Without You | By : GCFanatic Category: Singers/Bands/Musicians > Good Charlotte Views: 1786 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0 |
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I couldn't believe it, Benji's old girlfriend the one he never wanted to tell me about, my heart fell down to my stomach I couldn't walk in there and obviously Benji didnt give two shits about me coming back though. All I knew about her was her name was Dina and she was his ex-girlfriend that he cared nothing for, obviously he was fucking lying! I couldn't take my eyes off the window as I saw Benji look at the window and point to the curtains I ran up into the door way and stood there so he wouldn't see me because it was dark enough where you couldn't see my black car but the porchlight reflected where I was standing so I stood in the doorway where he couldn't see me, I felt like I was invading someone else's privacy, but what I should be doing is breaking down the door and kicking some ass but all I thought about wae sae saying "curiosity killed the cat" it was running through my head over and over again, I didn't want to walk in there and know what they were doing even though I knew what they were doing it was so obvious, I wish I didn't know, but come on i wasn't born yesterday I do have some sense.
I walked back out on the lawn, I felt like I was in a war zone. I ran over to my car and quickly got in. It was wierd I didn't cry at first I wanted to leave and never come back. My life wasn't supposed to be like this! I was supposed to marry the man I love, I was supposed to marry the man that loved me back.
Before I drove away I looked up into the window, the shades were drawn and the big light was shut off with just a little light on enough for me to see them standing there holding each other, the shadow of thier faces touching. I felt a few tears spill down my face. I couldn't take it anymore, so I drove off not turning around not even looking back. I drove for hours only stopping to get gas, I had no idea where I was going. The only person I could trust was my cousin Jenna, I also trusted Benji's younger sister but I most definantly couldn't run to her right now, I might call her because she was my best friend, I told her everything even about my doubts between me and Benji, but my goal for the night was to get as far away from Benji as I could.
I drove until I couldn't drive anymore, I had some money on me so I decided to pull over and stay at the nearest Holiday Inn.
I found one and pulled over, the lady at the front desk looked concerned for me, maybe she thought I needed help for the fact it was about 2:30 in the morning and I just came barging in, but anyway I told her I just needed a room and she looked relieved and gave me a nice room, I went out to my car pulled to the side my room was on and brought my bag of clothes inside. After I got everything ready I sat on the bed, I wasn't feeling to good and I know I wasn'tdlindling it well because in a matter of seconds I found myself getting sick in the bathroom, I didn't handle break ups well, especially this one where my fiance cheats on me with another woman.
I got up and looked in the mirror "Im sick of me im sick of you" I said as I looked in the mirror, I mostly found myself blaming myself for what happen between me and Benji. I blamed Benji also, cept I mostly hated him and hoped he had a horrible life ahead of him, I usually don't wish that upon people but this moment he made me want to die, he made me finally realize that i live a horrible meaningless life, I suddenly broke down in cried, I reassured myself everything would be fine, I felt like a loser because I had to look in myself for comfort because at this moment all I had was myself.
I took a nice long warm shower to feel relieved, but now I had a headache and I've had a headache for a long time. I looked through my purse and found the exedrin migrain pills I had bought earlier and I took two, I was suprised how well it helped and I soonly fell asleep with the thoughts of Benji and if he knew I was still gone, or if he even cared or if he wondered where I was, if he felt bad for what he had done,if he knew I was gone or if hen can cared about me anymore.
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