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Don't deny your feelings	By : Shinya Category: Dir en grey > General Views: 1743 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. I do not know the members of Dir en grey. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.

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DISCLAIMER: Don’t own Dir en grey…

A/N: Now here is the second chapter of my story. I have spent hours of translating this in english. But now it is over! And this is longer than the first chapter was. In this chapter is more of Shinya and Die. Just a little bit of Kyo and Totchi. I hope someone will like this... And thanks to all of you who have read and reviewed this story! Oh, and I also want to thank my sister who has helped me with this fic, fixing my grammar mistakes!!^_^ But now I’ll let you begin.

DON’T DENY YOUR FEELINGS

Chapter 2:

Shinya finished his sobbing soon, but there were still tears in his eyes. Kyo let Shinya sit straight again and eyed the drummer seriously. ”Are you telling me the truth, Shinya-kun? Die would never ever want to hurt you in any kind of way.” Shinya watched the vocalist with his wet eyes and sobbed sadly: ”Have I ever lied to you, Kyo-kun? I know this isn’t easy to believe but... I am really telling the truth! Die could have raped me last night and novadays he is nearly every day drunk! What if he’ll rape me next time?!”

Kyo was very worried about his friend. What should he say to make the drummer happier? ”Shinya, listen to me!” he said. ”Die cares about you. He is your friend and you two have known each other for years! He would never do anything to hurt you like I already said! He will never rape you. Believe me. He would never force you to do anything you don’t want to do, especially not sex!”
”But I am so scared. You should have seen him last night... That kinky smile on his lips when he was squeezing me. I can’t trust him anymore.”
”Oh no”, Kyo sighed when he saw Kaoru and Die coming to the restaurant and walking soon towards their table. ”Do not start fighting with Die now, okay? We are in restaurant. Remember that.”

Die and Kaoru sat in the same table with them and told them good morning. Kyo answered them smiling a little bit, but Shinya just sat there quietly and had his head down, and when the waiter brought him some salad the drummer just started eating it quietly. Kyo couldn’t stand the awkward silence, and so he started to talk about yesterday’s gig. Kaoru was listening to him with interest, but Kyo saw the red-head watching the drummer. Die did not listen to him at all, he just stared at the drummer all the time. Waiter brought Kyo’s food and as he started eating his bread, Kaoru started to talk about his dream and Kyo was listening to him smiling. But soon his smile fade away because after few minutes he saw Die leaning against his hand. Kyo gulped noisily. Die’s stare hadn’t changed at all, and his warm eyes were still looking at the drummer seriously. Kyo had never seen guitarist like this. Never. Die was always laughing and telling his funny jokes but now…

Kaoru and Die’s breakfast was brought soon also, but Die did not even notice it. When a minute had passed Kyo sighed amusingly: ”Die... Doesn’t your breakfast taste good at all?” Now Die woke up to reality and stared at his food amazedly. ”What? When was this brought?” Guitarist asked blushing and started eating very quickly.
”More than one minute ago”, the vocalist answered giggling a little.

When the breakfast was eaten, Kaoru started talking of his plans to this day and Die was eyeing the drummer again, making Shinya shake, and soon he stood up, saying: ”I… I am going now!” And then Shinya was gone to the men’s room. Die followed him right away and Kyo followed them both. He stayed behind the bathroom’s door when he suddenly heard Shinya’s terrified voice: ”No! NO! What the fuck are you doing here?! What is wrong with you?! Why the fuck are you following me?!” Kyo peeked through a keyhole and saw Die standing near the washbasins and Shinya opposite of Die.

”Shin-chan... Don’t scream. You look very beautiful today. You are very, very cute”, Die whispered smiling seriously. Kyo’s eyes widened in surprise. Shinya’s too.
”WHAT?!” Shinya whined in shock. ”What are you talking about, Die?!”
”You heard what I said!” Die answered shouting a little. ”You are so damn cute today, Shin-chan. And I must tell you that I have been watching you for years already. I have always been blinded because of your beauty... I am in love with you. I want you all to myself!”

”Stop that!” Shinya yelled and he had tears in his eyes. ”You are crazy, Andou!”
”Really? Am I?” Die sighed and walked to Shinya, taking the drummer’s hand in his own. ”I am just saying what I’m thinking! I am not crazy. I love you and I want you to be mine. Please be mine.”
”NO!” Shinya screamed and ran to the door, but Kyo was too excited to see what would happen, so he didn’t let Shinya come out of the bathroom. ”Do not touch me, Andou! You are sick! You should go to... to... the mental hospital!” (Hey, that wasn’t fair, Shinya ;D)

Kyo was more than surprised. Die wanted Shinya? It was impossible... Die was outgoing, crazy and noisy and Kyo had always thought that Die liked girls, but maybe Die was gay. It was definitely the only possibility now! And then Shinya… Shinya was quiet, girly and clever. The two were so different peoples!

Kyo saw Die walking towards the drummer. The guitarist was so serious looking now. He took Shinya’s face in his hands and stared at the drummer straight into his eyes, whispering softly: ”Shin-chan, please be my koi. Please... Could you?”
Shinya began to sob and his face turned bright red. ”I don’t love you, Die. I don’t feel anything towards you and by the way... I am NOT gay! And even if i were gay, I would never love you because you have always teased me and made fun of me. Especially last night! I don’t want to be with you!!”

Die was becoming hysteric now. ”You can’t say that! I have always wanted you! You can’t say that you don’t love me at all. I have been nice to you too! Sometimes I have not teased you at all. We are friends, remember? I would never hurt you. I would be so gentle to you and I would love you and... I would give you everything you ever wanted. Please at least consider it. Please be my koi, Shin-chan!!”
”You are one big pervert!” Shinya shouted. ”When Dir en grey was founded I cried many times in your arms. You let me do that! But you just enjoyed of it, you were probably thinking of fucking me I guess! And that’s why I hate you! I trusted you! I thought that you were my friend but now it seems that you just have always wanted to use me as your sex toy! How dare you?! I really, really hate you so fucking much!!!”

And Shinya got out of the bathroom, running away very fast. Kyo flew a meter backward but he stood up and peeked through a keyhole again. He saw Die standing in the middle of the bathroom, head down. ”So you hate me that much... You think that I am disgusting!” Die sobbed and started crying noisily.

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Dir en grey spent a day together shopping and having fun, but Die was very quiet and so sad looking. Kyo was sitting at two o’clock in a park on a bench between Shinya and Toshiya. He was so happy, especially because Toshiya was there sitting next to him and was telling funny jokes to them. Kyo loved Toshiya so much, he wanted the younger man so badly that it hurted! He had wanted him for so long... But he knew he had no chances to Toshiya because the younger man was too sexy to be in love with him. He was so ugly and short! No one would never, ever want to be with him.

”Tonight we all go to the bar!” Kaoru said smiling. ”Don’t we?”
”Okay”, Shinya sighed, watching Die who was sitting alone few meters from the others, head down. The drummer went quiet and felt a little guilty. Kyo glared at the bassist, asking from him: ”Are you going to the bar tonight?”

Toshiya shooked his head. ”I don’t know. Would you like to go there?”
Kyo sighed noisily. ”No. I don’t want to go.” The bassist smiled a little, saying then: ”Me neither. Would you like to... umm... stay with me to the hotel again? We could have fun together this time. If only you would not sleep right away like last night. I want to share a room with you again... Is it okay with you, Kyo-kun?”

Kyo thought for a while. What if something would happen? If he... would… rape... Toshiya, he would never forgive himself. He would go to a hotel, but not drink too much. He did not want to ruin his friendship between him and Toshiya. ”Okay. Let us have a party together.”
”Yeah! Let’s go buy some alcohol! And then we’ll make some punch!”

Kaoru was watching them and asked surprisedly: ”Are you two staying in a hotel again?! You are going to stay alone AGAIN! Isn’t bar your thing?” Kyo smiled to Kaoru. ”I have never drinked much alcohol. And I think I just want to spend my time with my friend, not in some messy bar.” Leader-sama nodded. ”But Shinya and Die will keep me company. Aren’t you, Shin-chan?”
”You do not need company, Kaoru-sama!” Toshiya giggled. ”You will be flirting with some hot chicks all the time!!”

Kyo giggled loudly too, but the drummer was not happy at all. ”I don’t know, Kaoru. I don’t think I will come to bar this time. I am so tired because of the yesterday gig. I would like to stay to a hotel and relax. And if you don’t remember, we have a gig tomorrow too! So the best thing to do is just sleep and gather powers to the next gig, not get a terrible hangover like you guys are planning to do! I am not coming with you two tonight.”
”But of course you will come with us, Shin-chan! I can pay every drink you want to drink tonight, okay? You can’t be so boring like those two. Please, Shin-chan? And we had so much fun last night! You can’t turn me down.”
”Okay…” Shinya whispered sadly, watching the redhaired guitarist worriedly.

TBC...

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