bruises.”
“Toshiya…”
“No, Kyo, I need rest. I desperately need it.”
“You said you won’t ever leave me” Kyo’s shaky voice reached his ears.
“I’m just going to go to my flat to rest” Toshiya said, though the way he tensed up spoke volumes about his inner turmoil.
“Are you coming back to me tomorrow?”
There was a long silence and Kyo waited, subconsciously wriggling his hands together. Now when Toshiya said he won’t be coming back tonight, it left him feeling very scared.
“Maybe after… after the Budokan. That show is really very important, so I have to be fresh and energetic for that.”
“Toshiya, please…” Kyo sounded like he was on the verge of tears. “If I did all of this to you – I’m so very sorry! I swear I don’t remember hitting you! But please, Toshiya, please don’t leave me alone! You said you’d never leave me! So please, don’t leave!”
Toshiya’s resolve faltered for a second, but then he thought of a whole day ahead in the studio and still too many hours before he could finally sleep, and he didn’t look at Kyo, but put on his shoes and took his bag in hand.
“Go back upstairs, Kyo, get some sleep. Go see a doctor today, maybe he’ll help you with your hallucinations. And I’ll be back as soon as I feel less like murdering somebody.”
Then without any more words Toshiya turned and left the house.
When the door was closed, Kyo stoop there on the threshold for a while, starring at the door as if hoping that Toshiya would change his mind and come back.
But he didn’t and Kyo slowly made himself move.
He went back upstairs, crawled into the space between the wall and the bed, and got in his cocoon made of sheets.
Sleep never came.
All the time he heard footsteps in the bedroom and couldn’t stop thinking if what Toshiya said was true.
Was there really The Man walking in his bedroom or was he just sick in his head, like Toshiya implied?
For the first time Kyo was afraid to get out of his sheets and see for himself. So he just lay there, listening and trying to will himself to sleep.
oOoOoOo
Kyo fidgeted, looking up at the sky, then directing his gaze to an old door of the nightclub. He was safely hid in the shadows of the trees and dusk, but he still felt too exposed. It also didn’t help that he constantly kept looking over his shoulder to make sure he wasn’t followed.
It was four days since Toshiya left and after calming down Kyo finally admitted to himself that probably it was for the best to both of them. Nothing good would have come out of their odd relationship anyway. It was good to have somebody around him all the time, but Kyo knew he had to let go.
Considering the situation, Toshiya might have been in danger as well. And the last thing Kyo wanted was for Shinya’s fate to befall on somebody else. Even on Die. Kyo desperately wanted to keep all of his friends safe.
“Come on, you can do it” Kyo murmured encouragingly to himself.
He looked back at the door again. As long as he was standing there and watching the door, nobody came in or out. But that was his only option. He didn’t know what else he could do.
I’m never getting my old life back, it’s as well I do something meaningful with the one I have now.
He inhaled deeply, closing his eyes for a moment, then stepped out of the shadows and headed to the building. He knew that deep down inside he have made this decision days ago, but to subject oneself to such situation took a lot of courage and Kyo wasn’t sure he had enough of it inside his heart.
In what felt like a few moments he reached the door and without hesitation pushed it open and stepped inside.
All was quite once he stepped inside and closed the door. Nothing looked different – same dirty, narrow hall, same few lights dimly lit on the ceiling, same eerie silence. Kyo put his hands in his pockets and quietly stepped deeper into the hall. He made it all the way to the room where he and Ryuu had a conversation, but the room was empty. For a moment Kyo stood there, thinking of what he should do.
Finally Kyo went back to the entrance and lingered there for a moment, waiting. But in the end he had to admit that there was nothing else for him to do than leave. The nightclub was empty.
Kyo went out and headed to the park on the other side of the road. He wandered around for some time, then finally sat down on the bench and starred at his dirty shoes.
He felt like the whole weight of the world suddenly descended on his shoulders.
Shinya gone – killed because he was Kyo’s friend.
His band wiped clean from the face of the earth and he doubted anyone cared anymore Dir en grey stopped existing.
No money in his bank account – nothing to keep his house warm, to keep the water coming from taps and the telephone ringing, nothing to buy food or to pay for bus fares with.
Kaoru turning his back on him. Die hating him with passion, though Kyo never did anything to hurt his friend deliberately.
Toshiya, promising to be with him forever, then gone in a few weeks. Gone because he said Kyo was a crazy insomniac.
Was there anything at all that was right in his life?
“So I heard you were looking for me.”
Kyo jumped from unexpectedness and turned his head to where the voice came from. Only when he saw the face, he was able to place the voice and the person together. It was Ryuu Hoshi, standing next to him, looking down at him curiously, with a hint of a smile on his face.
“Sorry if I scared you. I didn’t mean to sneak up on you.”
Ryuu sat down next to Kyo, intently starring Kyo in the face.
“Well? I’m listening.”
Kyo stared at him for a moment, but finally regained his composure. He nodded, then cleared his throat and tried again.
“I changed my mind. That is… if I still can…”
For a moment Ryuu looked a little surprised, but soon a feeling of relief flooded over his features and he smiled to Kyo.
“Of course you can. But I’m curious why such a sudden change?”
“I had time to think about it properly, I guess.”
“I see…”
Both of them were silent for a while – Kyo waiting for Ryuu to make the next move, Ryuu watching Kyo, trying to figure him out.
“Is it safe to talk here?” Kyo asked after a long pause of silence.
“It is, but it’s better not to stay too long here, just in case.”
“So…” Kyo pushed the words out, feeling tired all of a sudden. “What now?”
“Are you really sure about this? You’re not going to change your mind the next day?”
Kyo shook his head firmly. He knew he made his decision and for once he knew it was the right one.
“In that case, I need a bit of time to prepare your introduction to our organization. You’ve got a week or two before I come back to take you to the headquarters. From then on, you’re a part of our organization and your life will change drastically. I have to warn you, though I hope you understand this without having me to say it to you, that you’ll become an enemy of an Emperor just like me and all the others working for us, and your life will be in danger. You’ll become a target and you won’t be able to live a normal life until we take the Emperor down.”
Kyo nodded slowly.
“What about my family?” he asked, looking Ryuu in the eyes.
“We will keep them safe. I can promise you that. Though I can’t promise the same for Hara-san.”
Kyo put his head in his hands, suddenly wanting to shield his worry laden face from Ryuu.
“I don’t want him to get hurt.”
“You can make sure he stays safe by not telling him anything. If he’ll be clueless, he most probably will be safe. He’ll have nothing that would be interesting to the Emperor.”
Kyo nodded and slowly lowered his hands.
“Are you OK, Nishimura-san?”
“Please, call me Kyo.”
“Kyo.”
“You need to know one more thing” Kyo uttered, not looking at Ryuu. “I am not exactly… I mean Toshiya says I… I might not be completely sane…”
Kyo didn’t look at Ryuu sitting next to him, but the stretching silence felt uncomfortable and awkward. Still, Kyo felt he needed to say this, if Ryuu was taking responsibility, he needed to know Kyo was not exactly right in his mind.
“I know” Ryuu finally said and Kyo turned sharply to look at him. “We’ll fix that. Your insomnia and hallucinations can be fixed.”
And the way Ryuu was so certain at what he was telling made Kyo believe it was really possible. Kyo nodded more to himself that Ryuu and wriggled his hands.
“So this is it…”
“Yes” Ryuu nodded. “Honestly, I wasn’t expecting you to change your mind, so this is very good news to me. You will be of a big help to us, Kyo–san. We will change everything and if I’m really lucky, I might even get to put a bullet in the Emperor’s head.”
There was so much wistfulness in Ryuu’s voice that Kyo couldn’t stop the next question from flying out of his mouth.
“Why do you hate him so much?”
“And you don’t?” Ryuu shot back, suddenly a sparkle of anger coming to life in his otherwise calm and friendly face.
“I… I hate the system – the Moon, the food tickets, hate being watched like some criminal, hate that they killed Shinya. But it’s not one man standing behind all of it – there must be a whole bunch of people pulling Emperor’s strings!”
“You’re partly right, but the Emperor created this system and he gave the reins to those nameless people and he gave them permission to use any measures necessary to make the system work. Murder being just a part of it.”
“But you said you work in the Emperor’s Palace.”
“I do.”
“What did they do to you?”
Ryuu looked down at his watch and stood up.
“It’s time for me to go. In a week, two at most, I’ll come to pick you up. You’ll live with us in the headquarters until all of this is finished one way or the other.”
Kyo nodded, but Ryuu was already walking away.
Kyo walked through the park and took a bus home, all the way thinking about what he’s just done. He felt unnerved and scared, but at the same time he knew he made the right decision. Finally he was doing something that wasn’t selfish. It wasn’t for him. He just hoped he could be of some real help to Ryuu and do some real tangible work for them.
When he reached home, he felt more relaxed for the first time since he got to know his house was bugged. He made himself a small dinner and sat to eat while watching evening news.
Toshiya wasn’t coming home in a few hours like he used to and Kyo had absolutely nothing to do.
He tried to ignore the little pang in his heart he felt over this thought and focused on other things instead. He tried to focus on the news and ignore The Man sitting down next to him with a smug look on his face that appeared there from the day Toshiya left.
You’re not here.
But Kyo could only say it in his mind for he was afraid The Man would not appreciate this kind of talk.
oOoOoOo
He felt like all he did was sleep and after more than a week he felt like he was born just yesterday. His body was no longer tired and falling apart, his mind was sharp and clear, aware and on guard.
And turning the key in the lock he felt slightly nervous, a bit guilty, but happy at the same time.
He stepped inside and took off his shoes, then hesitated.
“Kyo?”
There was complete silence in the house and he was about to call again, when he suddenly heard noise upstairs as if somebody rolled off the futon on the floor and heavily stood up. Then quick and heavy steps over the wooden floor, the hall, the stairs and next second Kyo appeared in front of him.
“Toshiya?”
Kyo looked shocked to see him. His face from pale turned completely white and he just stared at Toshiya, disbelieving.
“I’m sorry, Kyo. I should have never done anything as stupid as to walk away from you when you needed me the most” Toshiya bowed slightly. “I’m really sorry for that. But I’m here now and I’m prepared to pay whatever price you’ll require for the redemption of my stupidity and selfishness.”
Kyo shook his head slowly, but Toshiya stepped forward and hugged him, burying his face in Kyo’s neck.
“I’m so, so sorry, Kyo-kun.”
All Kyo could think of was that he had just 5 days at most until he disappeared from the face of the earth.
oOoOoOo
Toshiya glanced at Kyo seated next to him and starring out the bus’ window. Kyo didn’t speak much, but he looked determined and solemn which didn’t really fit to the whole ‘let’s go out today to the Ferris Wheel’ proposal. Toshiya agreed more because he didn’t want to upset Kyo more than he already did, but also because he though an afternoon out with Kyo was a wonderful idea.
Secretly Toshiya sneaked a hand and laid it over Kyo’s thigh. He squeezed his hand gently, in what he hoped would be a reassuring gesture, but Kyo just glanced at him for a second and turned back to stare out the window.
Yesterday Toshiya soon found out that Kyo was not ready to talk, but he accepted Toshiya’s physical affection and they had sex. It worried Toshiya a little that Kyo clung desperately to him like he never did before, but he hoped that after he will prove that he’s never leaving him again, Kyo could finally relax and trust him.
In the early hours of the morning Toshiya was woken up by Kyo tracing his fingers over his abdomen and Toshiya had to bit down the question if Kyo slept at all at night. They had breakfast and Kyo said he wanted to go out. Only when they reached the bus stop he decided he wanted to go on a Ferris Wheel and Toshiya could only nod.
“Are you alright, Kyo?” Toshiya asked.
Kyo nodded in response and turned to look at his lover.
“I’m just a little tired.”
Toshiya wanted to probe further, but a crowded bus wasn’t a place for that. So he waited until they got off the bus. Kyo headed straight for the Ferris Wheel and Toshiya was happy to see him so enthusiastic at least over something.
The queue wasn’t big and soon they were the ones to go. There was a couple behind them who were supposed to go together, but Kyo turned to look at them and asked if they minded to wait for the next one. Then with a barely visible gesture he reached forward and touched Toshiya’s palm with the tips of his fingers for a few moments. The gesture was barely there, but the guy caught it and screwed his face in displeasure, halting his girlfriend in midstep.
“Go ahead” he said and Kyo didn’t wait for anything more. He pushed Die inside and got after him, the staff member closing the doors behind them.
It was a strange kind of silence that fell over them. They could barely hear the noise of the city, but it felt like they were stuck in a thick and heavy cloud, pregnant with raging thunder, and were safe inside its womb, guarded from the noise of the outside world.
Kyo sat down and Toshiya followed him reluctantly, glancing at the couple once more before he felt the cabin slowly moving forward.
“What was all that about, Kyo?” Toshiya asked uncertainly.
“I need to tell you something and I’ve only got some fifteen or twenty minutes” Kyo said, looking ahead of himself through the glass walls of this storm cloud. “You have to swear with your life you are not going to say a word about this when we get out of this cabin, as I might be followed. Also, it is imperative that you absolutely don’t even mention anything at my house, because it is bugged and has been since I got back from The Moon.”
It was good that Toshiya fell speechless after Kyo started talking, because Kyo had no time to argue with him. Time was priceless at that moment.
“Do you understand?”
Toshiya nodded curtly, still staring at Kyo.
“In a few days I will be gone and you won’t find me. This way will be safe for me and for everyone else. You have to pretend you know nothing about it and don’t care. I will join people who are doing everything they can to take the Emperor down and since the moment I’ll join them, I’ll be an enemy of the country. But as long as I can help at least in the smallest way, I don’t care about that.
Toshiya, you have to promise me you won’t do anything stupid like go looking for me. The Emperor’s dogs will kill you.”
Kyo looked Toshiya in the eyes and his look became clouded with pain.
“I never told this to anybody… About what happened to Shinya…”
“Shinya died in a fire” Toshiya uttered, feeling like finally there was something he could say.
Kyo shook his head slowly.
“He died because of me.”
And Kyo couldn’t help it, couldn’t stop the tears escaping from his eyes. He held them back for too long, feeling like he had no right to cry for Shinya.
“Shinya called me to The Moon with the help of his friend and because of that… they killed him…”
Kyo took a deep shuddering breath and closed his eyes for a moment, gathering up his strength.
“It’s very hard to live with his death on my conscience, but there is nothing I can do. I can only help to prevent more killings like that. I can help them to destroy the empire that’s strangling the whole country, sending people to The Moon, killing when it’s useful for them.”
Toshiya just stared, completely taken aback by all that he heard.
“When we go back home, I need you to get your stuff and go back home, leave my house. Go on with your life and whenever you have time, pray for me at the shrine. And… and put some incense for Shinya from me, please…”
Toshiya shook his head slowly.
“No, I’m not leaving you again.”
“This is not the same, Toshiya. I am telling you to leave because if you won’t, you’ll be captured and tortured for information about me!”
“Kyo, where did you get all this information from? Who told you all of those things?”
Kyo looked at Toshiya warily.
“I cannot say that, that would be too much information for you to know.”
“I mean, Kyo” Toshiya looked nervous suddenly. “Did… did that man living in your house told you all of this?”
“No, he’s got nothing to do with –“
Kyo fell silent, starring at Toshiya opened mouth.
“Kyo, I know this must be hard for you, coming home from four years of nightmare, finding out Shinya’s dead, Kaoru tricking you that way, even if he had all the good intentions for you, having no income anymore and desperately needing a job.”
Toshiya took Kyo’s hands in his ones gently, stroking his thumb over Kyo’s skin.
“We’ll get you some help, I promise. I have to work the rest of this week, but next week Tuesday we’ll go to see your doctor and ask how you can get some help, what treatments they can give you.”
Toshiya smiled gently, squeezing Kyo’s hands in his.
“We can go through this together. I won’t leave you again, I promise.”
Kyo just stared, not knowing what to say. He felt frustrated and insulted at the same time.
“I’m not crazy, Toshiya.”
“I know. You’re just confused and scared. Anybody would be after four years of solitude on the Moon.”
Kyo tore his hands out of Toshiya’s grasp and stood up. They were at the very top of the Ferris Wheel now and the whole Tokyo lay in front of Kyo’s eyes. As far as the eye could see – a concrete jungle of dirty, grey nothings. Still, it was better than the red, dead desert, stretching all over the planet as far as the eye could see, silent, and cold, and unwelcoming. Sometimes in the dead of the night Kyo would turn over and see small pieces of flesh of the unfortunate Moon worker scattered all over the floor of his bedroom and blood slowly running towards his sanctuary between the wall and the bed.
“Kyo! Toshiya’s voice just right next to him startled him. He felt Toshiya circle his arms around his waist and press himself to his back.
“I’ll sleep on the ground floor, buy ear plugs, we’ll make the doctors get you some treatment for your insomnia and other issues, we’ll find you a job and it’ll all be well. You’ll see.”
And Kyo didn’t know if he felt like crying or laughing.
But for the first time since Toshiya forced his way in his life, Kyo felt a pang in his heart knowing he’ll have to lose him as well.

TBC

Sorry for such a delay yet again :( Hopefully my readers are still around XD
Comments would be so much welcomed and loved!!! ^^
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