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Anywhere But Home	By : heartgrenade13 Category: Singers/Bands/Musicians > Green Day Views: 1604 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. I do not know the members of Green Day. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.

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~~NOTE*aren't you just so lucky??*-well,I just saw how long this is and realized just how bored I was without tv and only having video games and movies I've already seen a million times(some good ole ones like Pee-wees Big Adventure and Riding in VANS*yes vans* With Boys can get boring too after awhile)~~

ps-thanks to everyone who has reviewed and rated or even just read it and loathed it. thank you for letting me take over your emotions, even if it is just hate.

pss-I know you must hate these notes as well..I love having power!

~Fast forward four weeks~

I found myself always driving by the white picketed fence that imprisoned Amber. Everyday I had to catch some glimpse of her. Whether it was in the kitchen window while she was fixing her dinner because her mom always forgot about her or when she’d briskly walk over to the cheap diner she was a slave at.

She seemed to slip easily back into her everyday routine. Her parents never even noticed she got back, let alone left.

I couldn't go back to normal life. I became insanely obsessed with Amber. Every waking moment I thought about her. The intense emotions that drenched me brought me so many restless nights. The guilt, misery, pain, sorrow and love were all taking their toll on me.

I often found myself calling her house just to hear her sweet voice tell the unknown to her caller "hello". The strange sensation her voice gave me made almost all the pain disappear just as quickly as it came. Even if I wanted to respond back I wouldn't have been able to for I could never find my voice whenever I heard hers.

My fingers traced the outline of the phone stand. I had already called over five times and I had only been up for a half hour. I quickly pulled the phone up towards my ear and unsteadily dialed the number I knew now all too well.
"Hello?"

Her voice sent chills up my spine and miraculously I had the ability to respond.

"Hi" I squeaked out.
"May I ask whose calling?"

Oh my God she sounds so beautiful....

"Yeah"
"Umm...ok…who is this?"

I held my breath unsure of what to answer back with.

"Who am I kidding.." she grumbled "I know it's you Billie."
"No you don't"
"I do ok. I want to be you're friend."
"NO!"
"What?"
"I love you!"
"Billie-"
"Hang up and run to me!"

The tears started falling as I shouted in frustration and hung up the phone. Her voice rang in my ears and caused my chest to rise and fall quickly. I looked around at the empty house I was standing weakly in. I was all alone in more ways than one. “You should’ve let her be your friend, at least then you’d be able to be with her in some form..”

Amber stood across from the door that would lead her into the place where her heart belonged. She knew she was meant to be with Billie but something in her brain kept screaming at her, telling her it was just wrong. That was the man she looked up to when she was a mere baby. Even though she won’t admit it, he was the guy to get her into guys. She, just like most little girls, found boys icky and then she found the beauty in Billie Joe.

She contemplated what would happen if she went through with either of her options.

~Option 1

Amber pounded on the door while praying that it wasn’t too late to salvage the pieces of the heart she had shredded. Billie Joe answered without any feelings left in him. He was completely numb. He had to be numb to keep himself from getting hurt again.

“I’m sorry” Billie was quick to respond with “It’s ok. I don’t really care anymore”
“But I do.”
“It’s fine you can be my friend”

Amber leaned in close to him, knowing exactly what she was doing in the first time in her life, and kissed him. Billie pulled her inside and showed her just how much love he truly had for her.

Amber ran full speed out of the room that held the man she once adored and the woman that was more than willing to wreck a somewhat happy home.~

She shook that image out of her mind realizing that was a horrible option. She didn’t want to lose not only Billie but the memories she handled with precious care of the man who was proof that heroes do exist.

~Option 2

Amber gently tapped on the door wanting to scream to the skies above “What else could go wrong?” but not wanting to test the powers greater than hers…it can always get worse than it already is. Billie shouted through the door “I love you but do you love me?”

She could only exhale and wait for Billie to just give up on getting an answer and open the door.

“Answer me.”
“Open the door.”

Billie paused but eventually gave in and opened the door just like he was told to do. He was oddly optimistic but saw that he had failed again in life as soon as noticed the strained look on Ambers tear streaked face. His eyes stung and his soul cried but he refused to let her know that she had him wrapped around her delicate little finger.

“Look, I just don’t think we’d work as a couple.” Amber knew that only part of her believed that herself. She watched her beloved Billie struggle to keep himself together.

“We have too much of a past and it’s just weird I guess.”
“Fine.”

Billie slammed the door shut in one swift move. Amber just closed her eyes and imagined that what she just lived hadn’t really happened and was all just a nightmare that she could wake from yet still it would stick with her so she wouldn’t fuck up again.~

Luckily it was all just in her mind. Neither option was going to get her to the point she wanted to be at, contempt.

I stared out the peephole at the silhouette of Amber’s grace. I was waiting for her to knock on my door so I could wrap my arms around her and tell her that it was all going to be ok even if I wasn’t too sure of that myself.

The sun was out and the heat was blistering. I watched I single bead of sweat gracefully drip off of Amber’s collarbone. I bit my bottom lip and pushed myself closer to the door. “God does she need to knock on this door.”

Then she turned around and just drifted away out of my grasp once again. “No, please, please. Let this just be a nightmare. I’ll wake up with Amber sleeping peacefully in my arms.” I didn’t. I was just stuck standing there, alone, and it burned me knowing that it was all my fault.

I shuffled into my unorganized mess that I called a bedroom. That little bear Billie Joe kept catching me off guard and caused me breakdown in tears every time it was in my eyesight. That little children’s toy that used to only bring on smiles now brought on a wicked, stomach churning pain that one only feels when they truly love someone and then unwillingly have to give it all away.

I heard footsteps at high speeds coming towards my house. “Oh God don’t tease me again. I am going crazy. It’s all in your mind Billie. No one loves you so just get used to it.”

Amber pounded on the door while praying that it wasn’t too late to salvage the pieces of the heart she had shredded. I answered while trying to make myself numb. I didn’t want to hurt. I just couldn’t get hurt again.

“I’m sorry.”

I was quick to respond with “I love you. How can I stay mad at you?”

Amber’s eyes darted at me and pierced deeply into me. I swallowed hard fearing that she was upset that I had once again mentioned love when she had already made it clear that she didn’t love me anymore.

She then leaned in close to me, knowing that she was drawing me in with her eyes, and kissed me. All I could do was kiss her back. Our tongues danced with each other as my fingers did the same down her body. I pulled away before we could get into the same position we were in last time she was in my house.

“I think now would be a good time to reveal any secrets that could effect this in anyway. I’ll go first. Yes I knew who you were before I undressed you. I knew when I got to your house. I uh, just recently remembered telling Eggplant, kinda as a joke kinda not, when you were like five that you were going to grow up to be gorgeous and that I would be your first kiss and he said he gave me permission to do so.”

“He gave you permission?”
“Yeah, he said he’d rather me then some creep kiss you.”

Then Amber’s face fell and let me know that I ruined it all again. I looked up towards the ceiling to just soak in the last moment I’d ever spend with Amber. The fan hanging from the ceiling made noises that it never had before. I suppose it was laughing at me. The whole world had the right to just laugh in my pathetic face.

“Well, that leads me to my secrets.”

I gave all my attention to Amber knowing that no matter what she said I wouldn’t let it come in between us.

“I haven’t broken up with my boyfriend yet. I want to so badly but every time I try to something happens. I will though, I swear.”

The world was finally alright with me. It had thrown some hardballs at me but finally I had thrown one back. I was getting the girl I loved and I wouldn’t let anything life did stop me from loving this girl and being contempt with just really loving her. Even if I wasn’t with her, she’d still be mine.

“..and I kind of always liked you.”
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