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Worlds Collide	By : CrysMarie2oo5 Category: Singers/Bands/Musicians > SHINee Views: 2240 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
Disclaimer: I do not know the members of SHINee and I do not make any money off of this work of fiction.

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-January 15 2015-

Today marked the first day of our US Tour. I was really excited to show off our hard work we've put in since the end of October. It has been a grueling two and a half months. It was time now to put what we've been practicing to work.

We opened each concert on the US leg of the tour, with a Heat/Lucifer/Sherlock Mash-up which took a good ten to fifteen minutes to get through and to build the enthusiasm in the audience.

We then introduced ourselves to the audience and talk with the audience for a bit before I introduce the guys next songs and I exit the stage so the guys can do their solo performance while I get in my next outfit and stretch for my next routine. The total performance time is about 20 minutes. They perform I'm Stronger, Replay and Juliette.
Next is my aerial silk and cage dance routine. The songs I sang were covers of other artists. Loved me back to life by Celine Dionbeing my first song I perform, Fool in Love by Rihanna my second choice, and Russian Roulette by her as well for my last doing a death drop to the floor. The stage goes black and the cage lights up with me in it…I sing the first chorus of Think Twice by Groove Armada before I’m surrounded by dancers with batons where I‘m tortured and abused, then I sing Leave my Body by Florence and the Machine, then I dance to Die Another Day by Madonna where I escape out of the cage and I end with Mad House by Little Mix with the rest of guys joining me. The whole sequence takes about 30 minutes of concert time.
Then we ask the audience questions and interact with them. One by one we go change into our outfits for our next set of songs. It takes about fifteen minutes.
We then perform our slower songs for them which are Hardly Breathing, Strangest Love, Best of Me, and Emotional with all of us going backstage to change into our racier outfits with our background dancers leading the audience into a dance break for fifteen minutes until they are interrupted by a bright flash and the stage grows dark. In this time…soft synth starts and a stage light lands on me, signifying the end of the set and the starting of our steamy adult set.
Lights, Camera, Action, Can You Hear Me Now?, Slower, Eyes on Me, and Pay me made up our steamy adult set. I set up a camera its sets up the feed for the audience since the bed is faced toward the back of the stage instead of toward the audience. Minho appears on stage with me, holding me from behind and whispers “Hey girl, do you love me?” Key appears on the other side of the bed, and mutters the “Lets yourself go girl,” as he mans the camera. I say yes, as I lower his hands to my buttons on my trench coat and he takes it off of me revealing the second outfit. “I wanna try something with you, so don’t be shy…are you ready?”
I say “Of course baby,” He says “Let's go.“ we begin sing the chorus, Jonghyun, Taemin and Onew comes up on elevators while I’m frolicking on the bed, singing into camera and dancing sexually. Minho joins me on the bed as the guys surround the bed as he says,
“By time this is over girl I’m gonna make you a star…You ready?…” then sings the first line with Onew coming in and singing the next bit, then Jonghyun does the adlibs…Taemin sings with me the next bit, and we’re all on the bed with Key continuing to man the camera and I get up and turn off the camera as the bed gets lowered and I strip off the second outfit to reveal the third. Jonghyun, Taemin, and Key get off as Minho and Onew stay on. I grab my dominatrix whip prop as Minho and Onew strip down to just underwear, and are blindfolded. The stage is dark now, and the bed gets raised back up now with four posts connected to his and monkey bars at the top hidden from audience view however and the beginning to Can you hear me now…both of them caressing me, they can see what they’re doing but to the audience they look blindfolded.
We bump and grind the guys singing and harmonizing with me. There are some bars that are lowered that I hang from, I even get the two guys to kiss…the kiss lasts for five seconds when they ‘realize’ that they’re kissing each other. They find me and pull me back to the bed where the music fade and Onew steps off stage and Jonghyun steps on. We perform Slower...the stage fades and we dress, I perform Eyes on Me and we all perform Pay Me in which by the end I'm in a nearly see through bikini. This set is the good portion of the concert and lasts about 45 minutes.
We change once again, allowing the backup dancers to perform before we come back on stage to perform, Frontline, We invite a fan up for Morning After Dark, where we all perform fan service with the fan as well. We perform I'm gone so Gone, and My heart bleeds for you and that starts the ending of our show.
We end our show by all of us singing Perfect and dedicating it to the audience. We wave throw balls and towels into the audience, douse each other with water...and fool around. We also get everyone on stage and let them bow. We leave the stage.
The concert is a little over 2 and a half hours and definitely physically draining for sure. Our concerts starts at exactly 7pm and ends around 9:30 with us leaving the venue around 10pm to go back to our hotel.
During this past few weeks the guys had been sending their stuff back to South Korea since the 17th was our last night in New York. I had managed to put all the stuff I've accumulated into a storage garage and pay three months in advance. On the 17th we go out to our favorite Korean BBQ place the only thing I have left in my room is suitcase full of a weeks' worth of clothes, toiletries, and my precious electronics I couldn't live without.
On the 18th we leave after we check out at 10am. We find out we've been given a 45 foot long new tour bus equipped with 6 bunks, a large back room with a queen sized bed which was automatically given to me, a large vanity, a bathroom and shower. The driver was specialized in driving and maintaining these large buses. We would be staying in hotels throughout, but for those long stretches, the bus would come in handy to sleep and shower during travel.

-January 18, 19, 20, 2015 -
-Boston, Massachusetts-

We left for Boston around 10am in the morning and we arrived in Boston around 3:30 pm. Upon checking into the Boston Harbor Hotel, I went straight to the gym where I worked myself up into a good sweat before I headed over to the spa and booked a hot stone massage, and a facial for after my morning workout the next day. I headed back to my hotel room where I quickly changed and updated my social media accounts before heading to the TD Garden Arena with the rest of the guys for sound check and rehearsal.
Show time commenced at 7pm. The concert went off without a hitch. When we got back to our hotel room where I went up to my room and took a shower before having a cup of tea and reading a chapter of the latest novel I was reading to wind down before getting ready for bed.
I get a call in my hotel room from Jonghyun shortly before I'm about to get ready bed however asking if I wanted to go with him and check out the city. I tell him about my spa appointment I've booked and told him anytime after would be fine. Pleased with my answer he hung up the phone and I got ready for bed.

I woke up the next day, rested. I got into my workout clothes and headed down to work out. Minho, Jinki, and Key were down there already using various machines they bid me a good morning in which I bid them a good morning back as well. I saw the elliptical machine was available so I used it before doing a little weight lifting, pull ups and resistance training. Feeling limbered up, I exit the workout room and bump into Jonghyun who must have heard that I was working out.
"Good Morning noona. Are you going down for breakfast?"
"Good Morning Jonghyun, and yes, I am. Did you want to go with me?"
"Sure. I also booked a massage as well. Oh, manager-hyung was looking for you this morning, I told him you were busy working out."
"Good. Did you know what he wanted?" Jonghyun shook his head.
"No I don't." Jonghyun said, frowning and I shrugged.
"It must have not been important then. Come on. Let's go have some breakfast, I'm famished." I said, linking my arm with his.
During breakfast, Jonghyun told me that he had saw a Tea Party reenactment that he wanted to check out. I agreed to go along with him. After breakfast we went back to the room to get dressed in our clothes for the day before coming back down and going to our massages.
I loved the massage and facial treatment. It worked out all the wretched knots in my back, and loosened me up well. I took a shower in the facility there to wash all the oils and scrubs off of me before getting my clothes back on. I did my makeup pretty light, just a little eyeliner and lip gloss for my lips, nothing too fancy. I met up with Jonghyun in the lobby of the Spa and he let me know that he had called a car around for us.
We went to the Tea Party Reenactment, and the whole time I couldn't shake the feeling we were being watched. Jonghyun felt it too. Eventually all the water and orange juice I drank earlier ran through me so I left Jonghyun's side right when they were about to storm the ship.
On the way to the bathroom I thought I saw Jin. I did a double take and he was gone. I shook my head and found the port-a-potty. I relieved myself and went to join Jonghyun again. We enjoyed the rest of the show before going for a walk down Congress street over the bridge and stumbled upon a nice upscale restaurant called Menton.
It was during lunch so they weren't taking reservations. We were asked if we wanted to sit at the Gold Bar or in the restaurant, and Jonghyun chose the restaurant for both of us upon seeing the more extensive lunch menu. We were seated in a nice cozy corner of the restaurant and we were given some time to decide what we wanted for our courses. Jonghyun ordered some champagne to start us off with. It was a standard four course lunch. I had barely skimmed the menu before Jonghyun started up conversation.
"Noona, have you ever had caviar?" I shook my head and wrinkled my nose at him.
"Can't say that I have. The idea of eating fish eggs never really appealed to me." I said as I took a sip of water.
"Oh you've got to try it noona, you'll like it, I promise."
I ended getting some shrimp cocktail while Jonghyun got his beloved caviar. When it arrived, the plate was set up with a few hardened toast rounds, toast triangles, various crackers, diced up hardboiled egg, red onions, sour cream, and in the center was a small bowl of caviar. My shrimp cocktail also arrived with 5 very large shrimp.
"Noona, do you want a cracker, or toast?"
"Toast, please?"
"Okay, do you like onions and eggs?"
"Yes, just make me one however you eat it."
"Okay, here you go Jagiya." Jonghyun said as he handed me a triangle with sour cream on the bottom, the caviar on top of that followed by onion, and egg. I carefully took it from him and took in a deep breath.
"How do I eat this, all in one bite or..."
"Yeah, all in one bite, but first...here, have a taste of the caviar by itself." Jonghyun said, dipping the tip of the small white spoon in the bowl of caviar and extending it out toward me. He was waiting for me to open my mouth.
"Right now? O-Okay." I said, placing the toast down and opening my mouth as Jonghyun gently pushed the spoon into my mouth. The first thing I taste is the salt, and I push the eggs against the roof of my mouth where some of them burst and pop in my mouth releasing a fishy, buttery taste followed by the eggs, onion and crème fraise, not sour cream as I originally thought. "Oh my God, they're popping in my mouth. Oh that's weird."
Jonghyun laughed at me. "How do they taste noona?"
"Not that bad actually. Pretty salty, better than I expected though."
"Now take a sip of your champagne. Trust me it's good." I did as Jonghyun instructed and the champagne cut through the saltiness and fishiness of the caviar. "Would you like another noona?"
"I like it, but you enjoy it Jonghyun. Eat it well okay?" I said grabbing a large shrimp by the tail and dipping it into the cocktail sauce provided and partaking in a large bite.

Concluding our meal by sharing a chocolate mousse cake, Jonghyun called a car for us, while paying for our lunch. We finished our coffees while waiting for our ride to show up. When our ride did show up, we got in, waving to the fans that accumulated outside the restaurant to get our picture. Jonghyun grabs a couple of the girls' cell phones and took selfies with them. I waited in the car for him.
We didn't even bother going back to the hotel room we just went straight to the arena. I wasn't even sure if we'd be allowed in so early, but Jonghyun insisted we would be. We arrived at the Arena and sure enough, one of the staff let us in and escorted us to our respective dressing areas. As soon as we were alone in mine, Jonghyun turned the lock on my door and pulled me to him.
"I've been waiting for a moment to get you alone."
"Um...Jong...I don't..." Just then he pushed me onto the couch and blocked any path I could make. Jonghyun put his hands on my shoulders before leaning down and kissing me.

After our concert, I rode back with Jinki and Taemin.
"Hey noona, did you want to go on a walk with me tomorrow? There's a route I wanted to check out."
"Sure Jinki." I said, looking at him. Once back at our hotel, I take a shower and put my PJs on and there's a knock on my door. I look out the peephole to see Jin standing there. So I open the door just a bit.
"Hey Jin, I was just about to go to bed. What do you need?" I asked through the crack of the door. Jin shifted on his feet as his eyes met mine.
"Can I come in?" Jin asked and I shook my head.
"Um. No, I don't think that's a good idea, I'm really tired. Did you need anything?"
"Well, I just wanted to let you know that we're planning on leaving tomorrow after the concert." I nodded in understanding, already being made aware of that earlier by Jonghyun and Jinki both.
"Okay, thanks for letting me know. I'll see you in the morning okay?" I said as I started to shut the door, but Jin stopped it with his hand.
"Are you sure I can't come in?" Jin asked his eyes pleading with me to let him in, but honestly, I didn't trust the man.
"Yes Jin, I'm sure. I gotta get some sleep. See you tomorrow." I said, closing the door in his face before engaging the lock and turning off the light. I got into bed and turned off the bedside lamp before drifting off to sleep.

The next day I woke up, and completed my fitness routine before going to eat breakfast. I sit with Jinki and Key. The other guys join up with us a little later.
Upon finishing breakfast, I got into some nice clothes and sneakers upon Jinki's suggestion before packing my bags. Meeting Jinki and the other guys downstairs, I check out of my room and Jin grabs my bag to put in the bus we'll be loading as soon as we finish our concert tonight. Upon checking out, Jinki and I get into a private car and head to the beginning of the trail.

Jinki gives me the map shows me where we're starting and explains that it's a nearly 3 mile long trail going to various historical buildings in Boston. It was quite enjoyable and fascinating. We had completely glossed over lunch because of it, but by the time 4pm came around, I was starving so we walked around and came across an Irish Pub on State Street.

"Come on noona, let's go inside, my treat." I shrug and follow Jinki inside. As soon as we stepped inside.
"Hyung!" We heard and we turned to where the voice was coming from to see Taemin already seated and it looked like he was enjoying a pint of Guinness with some bread. He wanted us to sit with him so we did. Both Jinki and I got a pint of Guinness and I opted for a bowl of New England Clam Chowder. It was delicious, and I shared it with Jinki and Taemin.
I got a lobster roll and a shepard's pie, Jinki got curry chicken over rice, and Taemin got steak tips. The guys finished whatever food I couldn't finish myself. We topped all that delicious food with a slice of Boston creme pie each before both Taemin and Jinki fought to cover the tab.

Jinki ended up getting it. We took a car together back to the Arena where we saw our bus was parked. We got out and tipped the driver before going to our respective dressing rooms to prepare for our sound check.

As soon as we were finished with our performance we get back into our street clothes and head out immediately afterwards, since we have a 7 hour drive to Washington DC. Jin had already started out immediately before us. I retired in the back bed as soon as I use the bathroom to change into some comfy pajamas. I catch up on social media and upload pictures from the concert that night before getting some shut eye.

-January 21 2015-

I wake up around 6am and we've stopped at a special RV place right outside Washington DC. Seeing the guys still asleep, I decided to get on some workout gear and grab my jacket, ear muffs and gloves. On the way out I ask Sean how long we'll be stopped and he tells me about another half hour while he empties the tank reservoirs and replenishes the clean water. I nod, and tell him I'm going to go on a jog. He tells me to be safe. I thank him and head out. It was definitely cold, but I needed to run. I ran for about fifteen minutes before the cold got to me and I decided it was best to head back.
When I got back Minho was up and making a pot of coffee.
"Good Morning Jagiya, would you like a cup?"
"Good Morning baby, yes, I would love one." I said, taking off my sneakers and jacket. I took off my gloves and hat before going over to the fridge and grabbing a couple of yogurts from fridge and a couple of spoons out an adjacent drawer "Are the others up yet?"
"No, not yet. Did you just get back from a run?"
"Yeah, I was feeling cooped up. It's cold as hell outside though." I said, as I sat down at table booth and opened my yogurt before beginning to devour it.
"Aish! Can you guys be any louder? How am I supposed to sleep with you loudmouths talking?" Key said, as he made his presence known. Minho set my coffee down next to me and I pushed over the extra yogurt and spoon to him. He thanked me, before pushing my dressed up coffee over to me. I looked up at Key.
"Good morning to you too," I said, looking up at him, just as Minho poured Key a cup of coffee and handed it to the older man.
"Omo, thank you." He said as he went to sit down on the couch next to the booth. I finished up my yogurt and threw away the plastic container before getting up.
"What are you doing now?"
"I'm going to take a shower."
"Ooh, hurry up noona, I need to get in there too. I still have last night's sweat caked all over me."
"I will...Jesus." I said, as I walked into my sleeping quarters and shut the door behind me. I stripped down and got into the shower making sure to blare my music on my portable, waterproof mp3 player. I was in the middle of getting my hair washed when the door opened and Taemin came into the shower with me.
"Taemin! What are you--"
"Sh..." Taemin said as put a finger to his lips before his lips met mine in a heated kiss that we both immediately got lost in. Taemin's hands fumbled over my breasts, but the man was already turned on, evidently as the next thing I know, I'm being lifted off my feet and Taemin's entering me. Taemin asks me to wash his hair while he's pounding me. I'm happy to oblige. I can feel my orgasm coming, and I clench my hands in Taemin's hair as I let loose on Taemin which causes Taemin to explode inside of me as well. Taemin finishes us off, and we kiss passionately before letting me down. He washes himself off and exits the shower with a parting kiss. I finish up my shower and step out to see Jonghyun and Key on my bed, channel surfing and I realized they weren't really watching TV but instead had been watching the show Taemin and I had put on for them earlier. I blushed deeply, as I wrapped myself in a towel.
"Have fun noona?" Key sarcastically asked, his eyebrow raised.
"What--"
"Mm...noona, you're so kinky." I rolled my eyes at the two men. Key whispered something to Jonghyun as I tried to ignore them as I grabbed an outfit out of the closet to change into.
"Will you let me get dressed?" I asked, turning around to set the clothes on the vanity, clutching the towel closer to my cool body.
"Yeah, see you in a bit noona." Jonghyun said, hopping off my bed and being careful to sneak out stealthily.
"Yeah, but first..." Key got up and took off his shirt, then took off his pants and underwear so we was standing naked in front of me. I could see his cock twitch and I could tell he was getting turned on by the thought of what lay beneath my wet towel. "...I know my day is tomorrow, but I really can't wait." Key finished, as he clutched my towel harshly and literally ripped it off my body. The momentum spun me where he wanted me, on my bed. Key took advantage of the situation, we fucked and Key got his before he cleaned me up and made sure I got mine. As soon as he felt I was good and clean, he hopped up and took a shower and I got ready for the day.
We went and saw the Capitol building, the Lincoln Memorial, and Washington Monument, even in the cold weather it was fun. After that we checked into our hotel before heading over to the stadium for sound check.
After the concert, I was in my dressing room and I had just gotten into my street clothes, when Jin barged in and asked everyone to leave. I looked at him strangely.
"Crystal, my dear. I have been wanting to get you alone. How about you and I tomorrow night go on a date, I've already made reservations at a beautiful Italian restaurant."
"Jin, I don't know about that..."
"You want me to tell Minho about the affairs you're having with the other guys? Hm? I know you're getting a little more than cozy with each other...not to mention it's a clear violation of your contract."
"What are you exactly getting at Jin? Have you been following me around?" I said glaring at the older man with clear distain. Jin shrugged as he pulled me up out of my chair roughly. "Hey! Let me go!" He looked at me while licking his lips.
"I can't help it. You're so beautiful and sexy." His hand came to stroke the side of my face. "Just humor me...let me take you out on a date. Let's see where it will go."
"Will you leave me alone if I go out with you?"
"Fine, I will. One date. That's it. Nothing more. Nothing less. Before I go though, can I get a kiss?"
"Jin...I..." I tried to pull away from the man but he was persistent. I let out breath of defeat. "Fine. One kiss. That's it." Jin leaned forward quickly and kissed my lips. I tried to pull away but Jin pulled me against him and he began licking my lips. Using my strength I pulled away from him quickly. "Enough!"
"I'm sorry. I got carried away didn't I....come'ere." I managed to pulled myself from Jin's tight grasp.
"No Jin. Good night." I said, going over to the door and opening it. He looked at me.
"See you tomorrow night, beautiful." Jin said, as he walked out of the dressing room, blowing me a kiss on the way out. Jinki just happen to walk by the room, looking at Jin and myself strangely before glaring at the back of Jin's head.
"Did something happen? Are you all right?"
"I'm fine. I just got blackmailed into going out on a date with Jin." I muttered allowing the eldest male of the group to walk in.
"Blackmail? I'm not sure if I understand..."
"Jin threatened to turn me in to the Sony Executives if I didn't go on a date with him." I said, putting my hair up in a pony tail before getting the pound of stage make-up off my face.
"He what?!?! Noona, tell me you didn't agree to go."
"I did Jinki. I just want him to leave me alone."
"He's not going to leave you alone after one date though Noona. I know how he is. Take it from me, he reneges on his promises all the damn time." Jinki said making eye contact with me through the mirror.
"He knows about us though Jinki. He knows about my outings with you guys. He's been following me."
"What!?!?"
"Yeah!" Jinki got angry then pulled out his phone. "What are you doing?"
"Asking for an emergency meeting once we get back to the hotel room. This isn't right noona. Jin has no business forcing you to do anything. Who knows what else he'll try to pull. I never knew he could stoop this low."
"I know Jinki..." Jinki came over to me and put his hands on my shoulders.
"You'll be all right noona."
Later that night, Key and Minho texted me to turn my location on before the date that way they would track me and they would pop by and check on me. If things didn't feel right, to text one of them right away. I agree to all this and I end up passing out.

-January 22 2015 -
-Virginia Beach, Virginia-

First thing in the morning, after we've worked out and had breakfast we left for Virginia Beach which was our next tour stop. By the time we got there we were able to have a late lunch before checking into our hotel which was a Hilton Garden Inn. It was a beautiful property next to the beach. I receive a text from Jin shortly after getting into my room, that after our performance, he made reservations at Italian seafood restaurant and to bring something sexy to change into after the concert. I rolled my eyes at the text. I only had brought a couple of nice outfits so I grabbed one of them and stuck it in a bag to bring with me to the arena.

After the concert I get all dressed to to go out for the date with Jin. I try to convince Jin that I'm tired and don't feel like going too far away but Jin's already got us a ride and made reservations at Italian seafood place.

"Crystal, I already made these reservations, and you were okay with it when I first brought it up. We're keeping the plans."
"Jin I'm tired. Can't we just eat around the hotel? I'm sure there's just as nice places..."
"Aish. No. Why don't you come over here and give me a hug." I scoffed at Jin while crossing my legs in the back on the SUV.
"Don't push it Jin."
"Get over here. Now." I shook my head but as I did that Jin pulled on my arm, and pulled me toward him.
"Ouch! What the hell! Knock it off Jin! This isn't funny." Jin let out a laugh as he pulled me to him again before putting his hand on my breast and kneading it with his hand. My stomach started turning. I really fucking hated having his hands on me.
"Tonight you're all mine. I'll wine you and dine you, but at the end of the night. This body, will be mine." I grimaced, knowing this wasn't what I signed up for when I agreed to the date. I try to give Jin a benefit of a doubt, but after groping me repeatedly and trying to fend off Jin's unwanted advances.I get fed up. As soon our meal is over, I'm trying to look for an escape from rom Jin's hands as he couldn't keep them to himself.

When he steps away to use the bathroom I group text the guys my address and tell one of them to come get me. To my surprise, both Key and Minho were on their way to the restaurant already. They were less than a block away.
I put a couple of hundred dollar bills on the table and down the rest of my wine when the guys' car showed up. I got out out of the restaurant seeing as Jin didn't come back from the bathroom yet.
Key hollered at me as he leaned half of his body out the window. "Ooh, sexy mama, what are you doing tonight?" I could hear Minho grumble about something behind him.
I could only muster an eyeroll at the young man. "Fuck off Key. Aish...Jin was all over me. He's going to be pissed when he finds out that I ditched him...scoot over." I commanded Key. Key scooted to the middle next to Minho. It was the first time I actually saw their ensemble. They were dressed sleek, ready for a night on the town. "Where are you two headed?"
"Out to a club. We were gonna see if you wanted to tag along and surprise you where ever you were at...what were you doing with manager-hyung? Don't tell me he conned you to go on an actual date with him..."
I meekly nodded. "I swear I'm too nice for my own good sometimes."
"Jagiya why would you go out on a date with him when you know he only wants one thing? Promise you won't do that again."
"I promise all right. Being alone with Jin is definitely not on my to do list, Minho."
"Good. Now, were going to Peabody night club, the other guys are there already."
We end up having a blast at the night club and the drinks were flowing and the DJ that was playing was on fire that night. I kept getting angry texts from Jin, and eventually Jonghyun confiscated my phone, having heard of the horrible night I had with Jin.

-January 23 2015-

Exhausted from the night before, Minho and I just chill. We spend the day cuddling and as soon as we get to Norfolk, we just hang out at the hotel, cuddle and watch movies. I send Minho to go get some popcorn from the hotel store. According to Minho, Jin told him to stay away from me. Minho texts me saying he won't be back up for the night, that Jin is pissed and is spouting off crazy shit. Minho warns me to try and stay away from him at all possible and the he didn't feel like poking an angry bear.

At the concert that night, Taemin told me that Jin had called for a meeting with the guys and told the guys to stay away from and that if any of them were caught going out with me, he would see to it that they would be disbanded. We perform our concert and go back to the hotel for the night.

The next day, we board the bus and surprise, surprise, Jin is riding with us. You could cut the fucking tension with a knife.

Not wanting anything do to with the drama, I hole myself up in the back room of the bus during the 13 hour drive to Miami. Key brings me dinner which was fried chicken, baked potato and long green beans. He kept me company until I was about to pass out. I made sure to lock the door after him.

When we arrive in Miami the driver parks for the rest of the night. I wake up and see that we've stopped in at a gas station so I run inside and pick up a bunch of breakfast sandwiches and drinks, along with my toiletries out of my bag so I can get ready for my day. The next couple of days are lonely. The guys are too afraid to hang out with me out of fear.

Melody contacts me however and says that my stylist I was touring with just found out she's pregnant, and had a slew of doctors appointments she need to go to in her home town so she would be coming out to take over for her during our Orlando, Atlanta and Nashville stops. I was ecstatic because at least I wouldn't be left to my own devices anymore. I called her up to let her in on what had been going on the past few days with Jin to catch her up. We hung up.

-January 26 2015-
-Miami Florida. JW Marriot Hotel-

"Woo! What a night...I cannot wait until I can get these shoes off and take a hot shower. Jesus." I said, stretching my sore back muscles in the seat of the SUV.
"Perhaps I could give you a back massage?" Jin suggested, putting his hands on my back, only to be swatted away by Taemin. My skin crawled where Jin had touched me and I leaned forward to avoid his touch.
"Manager-hyung, are you drunk? Don't touch her." Taemin said, pulling closer to him.
"It was only a suggestion..." Jin said, looking at the maknae.
"There's a difference between suggesting to do something and actually doing it." Taemin reprimanded.
"Perhaps when we get back to the room, I'll give you a massage honey..." Minho who was sitting to the other side of me, said, putting his arm around me protectively. Thank God he was sitting next to me.
"No, you won't Choi Minho. You guys have another show tomorrow night, and I'll be damned if anyone's going to be staying up late on my watch..." I hear the guys groan and grumble under their breath. I kind of wished Melody was with us right now, it was too bad she was back in New York right now. I literally had no one else to talk to about how nasty Jin was acting lately. The guys' radar was up but I could tell they were in a rock and a hard place. They didn't know what to do or how to respond to their hyung when he would be inappropriate.
I pondered how far Jin would actually go. Sadly, I would get my answer sooner rather than later.

We all walked into the hotel as soon as the SUV stopped in front of the hotel and I wanted to grab a bottle of water. The guys went into the elevator and went up to their hotel room. Upon paying for my water I was headed up for my room which was just a few doors down from where the guys were staying. I just figured Jin had gone up with the guys since I didn't see him anywhere around the lobby area, I figured I was safe. I got into the second elevator to head up to my room when someone lodged an arm in before the elevator shut causing the doors to open up again. Jin walked in.
"Hope you don't mind me hitching a ride with you. The guys took the other elevator." I smiled meekly and moved over to the corner of the elevator.
"It's okay Jin." I replied. The elevator doors close and suddenly I find myself pinned in the corner of the elevator Jin's body lewdly pressed up against mine. The bottle of unopened water I was holding went flying and rolled around on the tile floor. "--What the fuck!!!"
"Fuck...you feel so good. Your breasts are perfect..." I struggled against Jin.
"Get the fuck off of me! SOMEBODY HE--" He put a hand over my mouth to stop me from screaming all while thrusting his other hand up my shirt and underneath my bra to grasp my left breast as while grinding himself against me.
"You let them put their hands on you yet you deny me?!?! This bitch, it's only fair you let me fuck you Crystal..." Jin pleaded as he pushed my shirt and bra up to where my breasts were exposed. Fear froze me in place. His lips ghosted over mine before he leaned down and his mouth latched down on my nipple, and his grip on me loosened a bit and I managed to shove him off of me and I pressed the next floor all while trying to fight to get away from him. "Bitch!" He managed to corner me again. Just as the doors opened and I made a bolt for the doors and Jin followed me out.
"Leave me alone Jin!" Just then he grabbed me and shoved me roughly into an adjacent where he pinned his body against mine. I was crying from pain and terror. "Please Jin...don't do this..." I heard him messing with his zipper.
"You tell anyone about this...I'll personally see to it that you're thrown out of SHINee and your contracts with both SM and Sony are done..." I couldn't move, Jin had me where he wanted me. He was about to pull down my leggings.
"Hey! What the fuck are you doing!?!? Get the fuck off of her!." Jin was shoved off of me and I collapsed to the ground by a tall gentleman. His girlfriend helped me up.
"Come on, let's get you out of here..." The woman said as she ushered me back into the elevator. "What room are you in? Where are your band members?"
"I-In their r-r-room upstairs..."
"Who is that guy, do you know him?"
"O-our manager..."
"We need to call the police hun. You can't let him get away with this."
"N-no...please don't..."
"He's going to keep doing this Crystal...please, you don't know me, but I know you and I care about you...look, my name is Emily, I'm was in 703 when both Chad and I heard you. Has this guy been like this toward you?" I nod, straightening myself up and wiping my face of the tears that were coming down.
"He's usually harmless."
Emily escorts me back to my room. "Harmless? That wasn't harmless. Did you need me to stay with you?"
"N-no, I think I got it from here on...Jin doesn't have a key to my room--"
"But will he be able to get one?"
"Yeah, let me call down to the desk..."
"No, hun, let me, I'll notify the desk of what's going on, go take a shower. I'll be on the lookout." I nod once again as I run a hand through my hair before grabbing my pajamas and going into my bathroom. I strip down and turn on the water to the appropriate temperature which was a little more hot than I could stand...I had to get Jin's hands and lips off of me. I enter the shower and beginning every place Jin's hands were...fuck I felt so dirty. No matter how hard I scrubbed I felt defiled. I broke down crying in the shower not being able to stop the loop of what Jin to me from playing.
I stayed until the water started turning cold, only then did I consider getting out. I stepped out of the shower and dried off and looked at my reflection in the mirror. If I wasn't so attractive, would Jin still had tried to push himself on me? I got dressed and when I got out Emily was sitting on the bed.
"Are you okay?"
"I'd be lying if I said yes." I said, as I sat down on the chair adjacent to the bed. "I'm sorry you had to see that."
"What he did wasn't right Crystal, just because you get half naked on stage doesn't give him or anyone the right to put their hands on you." Emily said, looking at me.
"You went to the show tonight?"
"Yeah, it was amazing, I flew in from Birmingham to see you and my uncle that lives here. I had no idea you guys were staying here though."
"Yeah. I want to thank you..."
I get to know Emily and her boyfriend eventually asks her to come back to the room. I ask if they want to go downstairs and have drink with me and they're more than happy to. The night ends around 1am where I manage to make it back up to my room in a buzzing off of alcohol.
I wake up a little before 7am with my room phone ringing. I pick up the receiver and put it up to my ear.
"Good morning Crystal..." I realize it's Jin and I freeze, my blood running cold. "I woke up with a good boner. I had a dream about fucking that little body of yours last night. Just thought you should know."
"Fuck off you nasty bastard!" I slammed the receiver down before pulling myself into a sitting position. I suddenly didn't feel like leaving my room for fear he might be out there so I picked up my cell phone and text Key to meet me in my room.
Moments later there's a knock at my door, and I look out the peephole to see Jin.
"Go the fuck away Jin.."
"What's going on here? Crystal asked me to meet with her..." Oh fuck. This can't be happening right now.
"Oh really? Well I wonder why that is...why don't you go back to you--"
"Key! Please come in..." I opened the Key and upon my eyes seeing Key to my right, I grabbed him and pulled him into the hotel by the front of his shirt before slamming the door shut in Jin's face before he could even get a chance to try and make his way inside.
"Crystal! What the---"
"Key, sh...I'll explain everything...just quiet."
"But---" I clamped a hand over Key's mouth. "Mmphf wrffers" I checked out the peephole to see Jin's eyes widen as he left hurriedly.
"Fucking eh--finally..." I let my hand off of Key's mouth.
"Look before you say anything, listen to me. I don't want you spreading this around the group, but Jin tried to rape me last night. If it wasn't for some guests stopping him, he probably would've succeeded." Key's eyes bugged out.
"What? When the fuck did this happen?!?"
"SH!" I said putting a finger to my lips. "Last night."
"I know, but when? I'll fucking kill him Crystal..."
"No and it was shortly after we got back, you guys took the first elevator, and Jin cornered me in the second elevator." Key launched himself off the bed and I shoved him back onto the bed.
"Crystal, let me go!"
"No. Don't make waves...I'm begging you, Jin threatened to disband us if I told any of you guys..."
"Why Crystal...why are you protecting him?" Key asked, his eyes meeting mine as he took my hands in his. I glanced down at our now enveloped hands.
"Fuck I shouldn't have told you..." Tears were threatening to fall, making my vision blurry.
"No, you should've come to us last night...you know Minho will kill Jin, fuck, Minho would be the last of Jin's worries, can you imagine Jonghyun when he catches wind of this don't even get me started on Jinki and Taemin...you're a queen to us...I just..." Key looked at me, seeing tears start to flow. "Fuck Crystal. I'm sorry. I can't just sit back while this shit goes down."
I nodded. "I know, but please for my sake, I don't need this to escalate anymore. I don't think Jin will try anything else." Key gave me a look of disbelief as he went over to my phone and grabbed the room service menu.
"How does waffles sound? Strawberries and whipped cream on them?" I could simply nod as I collapsed on the bed in a heap of tears.
The concert that night went off without a hitch even with the rain making the stage slippery we managed to give a good show. Jin left me alone for the most part, he made some vulgar gestures toward me but I ignored him. With it being our last night in Miami, the guys decide to go clubbing. I decline all the invitations to go. Minho and Jinki know something's up because I never turn down a night at the club. Key knew exactly and stands up for me saying I'm probably tired from trying not to slip from the wet silks. I take a shower and I can't help but cry. I feel completely helpless and a shell of the confident woman I was.

-January 29 2015-
-Orlando Florida-

As soon as I finished my morning routine, Key texted me and asked if I wanted to go shopping. I make the decision to go, despite not really wanting to do anything. I needed to get a few toiletries myself.
We discuss what happened the night before in more detail. I end up getting triggered as I recollect the order of events. We leave the mall and go to a restaurant for privacy and to get us something to eat. He knows I need time to heal. He comforts me and says he'll be patient with me and help me. We head over to the stadium shortly after we finish our meal where I meet up with Melody. I'm super excited to see her. Her and I end up going out to a coffee shop afterwards where I tell her what happened with Jin but didn't go into great detail, or really tell her what it really was, attempted rape. I also catch her up on what's going on with the tour.
Orlando's performance was a breeze and I enjoyed being in my home town. Before we left for Tampa, I went out with security detail by myself and I got to see the old Nickelodeon studios and Universal Studios. It was great, I also found my old home after getting the address from my dad. It was great to reminisce upon my childhood, even if things had changed drastically in the 25-26 years since I had lived there.

-January 30 2015-
-Tampa, Florida-

"Fuck! God damn it!" I gritted as I had managed to pinch my finger between the dumbbell and the rack.

"Jagiya, be careful. Are you okay?" Minho asked, rushing over to me and grabbing my injured hand. I pull my hand away from him to examine it closer myself. The pinched area was already turning a bright crimson. A tell tale sign it was going to turn into a blood blister.
"Yeah, I'll be fine, just a fucking blood blister." I said, putting the effected area in my mouth to soothe it. I frown, tasting the bitter metallic residue on my finger. "Yuck." Minho smiled at me.
"Come on Jagiya, I'll buy you breakfast to make up for it..."
Minho takes me out for breakfast before he comes up with me to my room, careful we weren't seen by Jin. When we get to my room, I start making my way over to the night stand where the remote for the TV was but Minho didn't let me get far. I felt him grab my upper arm before I got too far away and he pulled me to him. We made eye contact and Minho leaned forward and kissed me. I allowed him to kiss me. The passion began to build and soon we were making out. Minho began walking me back toward the bed, and suddenly it was like Minho was replaced by Jin. I pull away shocked realizing that Minho was standing right there looking at me with lust-glazed eyes.

"M-Minho...I-I can't do---"
"Get back here, Jagiya...I'm not done with you yet." Minho said as he pulled me to him again. His lips began to kiss me again and I kept trying to tell myself, 'this is Minho, this is Minho Crystal...don't be afraid.' Minho's hands move to pull down my tank top I normally wore when I worked out, it was the same tanktop I wore that night when Jin tried to rape me. I finally found the strength to push Minho away.
"St-Stop!"

"Mm, Jagiya...fuck you're turning me on so much..." Minho pushed me down on the bed and managed to pin me against the bed with his body weight. His mouth was on mine, kissing me before enclosing it around my nipple and I was shaking in fear. Terrified I began struggling against the frame of his body, panic going through me. Somehow I managed to get my hand free. I had a fight or flight moment and I landed my balled up fist right with Minho's jawline. There was a solid crack.
"No! Stop!" I screamed, and Minho backed off me holding his inflicted jaw. I managed to shoot up and I pushed him out of my way to run to the door where I thrust it open and took off. I heard Minho scream in anger toward me and I could hear footsteps chasing after me.

"Jagiya what the fuck!?!" I saw Key step out of his room and I found the stairwell and ran down the staircase. Key must have stopped Minho because I didn't hear him chasing after me once I hit the stairwell. I collapsed down in the stairwell and broke down crying. What the fuck was wrong with me?

When I had composed myself, I walked back to my room where Key shot me a worrisome expression.
"What the fuck happened?"
"I freaked out when Minho pinned me to the bed. It was too much at once."
"Freaked out is an understatement. You busted his jaw up pretty good."
"I had a flashback Key. My mind and body thought Minho was Jin...I think I need help."
"I think you're right. Have you told Melody what happened with Jin?"
"I alluded to it, I haven't told her everything, no."
"You need to get control over yourself. Everyone knows something is up with you and I'm not going to keep this secret forever. Talk to Melody, perhaps she can help find a therapist or something for you." Key said, as he patted my shoulder. "I told Minho you're really stressed out and to be gentle with you. Remind me not to piss you off. You did a number to Minho's jaw though, seriously. He's going to need all the make-up and icepacks man can throw at him." Key finished, sticking his hands in his pockets and walking away from me. I chewed the inside of my lip feeling awful and I stretched my now aching left hand out.

-February 2 2015-
-Atlanta, GA-

Having spent the past weekend reflecting on my actions and spending much needed time skyping with my daughter. I felt okay. The guys had allowed me that much. I knew I couldn't hide away from them forever and that I would have to eventually have to tell the guys what happened.
Today happened to be Jinki's day with me since he traded with Jonghyun that week. Jin was still watching the guys closely like a hawk but he couldn't keep tabs on all of the guys at once. Jinki and Taemin were the slyest ones out of them all. They knew how to distract Jin and get past him easily. Jinki ended up knocking on my hotel room door.
I let him in, thinking we were just going to watch movies or something, but Jinki asked me to sit down as soon as he was halfway into my room, I knew what was going on. I panic and try to leave the room but Jinki blocks my path.

"Noona, what's been going on with you? I'm not letting you leave until I get a straight answer."

"Jinki, want to tell you, but I can't. Believe me, if I could I would." I said, tears leaving my eyes and streaking down my face.
"Minho said you were completely terrified of him. He thought you were putting on an act. I've seen how you've been lately, and you're not yourself. Are you okay?"
I began crying and letting all my emotions out. I could only muster a shake of my head to signify that no, I wasn't okay. Jinki got up and crouched in front of me before embracing me and allowing my cry on his should.
"Noona, does any of this have to do with Jin?" I nod. "Okay, has he tried to hurt you in some way?" I nod again, still silent. "Do you need time?" I nod once again. He then kisses the top of my forehead and tells me whenever I need to talk I can come to him with anything. He then kisses my lips sweetly and lets me go, hurt that I'm hurting and that Jin had something to do with it.

-February 3 2015-

"Jagiya, you should meet me on the top floor after you get dressed for the day. I have a surprise for you." Jonghyun whispered in my ear at breakfast. I looked at him and nodded, acknowledging I had heard him while taking a bite of my eggs. Jin was sitting at the end of the table, watching Jonghyun like a hawk. Jinki managed to strike up a conversation with Jin, making him forget about Jonghyun for the moment. I finished my plate disposed of it in the proper area. Key had done the same thing, and walked with me to the elevator before going up with me.

"Aish, Jin is persistent isn't he?" Key said, shaking his head as soon as the elevator doors shut.
"Yeah really. He's being such an asshole." I commented as we got up to the floor where our rooms were. We parted and I went into my room to get into my clothes for the day. I then checked the hallway before exiting my hotel room and going to the elevator before pressing the up button. Once inside the elevator I press the button next to the highest number on the elevator. It was a bit of a wait but once I was there and the elevator doors open, I was met with Jonghyun's smiling face.
"Noona! Here. Five sugar and two cream, right?" Jonghyun asked, as he passed me a cup of coffee. I smiled at his gesture and nodded.
"Yes! Thank you!" I said taking a cautious sip of the hot beverage.
"Here take my hand." Jonghyun said, as he held out his free hand out to me. He took me down the hall to a locked door before swiping a key card to gain entrance. Just beyond the door there was a stairwell that lead to what I assumed was up to the roof. "Come on noona." Jonghyun said, as he led me up the staircase and when we arrived at the top there was a door. He swiped his keycard and we were on the rooftop of the hotel. We both walked over to the edge and admired the downtown of Atlanta.
"How'd you manage to snag a key?"
"I have my ways." There was a pause and I knew what that meant.
"She's a fan, isn't she..."
"He," Jonghyun corrected me. "and yes, he was a fan of ours. Noona, do you trust us?" Jonghyun asked sternly, his gaze meeting mine. I swallowed hard as my mouth snapped shut.
"Of course I do Jonghyun. What kind of ques--"
"Good." Jonghyun interrupted. "Then answer me when I ask this. What in the hell has been up with you lately? The way you've been acting is not like you at all." Tears welled up in my eyes again as the memories came back with vengeance.
"Jonghyun. It's not that simple. There's a reason--"
Jonghyun interrupted me once again. "Jinki said Jin tried to hurt you? Is he abusing you noona? Help me wrap my mind around why you nearly broke Minho's jaw..."
"Jonghyun! Jin told me not to tell anyone! He'll end us if I do. What happened between Minho and I triggered a flashback and I went into fight or flight mode and I hit him. I couldn't control that."
"Noona what did he do to you? We can help you!"
"I don't need your fucking help okay!?!? If you help me than Jin will know I told you. I mean he tried to ra—fuck, I've already said too much...I'm going back downstairs..."

"Uh-Uh, Noona. Jin tried to rape you? Is that it?"
"Jonghyun...please..." I pleaded, staring at the ground tears freely flowing from my eyes. I felt Jonghyun close the distance between us and a hand soothing stroke the back of my head.
"How can I protect you noona? You're too scared to even say what happened to you."
I keep quiet, as I cry. Jonghyun wraps his arms around me and allows me to cry.

I couldn't bring myself to feel the guys affection outside of the stage and even on stage, I wanted to run away from their touch. I knew I needed help...but couldn't bring myself to dial the number to the rape hotline because I hadn't been technically raped. I had been here before, why wasn't I strong enough to get through it this time like I had with Taemin. I avoided Jin like the fucking plague, but I knew I could only avoid him for so long.

-February 5 2015-

"Goodnight Nashville! We we'll be back again tomorrow! You've been fantastic!" I yelled out to the crowd before holding up a peace sign. I ran off stage to the awaiting stagehands who were awaiting my mic and headset. Upon handing these items over we were joined by Jin and Melody and escorted off the stage to the stadium quarters behind the stage. I went into my dressing room where Melody and my personal assistant Renee helped strip off my stage costume and I'm handed over my regular street clothes which I dress into and there's a knock on the door.
"Melody can you see who that is?" I ask, before taking a long drink of my water.
"It's Jin, do you want me to let him in?"
"No, whatever he has to say he can say through the door." I said sternly.
"Crystal, he has flowers."
"He's not coming in here, he can shove them up his ass for all I care." I said, taking some naproxen that Renee held out for me.
"I'll take them for her Jin. No you can't come in." The door was then closed shut and Melody set the flowers which were white tiger lilies down. "Aren't they nice? They're so pretty..."
"Nothing about that man is nice. Trust me." I mutter looking at the flowers as if they were a dangerous object sure to cause my death.
"Ookaaaayyy...You and Jin still having issues?"
"You can say that...can you throw them away for me? I don't want anything from him."
"Sure...I'll dispose of them..." Melody said as she grabbed the flowers and left with them. Just then one of the other stage hands come into the room and ask if my stylist could come with him. It was about this time, I started to feel funny. I started to feel light headed, and dizzy...not myself. I laid down, in hopes to quell the dizzy spell that hit me out of nowhere, but I had this sinking feeling and I realized I couldn't really move. My body felt like it was made of lead. I began drooling, and felt like I just wanted to sleep. The door opened and I saw Jin walk in, I looked at him. He grabbed my sweater and pulled it up over my chest and did the same to my bra before he began fondling me.

"W-Whathe hell...didudota me.." I murmured, trying to formulate a coherent sentence and failing miserably.
"Sh... relax." Jin began unbuttoning my pants before sliding his hand inside. Feeling his hand all over my lady parts and not being able to cringe away from him broke my heart. He was violating me and I was powerless to stop him. "I just slipped a little something in your water to make you relax. It's not harmful...you'll just be out of it..."
"No...don--" I couldn't stop him, I felt so weak, so out of it. I literally couldn't move or form a coherent sentence. I felt so helpless.
"We don't have much time..." Jin unbuckled his pants and pushed them down to his knees to reveal himself. I was scared and had tears rolling down the side of my head. "Open your mouth."
All I could muster was a small shake of my head in protest before Jin shoved two fingers into my mouth before shoving his growing erection into my mouth. I gagged and tried to close my mouth but I couldn't even do that. I cried even more, as Jin began thrusting erratically into my mouth.
"Mm...so good, I'm gonna cum in your mouth...and you're going to like it." I couldn't stop him as he shoved a hand into my panties and began to finger me all while thrusting into my mouth and choking me with his erection with every thrust. I was just an object used as a means to an end. I couldn't stop him as, with a moan, he foully finished in my mouth. He pulled out and asked me to swallow and again I managed a weak shake of my head as I tried to turn my head to empty my mouth but he then got mad, he clamped my mouth shut and pinched my nose causing me to let out a cry of pain. Fuck it hurt! I wanted to vomit so bad, but didn't have the energy. I choked, trying to spit the thick warm substance out, but my body did nothing that I wanted it to. Unable to breath I swallowed the foul substance and Jin let my nose and mouth go.
"Good. You little bitch, I'll teach you just yet..."
Just then the door opened and Melody walked in. Her eyes widened as she saw Jin with his pants down, and my shirt pulled up, pants pulled down with Jin's hand over my crotch and fingers still inside of me.
"Mel...help..."
"WHAT THE FUCK! GET OFF HER!" Jin pulled away from me and pulled his pants up and ran out of the room. "Holy fuck, Crystal what happened..." She rushed over to me as I tried to tell her what happened, but I could only get out a word or two.
"Jin...drugged..."
"You're like a limp noodle, can you move? Can you talk?" I weakly shook my head. Melody pulled up my pants and pulled down my shirt and she wrapped my arms around her neck and helped me up into a sitting position. "Look at me honey...do you need to go to the hospital?" I was still crying and I shook my head.
"Did he do anything to you?" I nodded and tried to point to my mouth. She understood. "He forced oral sex on you?" I nod again.
"Fuck...I should've known when I caught him in here earlier." She grabbed my water bottle and opened the lid and gave it a sniff. "Bastard..." She pulled out her phone and exited the room. The next time the door opened was when Key came in carrying a blanket. He didn't say anything to me as he wrapped the blanket around me as he just threaded an arm around my back and the other under my knees and carried me in his arms. He carried me in silence out to a separate van. Melody came with us, giving her duties to my stylist. Nobody told me where we were going. The only conversation in the van was made by Melody talking to upper management saying I was violently ill which we knew was a lie and that we were headed to a hospital. I pretty much knew what was coming up next. A rape kit, and this time I would be conscious.
We were met at the drop off point by a female doctor and nurse and escorted inside. Key carried me the whole way. Melody gave a statement to the doctor and detectives that were waiting in the lobby and handed over my water bottle telling the staff to "find out whatever the hell is in that". The doctors led Key down to a private examination room where I was laid on the examination table.
"Okay sweetie, I'm going to get a blood panel, so you'll feel a pinch okay?" The nurse said as she tied an elastic tension band around my arm. She found my vein on the inside of my elbow and stuck a needle in before collecting various tubes of blood. Key was asked to sit down and he did. I stared up at the ceiling, the whole room was spinning and I wanted to puke so bad.
"Puke..."
"What was that honey?"
"I gotta puke..." I could feel the contents of my stomach move up my esophagus and the nurse grabbed a bed pan turning my head just in time to catch my vomit. The doctor had the nurse run my vomit to the lab along with the vials of blood she took. Melody joined us in the room.
"How is she?"
"Pretty bad. I'm guessing whoever drugged her, did it with some sort of barbiturate tranquilizer, possibly ketamine...we won't know until we get the lab results back."
"A tranquilizer? Jin fucking drugged her?" Key asked more angry than shocked.
"Yes, wait, you knew it was Jin?" Melody asked, narrowing her eyes at Key.
"Yeah, that bastard tried to force himself on Crystal last week when we were in Miami, some guests caught him in the act." Key said running a hand through his hair.
"Why didn't you tell me?!?!" Melody asked flabbergasted that Jin had attempted to rape me once already.
"She asked me not to tell anyone!! She figured Jin wouldn't try it again and just wanted to forget about it!"
"Enough! I'll need to ask you both to leave. I need to prep her for the exam." The doctor said, as she opened the door to allow Key and Melody out.
"But--fine. I'll be outside." Key said, opening the door and exiting the examination room. Melody gave me an apologetic look before leaving the room. The doctor turned her attention to me.
"Crystal, my name is Dr. Jasper, I'm going to be heading up your rape kit. Can you get up?" I shook my head.
"No...everything's spinning still and my limbs feel heavy."
Dr. Jasper frowned. "We need to get the process started. Can you tell me what happened while I help you undress? I'll need to know exactly what happened from the moment you entered your dressing room, describe every detail you remember. I'll start the recording now. I'll need your clothes for evidence."

"You'll feel a pinch, that's the speculum going in."

"I'll need to swab your mouth for any traces of DNA, you did say he forced you to perform oral sex right?"

"I see you have some vaginal tearing, I'm going to photograph it now."

The exam lasted a grueling three and a half hours and was incredibly invasive. I was crying by the end of it. The drug still wasn't completely out of my system yet but toward the conclusion of the exam I found out that Jin had spiked my water with Ketamine, quite a large amount of Ketamine was found in the water. The drug when ingested isn't as intense as it being injected with the substance but the drug was slower to work out of the system as opposed to being injected. At least my limbs didn't feel so heavy anymore and I could walk and move around with help.
I was given a fresh change of some hospital clothes since my old ones were taken as evidence. I was given two weeks worth of antibiotics to guard against any possible STIs. The detectives from earlier came and talked to me and state that they would begin building a case against Jin and that they had gotten statements from Key and Melody. They would also be in touch with South Korean authorities since Jin is a South Korean citizen. I was given a chance to shower and given toiletries to freshen up with before being released.
The ride back to the hotel was quiet. Key helped me out of the car.
"Before we go inside. I told Minho where we were...I didn't tell him what for though."
I whipped around, my eyes widened with shock "Why would you do that Key?!"
"You need to tell him what's going on God damn it! He can protect you, we all can! Six against one he won't be able to get you alone!"
I turned back around. "Fuck! I fucking hate my life right now! This is too fucking much!!!!" I yell, the high wind drowning my voice out. I was freezing my ass off, not that it mattered any way.
"You think this is easy for me? I'm not keeping this a secret from them anymore Crystal."
I turned back around and tried to plead with him. "Key..."
"Let's go." Key said, as he pulled me inside the hotel. Minho was waiting in the lobby, clearly something on his mind. I tried to pull away from Key and run to the elevator but he had a firm grasp on my upper arm. Minho saw us come in and approached us.
"We need to talk." Minho said, gravely.
"Not right now Minho, I just want to sleep." I pleaded. I really didn't want to deal with this now. Any other time but now.
"Yes, right now. What's going on with you? Are you sick? Tell me why you were at the hospital. Why are you wearing hospital gowns? Where are your clothes?" I put my hands up over my ears and began bawling. It was too much, too fucking much.
"Stop it." Melody stepped between me and Minho and pulled me away from Key. "Minho, she's been through a lot, stop. All will be explained okay? Have everyone meet us in her room in about twenty minutes. Where's Jin right now?"
"He went out to meet some Sony execs...why?" Minho asked, glancing at Melody.
"Good, he needs to stay gone. Just meet us in Crystal's room okay? It's an emergency okay?" Key said, as Melody and I stepped into the elevator with Key trailing behind us, leaving a very dumbfound Minho standing in the middle of the lobby.
Once in the safety of my room I collapsed onto the bed in a heap of tears. I felt so violated, so numb, so sad, so depressed...like my whole world shattered around me. My mind was racing.
"Crystal. Come on. You're stronger than this...Taemin--"
"Jin actually succeeded though. I-I couldn't stop him Key! I couldn't move! I couldn't scream! I was s-so scared!"
"And we'll put that bastard behind bars. I promise you that." Key said, sitting at the foot of my bed.
"I feel so tainted....so dirty."
"You aren't. This wasn't you're fault Crystal. Fuck! I swear Melody, if I even see him..." Key trailed off but Melody picked up on his contemptuous tone.
"Violence isn't the answer Key. As much as I want to junk punch Jin right now, we have to let law enforcement do their job. Let's not push Crystal too hard." Melody then turned her attention to me. "Do you want anything? Are you hungry at all?"
"I can't eat. My stomach's all in knots still." Both Melody and Key nodded. Key got up and sat with Melody in separate chairs in my suite. I took a cat nap while we waited for the guys.
I wasn't at all prepared for what happened next.
The guys were let in by Key while Melody shook me awake. I sat up in bed, my tear streaked face hit all the guys.
"Omo, Crystal, are you okay? What's going on?" Taemin asked, switching his gaze between all of us.
"Guys, there's no easy way to say this...but Crystal's been raped..."
"What?"
"Bwoh?"
"Yes, I walked in on Jin raping her. She's been to the doctor..." Suddenly Minho threw himself up into a standing position, sending the chair he had been sitting in violently knocked over. He glared at Melody, teeth and fists clenched, clearly angry.
"Jin did this!?!"
"Jin? What? How? Why? Is she hurt?" Came Jinki's response. While Jonghyun and Taemin mirrored each other's look of shock.
"Clearly she's hurt hyung. You don't just get over being raped." Key said, glaring at Jinki for his question.
"Did you fight back Crystal? Please tell me you did..." Jonghyun pleaded, his eyes full of tears. He was angry.
"She couldn't. Jin drugged her with a drug called Ketamine. She was immobilized while he assaulted her." It was at this time that Minho's anger got the best of him.
"How was she even left alone and for how long?" When there wasn't an answer right away Minho walked over to the adjacent wall and pounded on the wall with the end of his fist and turned around to glare at Melody. "Melody! Answer me God damn it!"
"Literally like ten minutes while I went to throw the flowers Jin gave her. I was stopped on the way back to sign some paperwork..."
"Where was her stylist? How could you allow this to happen!"
"She was asked to help with something else. I don't know Minho! I was shocked to find Jin doing that shit to her too!"
"I'll kill him..." Minho said through a clenched jaw. "I'LL FUCKING KILL HIM!" Minho said before driving his fist through the delicate dry wall of the hotel room, making me jump. Just then Minho went to the door and ripped it open with Jonghyun hot on his trail following him. Jinki, Taemin and Key were in hot pursuit as well. I launched myself off the bed.
"Minho wait!" Jonghyun called after Minho.
"Guys wait! Stop!" Melody said as everyone, myself included followed Minho.
Minho was angry. Angry enough to hurt someone. All the guys were honestly. That's when I heard it. Glass breaking, furniture being tossed against the wall. Jonghyun who has the other key to the room got in and literally had to tackle Minho down to the ground and held him down while Minho struggled against the older man. By now I was in hysterics. Hyperventilating and crying. I began gagging and shaking. I felt the contents of my stomach rising in my esophagus and I ran all the way back to my room to vomit. I continued to retch bile and stomach acid into the toilet. I was literally having a hardcore panic attack. My body was reacting to the stress, but I felt dead inside.
Lucky for us, the hotel wasn't too busy, and we had the top two floors to ourselves otherwise the cops would've been called. I managed to get a hold of my wrenching diaphragm and calm myself down a bit before I walked back out into the hallway toward Jonghyun and Minho's room. I felt emotionally paralyzed as I heard the Minho yelling.
"HEY! CALM DOWN!" Jonghyun's voice boomed in the hallway. I kept to the wall as much as I could, tip toeing carefully to avoid detection. When I caught a glimpse of the room, it was trashed. Clothes and luggage was strewn about the room. One of the windows had a nice sized crack in it, and everything on the desks were cleared off onto the floor. Mirrors and vases that decorated the room, were smashed on the floor.
"Let go of me hyung!"
"Not until your anger is gone...snap out of it Minho--"
"I'll kill manager-hyung..."
"It's not worth it...calm down before you hurt yourself..." Minho broke down in his hyung's embrace. I was so fixated on Jonghyun and Minho's embrace I didn't realize Jinki had rushed me. I was ripped away from the door way of the room and I was bought to my own room where Jinki barricaded the door. I just went where I was led.
"We need to talk. How long has this been going on?" I was still in a state of shock, Jinki snapped at me and put his hands on my shoulders, and shook me. He was in my face, so close, I managed to make eye contact with him. His eyes reflected, anger, worry, and uncertainty. "Crystal! Talk to me!"
I was finally able to open my mouth. My own voice sounded foreign to me. "T-the past two weeks."
Jinki let me go before running a head through his hair in frustration. "So, you're telling me this incident isn't the first time he's done this..." I nodded, I looked down at the floor, and I felt ashamed. So incredibly ashamed. My vision grew blurry with tears as a stray tear managed to escape my right eye.
I opened my mouth, and brought a hand up to wipe away the tear. "H-he tried to rape me in Miami. That's what I couldn't tell you." I looked up at Jinki just in time to see him ball his fist in anger. He then punched the adjacent door several times with all of his might before grabbing a hotel guide that was on the counter next to him and threw it across the room. The papers the lay inside scattered like leaves all over the chair and table with some of the pages landing on the bed. My body jerked in place. Seeing Jinki react so violently made me shake with fear. Suddenly I heard Key yell as if he was getting hit and my eyes widened as Jinki and I looked at each other before heading down the hall to see what the hell was going on. Taemin and Key's room was right down the hall from mine and across the hall from Minho and Jonghyun's room. Jinki pounded on the door.
"Key?"
"You son of a bitch! I should kill you right now! I should fucking kill you Key! You knew, you knew! When were you going to say anything, huh hyung!?!? Huh?!?!?"
"Taeminnie! You don't know my struggle...I wanted to say something...please let me go!"
"Taemin!!! Let him go!" I yelled at the door before pounding at the door again.
"Your struggle?!?! What about Crystal's struggle!?!? Did you even fucking think about her?"
"Of course I did, she begged me not to saying anything!?!?!" I could hear Key break down. "Taemin please, I'm sorry."
Just then the door opened, and standing in the doorway was Taemin, his fists were at his sides and he was extremely pissed.
"Is that true noona? Did you tell Key not to tell anyone?"
I swallowed hard and closed my eyes as a grimace laced my features. I nodded. "It's true, I thought Jin--" Just then Taemin grabbed Key by the collar of his jacket and shoved him out of the hotel room. Jinki caught him.
"Get the fuck out of my face! How dare you! How fucking dare both of you. Did you like it noona?"
"--What? Taemin..."Jinki said, caught off guard by Taemin's last question.
"You're a bitch. You could've prevented this! You're so fucking weak!"
Key snapped. He pulled Taemin out of the doorway to their hotel room and pushed him down before straddling the younger man and striking Taemin's face with his fist.
"KEY!!!!" Jinki screamed jumping into action and pulled Key off of Taemin. Taemin jumped to his feet and wiped at his now bleeding lip. "Come on...both of you! Stop it!"
"YOU SON OF A BITCH! HOW FUCKING DARE YOU!?!?!? Were you there that morning to see her terrified? Jin fucking threatened to ruin her career and disband us if she told anyone you asshole! You're going on about how she liked it!!?!?! FUCK YOU! You sick fuck. Then again, I shouldn't be surprised. You also tried to rape her too and look now, defending someone who actually succeeded." Key said as he spit toward Taemin, who lunged at Key again but Jinki stopped him. I just couldn't take it anymore. I slid down against the wall until I was seated on the floor hysterical. I just wanted to die right then and there. This was all my fucking fault.
"Key, take a walk." Jinki warned shooting a dangerous glare at Key. Key rolled his eyes, tears rolling down his face.
"Right, I'm the bad guy I forgot..."
"God can we just stop! I can't deal with this anymore. I shouldn't have said anything, I shouldn't have dragged you guys into this..." I pleaded, I was so distraught, I couldn't catch my breath.
"No! You should've have told us Crystal--look go back to the room I'll be there in a moment." Jinki said as he walked with Taemin further down the hall. I retreated back to my room with Key who sat down in the chair while I sat down Just then there was a knock on the door and Jinki looked out the peephole before opening the door. Melody, and Key walk in both of them have tear-streaked faces. "Is Minho okay?"
"As okay as he'll be for the moment..." Key said, as he sat down on a chair in my room.
"And Taemin?" I asked, and I instantly knew I was going to regret asking.
"He's pissed!" Melody said, as she shook her head.
"Well you didn't bother telling any of us about what happened in Miami..." Jinki spat.
"I was trying to protect her!" Key threw back Jinki's glare with an ice one of his own.
"Some good that fucking did."
"Fuck you Jinki!" Key yelled and I jumped again as he shot up out of the chair and went over to the door.
"And where are you going?"
"To go jump off a fucking bridge!" Key said as he stormed out of the hotel room in hysterics. Something in me snapped. I had to get out of there.
"I'M DONE!" I yelled at the top of my lungs. "FUCKING STOP IT ALREADY! JUST STOP IT! THERE'S NOTHING YOU CAN DO TO CHANGE IT! JUST STOP!" I then ran out of my hotel room and ran down the hall.
"NOONA!" I heard Taemin yell. I didn't stop for him, I found the staircase and ran down the stairs as fast as I could. I just needed to get away. I got down five stories when I heard the guys chase after me they were yelling my name but I blocked it all out. I made it down to the ground floor and burst out of the fire exit door and my heart felt like it was going to explode, my legs were on fire and I just kept running. The cold winter air was no deterrent neither was the snow laden ground on my bare feet. I came across a park and my body couldn't run anymore. My legs gave out underneath me and I collapsed on the ground and just cried, distraught, broken.
I laid there for what seemed like hours. The snow began falling but I didn't care. I just wanted to die. I was shivering uncontrollably, hoping I would just pass out and fade into nothingness. Snowflakes fell, and soon they didn't even melt. Ice formed on my eyes lashes, and I stopped shivering. I felt the strong urge to sleep. My legs and arms no longer stung, they were in limbo between being on fire, and being completely numb.
I heard footsteps coming towards me, but I was completely exhausted to the point that I didn't even want to look up. The footsteps grew closer and closer. I heard my name being called but I didn't bother to answer. I was too cold, too exhausted to do anything.
"Noona! Noona!!!!"
I felt a scorching hot hand rub along my temple and side of my face. "She's freezing hyung..." Taemin said, his voice full of worry.
"I got her." Jinki picked me up and carried me into an awaiting van. "I got you noona, you'll be okay." I felt the overwhelming urge to close my eyes, so I did.
"We're going to have to pay for damages though. What are we going to tell Jin...how are we going to deal with this..."
"When is he due back?"
"In a half hour."
"Look, it's obvious we can't leave Crystal alone anymore and Jin will use any distraction to get her alone."
"I'll be more vigilant on my end." I heard Melody say. I slowly opened my eyes to find that I was in my own hotel room, in bed.
"I think it’s best to confront him publicly then behind closed doors. It'll be 'he said, she said'. I think we'll have a better chance if we confront him in a public setting then he can't get out of it." I just laid in the bed just soaking everything in. I was numb. Completely, fucking, numb. Void of feeling. I felt the bed dip behind me and the covers lift as another body slid in next to me. I felt a wet face nuzzle into my neck as an arm wrapped itself tightly around my waist. I heard Minho's cracking voice between a fit of tears.
"I'm so sorry Crystal. I failed you. I'm sorry I wasn't there to stop what happened..."
Jinki cut Minho off. "Minho, we all failed her. No more though. From this day forward, he won't hurt her anymore. There's six people here, you know she won't be left alone anymore."Jinki said. Tears started flowing down my face again. My whole body was sore and my skin burned from the exposure to the cold but I was so broken.
"Jagiya, are you awake?" I nodded. "Rest, please, I'm here." Minho said, as he soothingly stroked my head and continued holding me.
Just then, Jonghyun and Key came to give a status update on the room. They would move to the room next to mine until they could get an assessment of damages and pay them. They knew Jin would flip his shit when he found out what had transpired, but Jonghyun and Minho had fabricated a believable lie (which was they were rough housing and playing with a super bouncy ball and it got out of control) that the others would corroborate when Jin got back in tonight. Melody helped clean up the mess along with Minho and Key before checking up on me. By now, Jonghyun had taken Minho's place in bed with me and was soothingly rubbing my head since Minho was in the process of cleaning up.

Jonghyun was tasked to stay with me for the night. Jinki and Taemin told him that no matter what threat Jin threw at him he was not to leave me alone. Melody came back over after getting things in order with Minho and Jonghyun's old room and upon seeing everything was okay, and angers were under control, she decided to head back to her hotel for the night.

Sometime after Melody left, I had fallen asleep in Jonghyun's arms.
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