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The Moon and the Sun	By : soleil Category: J-Rock/J-Pop & K-Pop > Malice Mizer Views: 3160 -:- Recommendations : 1 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Chapter 16

Mana was gone. Just like that. So suddenly that Gackt didn’t even have the time to react and hold him back. Now he kept on staring down at his empty arms. No, he couldn’t let him leave; couldn’t let him take the easy way out of it. This... was his last chance, somehow he knew it. He had to decide if he would overcome his ego and run after him in a desperate attempt to hold him back, or he could let him go for a final time.

Forever this time.

No. He had to try; he had to make him understand. It couldn’t end like this again.

Running so fast that he almost stumbled over his own feet, he dashed out into the rain like a mad man possessed and went after the elusive guitarist.

He spotted him standing not far away. He was completely motionless with his head held high and his arms wrapped tightly around himself. Gackt approached him and embraced him from behind, holding the trembling man tightly to his body and breathing heavily against his ear. He didn’t care anymore if he scared the fragile creature; the need to show him what he felt took every sense of cautiousness away from him.

"Wasurenai kara. (I can't forget.)" He sneered almost accusingly into his ear and felt the other man's shoulders shake even more violently.
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“Let go.” Mana commanded in a strained voice, pulling on the arms engulfing him while memories of them together flashed through his inner eye: Gackt holding him, comforting him, even teasing him at times, the countless hours of philosophical discussions, even their endless arguing..

“I hate you.” Mana sneered and heard Gackt reply almost immediately with a defeated sounding voice: “I know.”

“Let go of me, you selfish bastard!” Mana was almost hysterical now. He was thrashing wildly and scratching at the arms that were holding him in place but Gackt didn’t seem to mind. “Why are you doing this to me now? Why did you leave me? Let me go, let go, let go...” and so on he chanted sobbing in between his words and calling him occasionally a bloody egoist. Gackt stood completely still waiting for the other man to calm down, his hold on him never wavering.

“Why? What did I do wrong that you had to abandon us like this? Was it something that I didn’t give you? ” Mana spoke again through his steady tears and felt the arms tightening even more. He heard Gackt utter a strained “Mana..” but he just couldn’t stop talking, too many years those thoughts were torturing him, he had to finally say them out loud: “When I met you, you were a complete stranger to me, and I let you into my world, my band, into my life.. gave you my heart. Why, Gackt?” He felt Gackt silently burying his face in his neck.

“I always stood by your side watching you with all those women and men, hoping that I meant more to you than they did, that one day you would come to me. I believed you when you said that we were connected. I believed that this thing between us was pure and unique.. Kami-sama, I am so stupid!” Mana’s whole body was shivering uncontrollably now and he folded over like a broken rag-doll as his sobs made it impossible for him to continue speaking.

Gackt caught him before he fell forward onto the muddy ground and together they slid on their knees. He started kissing his wet hair whispering how much he had adored him, how much he had loved him.

“I’m here now, Mana. I won’t ever leave again. Please forgive me. I am the one who is stupid, I didn’t know…” he whispered and rocked them both till Mana had stopped sobbing.

The rain kept falling soaking their clothes until they were wet to their bones and an eternity seemed to have passed when Mana finally calmed down and went completely still in Gackt’s arms.

“Please let me explain. Give me a chance. If you ever felt something for me come with me back inside and let me explain." After a long and heavy silence Mana finally gave a tiny condescending nod and Gackt stood up pulling him along. Together they walked slowly back to the greenhouse.

A/N: I am really sorry for taking so unbelievably long to write this tiny chapter, but this was pathetically difficult to write –not to mention thatI don’t have much spare time left nowadays..
For anyone out there waiting for more: I will have the next chappy up (hopefully) in a couple of days.
Huggles to everyone reading and reviewing!
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