I wanna save you

We were the first band to play on the main stage and it was amazing. The crowd was singing along with every word the set went by way to quickly
"Thank you so much you've been amazing! i think this IS the best crowd we've had so far." they cheer
"Story of the year is up next." the crowd cheers and i walk off i watch their set for a little bit and then head back to the bus My phone rings it's dan

"Hello?"
"Hey! were all gonna go eat you wanna come?"
"yeah."
"Ok...be ready in 10 minutes."
"Ok." i had already took a quick shower so i threw my hair up After a few minutes i walked outside the guys were standing there.

We all walked to the front gate and got in 3 separate Taxi's some how i got stuck in one with Dan and Gwen. They were cuddling and couldn't keep their hands off each other. I don't know what it is but there is something about her i can't stand. It's probably just the fact that she is with dan and i'm in love with him.

We got to the restaurant a few minutes later and sat down the waitress took our order.
"Yeah what do you have to drink?" i asked the waitress
"You're still drinking?" dan asked sounding upset
"No i meant soda."
"Oh." the waitress told me what types of soda they had i asked for a water instead and she left

"Why did you think i wanted a beer or something?" i asked dan
"Because you said...." he didn't finish his sentence
"Oh because of all those times i said i did things to myself when i was drunk right?" he didn't respond
"Yeah...it wasn't me it was david." he looked away
"Sorry for lying." i almost whispered i could tell he wasn't sure what to think. If i was him i would have been upset i would have wanted to help but i could tell he didn't want to be mad.

I walked to the bathroom to avoid everybody at the table starring at me from what i had just said I was in the stall blowing my nose when i heard the door open, I heard somebody on their phone

"Yeah...No i don't care about him i used to know him but i don't know him.....I've found out so many secrets the article is going to be so good!....Yeah i know I want to get more on his band though. This is definetly going to get me senior editor....I know i gotta go bye." i knew it was Gwen i remembered that gwen works for a teen magazine.

"You don't love Dan....you're using him!" i shout rather than ask she looks surprised that i was in the bathroom.
"So? there is nothing you can do about it." she says with a smile
"I'm going to tell him."
"Go ahead." i walked out the door and to the table i could tell they were just talking about me because it got quiet when i came back
"Dan...I was in the bathroom and she was talking to somebody."
"Ok." he says not looking up
"She's using you." he stops smiling
"What the fuck Miranda?!" he looks at me
"She is she was telling whoever it was that." he cut me off
"You just said you don't like her."
"Wait you think I'm making this up?" he didn't respond just then she came out of the bathroom and grabbed his hand.
"Baby what happened to your face?" he ask and i realize that it looks like somebody punched her
"She hit me." my jaw dropped
"Are you fucking kidding me?!" i shouted causing everybody to look at me
"I can't believe you." Dan said walking away
"You're going to believe her over me?" he didn't say anything.
"Fine....once you find out the truth don't come crying to me because i won't care." i said walking away i caught a taxi back to the bus Zoe and Lexie were sitting down they both looked at me

"We need to talk." lexie says in a serious voice
"Ok." i sat down
"We've been talking and we can't do this anymore." Zoe said
"Do what?"
"I can't be in a band anymore." Lexie said
"What?" it felt like a million knifes hit my heart
"I'm not happy doing this, this has always been your dream not ours." Lexie continued
"I loved it at first but after a while it got tiring. Being away from home, not sleeping right and now i hate it. I don't even like playing to a crowd anymore." Zoe said
"I...i can't belive you guys...."
"Were sorry....but like Lexie said this has always been your dream not ours and we can't keep doing this for you."
"We love you but i can't not be happy for you...i want to be home now...i have a fiance and i want to get married and start a family the band doesn't fit into that." Lexie said
"You guys tell me this now?! it's the last day on warped tour and were scheduled for a tour in Europe...and we already have studio time booked!"
"We know that's why we decided that now is the best time. Its the last night on the warped tour we had a week before we played Europe so now they can get back their money and we can get back our money for the studio time."
"Fine." i said there was nothing i could do I knew this was all coming
"You guys don't have to lie anymore....Neither do i."
"What are you talking about?" Zoe ask
"Were not best friends anymore and you both know it....This isn't highschool and we don't have to try and fool anybody."
"Wait you're upset....you've been through a lot." Lexie says in a soft motherly tone
"Yeah but this was bound to happen we've grown apart and i don't know you guys anymore." neither of them said anything
"Thanks for everything but don't be surprised if i don't call you anymore." i said before walking away

This was the final straw i packed up my bags and walked off the bus. I caught a Taxi to the airport it was only an hour flight back home. Everything filled my head David hitting me that final time, Dan kissing Gwen, Dan yelling at me, Zoe and Lexie deciding that this was it. I drove to my apartment (I lived alone) and sat starring at the floor for a while. Nothing was right in my life David was right nobody would love me. Dan didn't love me and he was the one person i wanted to I grabbed a pen and wrote my goodbyes on
a paper.

"Dear everybody,
This is the hardest thing for me to do but it seems like the only thing left. I've lost everything that i had, i thought i was happy until david showed me how wrong i was. I really could see myself spending the rest of my life with him until he started hitting me i thought he'd change. Yesterday i decided i'd had enough i thought that things would go back to the way they were before he ever came into the picuture.

I'd have my best friends back and i could start living agian but i was wrong. I realized that my best friends and i have grown apart i was ok with that i needed to start all over again. Then Dan decided that Gwen is more than i'll ever be that tore me apart. The truth is i've been in love with dan for a long time i never had the guts to tell him because it would never have worked out. I thought that even though i'd lost my best friends and dan that my music would pull me through but it didn't.

I don't see myself being happy anymore there is nothing left, So this is goodbye don't cry any tears i'm not worth it anyway.
Miranda"


I placed it on the side of my bed before i went to the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of pills.

I went back into my room and sat on the bed i swallowed a hand full of the small pills . Then another hand full I layed down it wasn't long before everything faded to black.

I woke up in the hospital bed i looked around the room and saw it was still night. I saw Dan asleep on the chair next to my bedside. I looked at the clock it was 3 am i had this indescribable pain in my stomach and a pounding headache. i sat there looking around the room for a while i looked over at dan he kept moving around he was obviously uncomfortable. He opened his eyes and looked at me.

"You're up." he said with a smile
"What are you doing here?"
"i realized that i don't care about Gwen i don't even know her so i went back and to your bus. They told me you left so i flew out to see you.....When you didn't answer i used the spare key you gave me and found you on the bed and your note." he said not looking at me
"Why?" he asked in a soft voice
"I thought nobody cared and i lost everything."
"Please don't ever do this again, i care about you so much." i decided to tell him
"Dan...I'm in love with you."
"I know I'm in love with you too."
"what?" i ask
"i've always had a thing for you and i realized that i am in love with you....i've never felt this way before." i smile
"So will you go out with me?" he ask
"Yes." he smiled
"Don't ever do this to me again you nearly gave me a heart attack i thought i'd lost you and..." i cut him off
"Lets not talk about it." i say grabbing his hand
"Ok."
"How long have you been here for?"
"The whole time....so 4 hours." i smiled
"Thank you." i said he yawned
"Can't sleep good?"
"Not really i fell asleep but that machine woke me up."
"Oh." i scooted over
"lay with me." he got on the bed and layed down he closed his eyes almost right away
"Dan?" i whisper
"Yeah?"
"Thanks for always being here for me."
"I love you." he says opening his eyes
"i love you too." i say and kiss him

The end