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As I lay dying
By : Semichan
Category: Dir en grey > General
Views: 950 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. I do not know the members of Dir en grey. I do not make any money from the writing of this story. - Chapter List
†. Title : I wish it could be over [as I lay dying - part three]
†. Author : Semichan
†. Genre : Yaoi ,Songfic .
†. Pairing : /
†. A/N : The third part of "As I lay dying" so . This time there are not really lyrics, just random sentences that could be find in the Decemberunderground booklet . This is the shortest of the four parts, in Shinya's POV.
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They were perfect, they were beautiful.
They met in the middle of nowhere, in the middle of nothing, and kissed where everyone could see.
No words.
No before . No after.
They kissed and it was perfect . It was beautiful .
It was everything. It was nothing .
It surprised everybody in the band .
Die and Toshiya ? Really ?
You're kidding me !
They don't get along together . They never showed any interest in each other .
But yeah, they were perfect .
I couldn't deny it . I didn't like the idea, I don't like that . But still , they're beautiful .
But they just looked good . It was all just look . They were looking like a perfect couple . They weren't .
Absolutely not .
Not only it wasn't a sane relationship , but it wasn't a fair one either .
He didn't deserve such a lover .
He was far too different . Too nice .
That's what I would say when being with the others .
When I was alone I was clearly thinking other way .
He didn't deserve such a lover , yeah . But not because of that . He's not different , he just looks different .
He's not even pretty ... He's always wearing make up and so on . Toshiya isn't pretty . He isn't beautiful . He's just another bitch trying to convince the world he's not incredibly bitchy .
But he's so damn bitchy . And he acts like he's always the victim .
Die didn't deserve such a lover either .
Is there something I should know or have I just seen too much ?
But he didn't love me . Die didn't love me . And he will never do so .
I tried , but he preferred that bitch . I still don't know why . I spied on them so frequently … And they never knew . Even Die never knew .
I was so angry . But I couldn't hate him . I just hated Toshiya . I was jealous . And I probably still am. I can't understand how I fell jealous of that freaky, sordid relationship .
I was thinking I would like to have Die raping me too . But when Toshiya told me he accepted to be raped , I was totally disgusted . And so damn furious . I wanted to hit him .
Because I wanted to be him .
But somehow … as months went by , I started appreciating their relationship . It was so destructive it was making me laugh inside .
Toshiya … You are so stupid indeed .
You so don't know how things were going on . Die told me everything . Everyday he told me what he did to you , how you reacted , what you said .
He never had a reason to be angry with you . And you thought it was a punishment . You thought he was doing this to open your eyes . But he just wanted to play .
You never saw I always tried to break your relationship . You always nodded and said I was probably right . Though you never thought it a single second .
You just thought you were right .
Because of you, we disbanded . He said you were acting like you were captive . But he never told you not to get out of the room and come to practice . You just didn't come .
Because of you I lost my friends . I lost Kyo, I lost Kaoru, I lost Die, and I lost you . You thought I didn't like you , but I did like you . There was a time I used to like you, it just faded day by day. Little by little . And you never understood why .
Because of you I also lost my job . My band . My fans . It destroyed my life . You destroyed my life .
I hope the reason why I haven't seen you in 8 months is a good one .
I wish I could find you dead on that bed you're resting on every day as he said .
I wish it could all end . Eventually .
We were once together , now I'm simply surrounded ...
†. End of part #3
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