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Unholy confessions of a vampire heart	By : nuclear000rainbow Category: Celebrities - Misc > Slash - Male/Male Views: 1315 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
Disclaimer: I do not know Ville Valo or any of the members of HIM, This is purely a work of fiction, I do not make any money writing this. Full disclaimer in chapter 1.

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*Lyrics used in this chapter: Killing loneliness by HIM. I do not own any of the lyrics used.

Its been a week. A week of hard work to make this abandoned tower a home for us all, things slowly coming together by our joined efforts. Gee, V and Christ eagerly cleaning the different floors. Not leaving a speck of dust behind as me and the others try to fix the old furniture as good as we can. Shadows proving himself a wonderful carpenter in the proses! Syn taking total control of the decorating as always, his eager eyes making sure it all looks as good as possible. The old portrait giving way for our chosen symbols, a new painting containing my heartagram and the skulls with bat wings. A representation of us all, surrounding our beloved creator’s old sigil in the center of them all. A reminder for him who brought us all together as a family. The main room is starting to look like a home, the trip we took to the old attic turned into a treasure hunt. The beautiful furniture brought down and mended before it got divided between us. Some in our new personal rooms and the rest now decorating the rest of the floors of the tower. Bookshelves built into the rounded walls now filled with leather-bound books that Rev found in old trunks, a round table with beautifully carved details and polished wood surrounded by matching chairs placed in the middle of the room. The wax candles Syn went and got from the city not far away casting a warm glow through the whole room together with the now lit fireplace. The walls covered in a fresh coat of paint, the deep red color close to that of fresh blood making the whole room come together. A quiet sigh escape my lips as I rise from the table and start walking up the winding stairs, my personal room all the way at the top. The others already in their rooms getting ready for the daylight hours. The calm chatter sounding through the tower soon to die down as the sun knocks us all out. A serene smile playing on my lips as I step into my room. The colors Syn chose for me calming my senses. The whole room painted black, gold designs like the ink on my body in soft brushstrokes littering the black walls. The canopy bed in the middle of the room covered in soft silk sheets. A dresser once again filled with clothing, courtesy of Syns last shopping spree. It’s all coming together finally, we have a home safe from the sun and the fairs from before is fading from our memories. I slip out of my leather confinements quickly as a yawn make my jaw crackle, sliding under the silk covers just in time as the sun breach through the skies, nocking me out cold.
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Another dream. We’re in another clearing, white snow surrounding us and falling from the skies. Blue eyes locked with mine in deep concentration. The huge wolf suddenly changing, a man suddenly in front of me in its place. His head tilted to the side with a curious look in his eyes. A soft voice sounding through my head even though his lips doesn’t move. “A heart for a heart, they broke yours, now I have theirs…” “What do you mean?” I ask quickly, scared he will disappear again. His wild brown curls blowing in his face as his shoulders shake with laughter. “You’ll see! Wait and you’ll see!” A giggle sounding through my head as the wolf again appears before me, tossing me one last glance as it walks away. The falling snow swallowing it up and covering its tracks.
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“You’re awfully quiet today Ville! What’s on your mind?” Shadows suddenly ask from his place at the table, startling me out of my thoughts. His gold specked eyes looking at me as I raise my head to meet his gaze. “The wolf.” I speak softly, the conversation from the dream still playing in my mind. “I saw him, his human form… He spoke to me… I’m confused…” “What did he say?” Gee speaks up at my side, curiosity written all over his face. Sighing deeply I decide to tell them, brazing myself for a thousand questions before I start speaking. “We were in a clearing, snow was falling and covering the ground. at first it was me and the blue eyed wolf, but he turned into a man. The same blue orbs in a tan face, wild brown curls blowing in the wind. He never moved his mouth, but I could hear him clear as day. *A heart for a heart, they broke yours, now I have theirs* I tried asking what he meant by that, but he just told me to wait. *You’ll see! Wait and you’ll see! Being his last words… I just can’t wrap my head around these dreams! I know he’s out there, I know he’s real… But how can someone haunt my dreams like this?” My hands going through my hair in frustration as I slam my elbows down on the table and cover my face with my hands. I feel like screaming! All the unanswered questions in my head slowly driving me insane. “It’s ok Ville, we’ll figure it all out soon!” The Rev whispers softly as if not to startle me. His eyes shooting over to the books surrounding us, determination radiating towards me. I always forget about Revs love for books, if someone can figure this out it’s him! His insanity allowing him to see the truth and come to conclusions I would never find. I send him a grateful smile as I stand up from the table. “I know you’ll figure something out Rev, you always do! But not tonight! There’s a murderer on the loose in the city, sweethearts! It’s time for you to go hunting again, no more animal blood! And Shadows, you’re in charge tonight!” I smile at them, Shadows look of pure shock making me giggle! “Yes, you sweetheart! You were the leader of hunting before you all left it to me! It’s time to brush some dust of your leader skills!” I wink at him and a dimpled smile soon appears. “If you say so Ville! But, aren’t you coming with us?” He asks as they all rise from the table, the promise of human blood making them all giddy. Six pairs of eyes flashing red. “No sweethearts, I’ll stay behind this time. My mind is cluttered, I need to try and sort it out first. My focus not fully on our pray could be disastrous! Now, be careful out there!” Waving after them as they leave swiftly through the door, my smile faltering as I make my way up the stairs. Humming to myself as I climb the last steps, the hatch to the roof opening quietly, the view of our new territory meeting my eyes as I climb through. The open space at the top of our tower giving me a feeling of freedom as my eyes slide across the snow cowered fields and woods around it. I climb up on the battlement and lay down on my back, my arms under my head and one of my legs dangling over the edge as I stare at the skies. Snowflakes slowly melting as they hit my skin, my core temperature the same all year around. The elements not bothering me at all, freezing cold or not. My mind traveling back to the dream, the face of the young man etched into my memory as well as all the questions he left behind. The melody I’m humming only growing louder as I think of those sparkling sapphire blue eyes. Words slowly leaving my lips, breaking the silence of the night.
Memories, sharp as daggers
Pierce into the flesh of today
Suicide of love took away all that matters
And buried the remains in an unmarked grave in your heart
With the venomous kiss you gave me
I'm killing loneliness (Killing loneliness)
With the warmth of your arms you saved me,
Oh, I'm killing loneliness with you
The killing loneliness that turned my heart into a tomb
I'm killing loneliness
Nailed to a cross, together
As solitude begs us to stay
Disappear in the lie, forever
And denounce the power of death over our souls
As secret words are said to start a war
With the venomous kiss you gave me
I'm killing loneliness (Killing loneliness)
With the warmth of your arms you saved me,
Oh, I'm killing loneliness with you
The killing loneliness that turned my heart into a tomb
I'm killing loneliness
I'm killing loneliness
With the venomous kiss you gave me
I'm killing loneliness (Killing loneliness)
With the warmth of your arms you saved me
Oh, I'm killing loneliness with you
The killing loneliness that turned my heart into a tomb
I'm killing loneliness
I'm killing loneliness with you
I'm killing loneliness with you
Killing loneliness with you
Killing loneliness with you
Killing loneliness
Killing loneliness
The last words leaving my lips being drowned out by the sudden gust of wind, my black curls whipping at my face, wet from the snow. My eyes once again scanning the horizon as I walk towards the hatch once more. The thought of a steaming hot bath making me smile, maybe the water will sooth my heart and mind, clear my head a little more before my brothers get back?
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The golden tub in my bathroom finally filled after an hour of hard work, the only way of getting water being gathering snow from the fields outside before melting in in the big cauldron at the fireplace. But the steaming water sprinkled with dried rose petals are worth every trip up and down the winding stairs. Peeling of the tight wet leather and soaked silk shirt seems almost impossible, the clothing sticking to my skin like a leach! Finally getting it off I step into the hot water, sliding down and letting it engulf my pale body. The smell of roses calming my senses as I breath in the steam. The near boiling water soothing my muscles and churning thoughts as I let myself slide to the bottom. My eyes closing as I let sleep claim me.
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A knock on my door have my eyes shooting open under water, the blurry sight of my bathroom meeting me above the surface. “Ville? You in there?” Christs voice reaches my ears as I sit up straight, my head falling back and arms hanging of the edges in defeat. I should have known they would be back so soon, my personal time cut short as always. Don’t get me wrong, I love my brothers! But sometimes I miss being alone, not having to worry or be the leader of a coven! I sigh as I straighten my neck once again, turning to the door. “Yes, Christ! I’m here! Just come inside!” I speak softly, trying to hide the disappointment in my voice. The door opening slowly to reveal a blushing Christ, a goblet tightly grasped in his hands. “There were two of them Ville, they were working and killing together, so we decided to bring the second one back here. Syn and V just finished draining him to store the blood, and Shadows brought Rev with him to dispose of the corps… Gee wanted me to bring you this, so he wouldn’t have to disturb you in the bath again…” His voice trailing of into a shy whisper as his eyes stay glued to the floor. I can’t help but giggle, they’re both so shy it’s adorable! “Aaaaaw! Thank you sweetheart! So nice of you to think of me!” I giggle as I reach my hand out for the goblet, a smirk appearing as I see the distress on his face as he has to step closer to the tub. His feet shuffling along trying not to trip as he keeps his head down. My hand grabbing the goblet from him as soon as he is within reach. “You two never change, do you? Always blushing and looking flustered, we’ve been living together for years now and you two still act all shy towards me!” I giggle as I lift the goblet to my lips, the warm blood slushing around as I gulp down a mouthful of the thick liquid. The taste of fresh human blood making a moan escape my lips as my eyes roll to the back of my head. His face turning even more red at the sound. “It’s not just us Ville!” Christ whispers shyly. “We’ve all talked about it. Harms even warned us to be careful around you. You’re too pure, too beautiful to look at. Rev even said something about getting too close to the sun will make you burn, the quote a bit out of place for us, but we all understood the meaning of it! The others might not blush like us, but they all avert their eyes… All of the except V, he seems to be immune…” His gaze never leaving the floor as he speaks, if it did, the look on my face would probably make him laugh. My eyes wide and jaw slack as I stare at the sealing, I never thought of myself as anything but Ville. Hearing all this making me confused once again. “It’s ok sweetheart! Go join the others and I’ll be down soon! And thank you so much for the blood!” His footsteps quickly leaving the room as I slide back down in the still warm water, the blood from the goblet painting my lips red as I devour the rest of it. Stepping carefully out of the tub, I head for the dresser, drying myself of as I walk. Pulling a silk shirt over my head before struggling into another pair of leather pants before leaving my room. My bare feet stepping soundlessly down the stairs on my way down. Questions raging through my head at lightning speed. They better have some answers for me! I giggle to myself as I straighten my back, a wicked smirk playing on my lips as I enter the room. “So, Christ just gave me some startling facts! Anyone care to explain why you avoid looking at me?” All except V looking embarrassed. His smirk matching my own. “It’s a fallen thing Ville, they’re used to me by now and as I’m already mated to Syn, it kind of stops working.” He giggles, a soft smile grazing his features as he looks to the vampire at his side. “It’s a little hard to explain why, but all creatures are drawn to the fallen, some of them can even lose all control and turn possessive. We’re wired to be caring and loving towards all life, something you already know. Considering your protective nature towards us all, especially Gee and Christ. And it’s the way we are perceived by the others, the way we look and smell, you being a pureblood being twice as hard for everyone here!” He laughs softly, the others meeting my confused gaze, nodding in agreement. “But why? I don’t look that different from you guys! No more than I should at least, considering we don’t have the same parents!” My eyes catch Shadows nudging Revs shoulder in a motion for him to speak up. The Rev shooting him a blank stare before turning to me. “That’s all because you can’t see it yourself Ville! We can look at you freely right now because you’re all covered up and our eyes wont burn. The alluring light not drawing us is as much! If you could see yourself through our eyes, you would get the feeling of staring at the moon in total darkness! V used to do the same, but as he got mated, the light doesn’t draw us in anymore. It only works on Syn now!” His serious words ending in a wicked laugh, Syn sporting an embarrassed grin. “Soooooo, I guess you’ll stay out of my bathroom from now on then!” I bark out laughing, Gee and Christ giggling in their seats at my side. “Why do you think we only sent V and the little ones in there?” Shadows snicker, earning a slap to the back of his head from Rev. “Hey! No hitting!” He laughs out, sticking his tongue out towards a laughing Rev. “Hey V! Why don’t you show him the way it works?” Rev giggles, his eyes wide with mischief. “Why not?” V says as he rises and walks away from the table. “Syn, eyes down! And you guys stay where you are, no harsh movements or loud noises!” He warns us as he walks towards the stairs, removing his shirt before stopping suddenly. Turning towards us slowly with his eyes glowing towards Syn. My eyes glued to Syns reaction as V finally speaks. “Look at me!” He orders, Syns head whipping around faster than I ever thought possible. His eyes turning pitch black as he looks over at his mate, fangs bared and a low growl coming from him making my eardrums hurt. I can barely make out the word ‘mine’ as he attacks. V being pinned to the wall with Syns fangs piercing his throat before I even have time to blink. Fear for my brothers life shooting through me before I catch the look on his face. A satisfied smirk playing on his lips as he rubs soothing circles on Syns back, the muscles twitching wildly underneath his fingers. His head falling back against the wall in what seems like pure bliss. A giggle from the Rev snapping me out of my staring and I quickly close my mouth. “Let’s go for a run in the woods!” Shadows laugh as he motions for the door. “We really don’t want to be here the next couple of hours!” All of us getting to our feet quietly, V’s warning still with us. The five of us sneaking out as fast as possible as another deep growl rattles our brains.
The fresh snow meeting us outside a nice change after the show inside, knowing what Shadows was insinuating earlier I can’t help but blush. I tease the smaller ones for being innocent, but to be honest, I’m just as innocent as them in some ways! Well, I guess I’ll lock the bathroom door from now on, and I’ll make sure to cover myself up as much as possible! I let out a soft giggle as I look towards the forest, at least I got some more answers I think as I stop to wait for the others to catch up. A giggle making my turn around and leaving me with a face full of snow. The crazy cackling of Rev sounding as I see them all running away, my laughter matching theirs as I gather my own ball of snow. If it’s a war they want, it’s a war they’ll get! Picking up speed as I raise my arm, I throw the lump of snow directly at Revs head. As soon as I see it hit the chosen target I dive down for another fistful, the squeals of laughter as we run around aiming at each other sounding through the landscape. The smaller ones leading the way between the trees, ducking under branches and hiding behind tree trunks to avoid the projectiles flying through the air. Gee and Christ ganging up at us as they clearly have an advantage in being small. A satisfied shriek sounding as they manage to hit both me and Shadow square in the face before tackling Rev to the ground. the snow fight ending in a tickle war, Rev howling and trashing on the ground from the torture the little ones are inflicting. I giggle to myself as I walk over to the fallen tree where Shadows are waiting patiently. His dimples on display as he laughs at the scene in front of us. The three on the ground now creating what looks like snow angels. “We’re never really going to grow up, are we Shads?” I giggle as I enjoy the irony, vampires making angels and all that. “I guess not! And do we really want to?” He smirks as the others finish making angels, now suddenly deciding on playing tag amongst the trees. I just smile, the thought of always being young at heart sounds appealing after all! “I can feel the warnings of the sun Ville, we should head back. And the two at home should have knocked themselves out by now!” He snickers as he stands up from his spot on the log, stretching as he walks slowly towards the spot we last saw the three playful vampires. I’m about to answer him and join in gathering them as Gee’s voice catch my attention. “Ville! Shadows! We need help!” Running towards the sound we find them soon enough. All huddled around something on the ground beneath a tree. Gees pleading eyes staring at me as they move away, revealing a young man almost frozen stiff against the tree. The only sign of life being the short puffs of steam escaping his lips. “Help me carry him Shads, we need to get him warmed up as fast as possible!” I Order as I start lifting the almost frozen torso of the ground, shadows bending down to get his stiff legs. All laughter leaving us as we make our way slowly towards the tower. Gee watching closely to my side, looking at the almost dead human with worried eyes as Christ and Rev leads us through the woods. Making sure to steer clear of low branches and fallen trees.
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Shadows kicking the door open with a loud bang has V and Syn running towards us, the shock written all over their faces, but I have no time for questions as I start barking orders. “V, light up the fireplace! Syn an Rev go gather snow to melt! We need enough warm water to fill a tub! Gee and Christ go make the extra room ready! Light all the candles you can find, we need it to heat up quickly! Shadows, help me carry him upstairs!” My brothers not even bothering to answer as they do their assigned jobs. The cauldron soon filled with warm water being carried to the extra room by Syn as Rev gather more snow from the outside. The so-called guest room getting warmer by the minute after all the candles being lit. The tub being filled quickly as me and Shadows try to rub some warmth back in the frozen limbs. The young man barely breathing at the moment. “Gee, I cant hear his heartbeat, check it for me will you?” I order quickly and Gee puts his ear to the freezing cold chest. “It’s still beating Ville, I can barely hear it from here, but it seems like its getting stronger!” “Ok! The tub is halfway full, lets get him in the water!” I bark out as I start lifting the small body of the bed, Shadows helping me lover it in the warm water. Hours going by as we keep an eye on him, removing buckets of colder water to reheat it. The others taking turns in running up and down the stair with the big cauldron, all of us waiting eagerly and hoping for the young man to recover. His heartbeat getting stronger and his skin turning slowly from pale blue to soft pink as the warmth do what we hoped for. Now we just have to see if he’ll wake up!
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Tree days we’ve kept close watch on the young man, Gee never leaving his bedside. The rest of us hunting in pairs around the woods to keep the blood supply flowing. Bringing Gee his share every night and making sure he drinks it. His whole concentration focused on the breathing man wrapped in warm blankets on the bed. The only sound in the room being Gee singing softly, the same way he used to do for the shadows around the castle. Them not being the target of his sweet voice at the moment, but they don’t seem to mind the sharing. They’re clustered against the walls around the room as always, keeping watch over the two in and by the bed. “Gee, sweetheart! I brought you dinner!” I speak softly not to startle him, his tired eyes turning to me slowly. A hand reaching out for the goblet I’m carrying. “You need to sleep sweetheart; you need your own bed! You’ve spent the last tree days sleeping in this chair!” I whisper softly, but the stern looks on my face getting my point across. His head shaking me no furiously as he looks to the shadows. “I can’t! They won’t let me!” He whispers, the shadows moving over to the door as to make a point. “Why?” I bark out, the disobedience of shadows making me angry. “Because I told them so!” A voice I don’t know states calmly. Our heads whipping towards the sound coming from the bed, two hazel eyes sparkling with mischief meeting ours. “Hi! I’m Frank! Son of Loki! Who are you guys?”
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