Angel's Shock

Angel's Shock chapter 4


 The following is a work of total fiction. I have never met Darren or Daniel and like everyone else apart from them and their partners I do not know their true sexual preferences. I do not mean any disrespect or harm to either of them.
 
 
Meanwhile Angel was moving into a bedsit in town. It was pretty grotty but it would do for now. Later she had an appointment to keep. She arrived on time for her appointment at the pregnancy advisory centre and went inside.
 
"Hi, I'm Angel I have an appointment with Ms Morison?"
 
"Ok take a seat she'll be right with you," said the receptionist.
 
A few moments later the door opened.
 
"Angel? I'm Nancy Morison, would you like to come through."
 
Angel followed her through the door.
 
"Please take a seat, Angel. It's obvious why you're here, what is the situation with you? You're obviously quite upset about being pregnant, how does your partner feel about it?"
 
"It's not really being pregnant that's upsetting me. I only found out yesterday for sure. I was really happy about it I couldn't wait to tell my fiancé, I know he would have been totally rapt. We were getting married in a couple of months, I was going to stop taking the pill and we were going to try for a baby anyway, so the baby wasn't a problem. Now it is, I don't think I can go through with it now, not alone."
 
"So what has happened to change the situation? Did something happen to your fiancé?"
 
Angel sat in silence, crying, not knowing where to begin.
 
"It's ok you don't have to tell me anything if you don't want to."
 
"I caught him in bed with someone else."
 
"I see. Is it serious? Or was it just a one off? Is there any chance of you forgiving him?"
 
"It was the first I knew of it but apparently it's been going on for six months and they are in love. He says he still loves me, he doesn't want to lose me. He wants us both, expects me to share him. I can't do that, especially with a baby on the way. It's not fair on me and it certainly wouldn't be fair on the baby."
 
"No, of course it wouldn't. He's being quite selfish expecting you to share him with another woman, and not very respectful to you."
 
"If only it was that simple!"
 
"What do you mean?"
 
"It wasn't a woman, it was a man! His best friend."
 
"I see. Well that does put a whole new light on things. I can understand you being upset by that. It must have come as quite a shock to you, especially catching them at it. So did you not have any suspicions at all about them?"
 
"None at all. They both seemed totally straight. We were together since we were fifteen, he adored me, and I adored him. He was my first and only lover and, until six months ago, I was his first and only. We learned everything together. Or so I thought but obviously he's been learning a few new tricks with his best friend. I heard him first and it was obvious he was having sex with someone. I almost passed out on the spot when I saw who he was with. I can't get the image out of my head of what they were doing. His mate was inside him and tossing him off with his hand. I think they had both just come as I walked in on them. I was so shocked I couldn't move, when I could I just ran to the bathroom and threw up and cried. I couldn't believe what I'd seen. They were shocked to see me."
 
"Was he not expecting you? I take it this happened in your home if you were able to walk in on them?"
 
"I'd been away visiting some friends for a few days. Yesterday I found out about the baby and I couldn't wait to tell him so I decided to surprise him by coming back early so I could tell him. I was so excited until I walked in on them and saw what they were doing. I will never forget that sight as long as I live. I can't forgive him for deceiving me like that. I don't know if I can face having this baby without him."
 
"Well that's what we're here for to help you come to a decision. But it has to be your decision, I can only advise I can't decide for you."
 
"I wish someone could tell me what to do because I sure as hell don't know what I should do. Everything was supposed to be perfect and then I walk in on them like that and it's all over. I'm on my own and I'm carrying his child. I don't think I can face an abortion but can I raise the baby alone?"
 
"There are other options if you really can't face keeping the baby or having a termination. There are plenty of childless couples who would love to adopt the baby, but would you really have to be alone? I know you say you can't forgive him but he could still help you with the child, he could still be involved. Do you think he would want to help you even if you didn't stay together as a couple?"
 
"I'm sure he would. He's a nice guy, he wouldn't want to abandon me but he may see it as a chance to get me to change my mind and get back with him. I couldn't take him back after seeing him like that. Also would it be fair on the child to have a gay father? To know the reason its daddy isn't with us is because he's with his boyfriend? No I think it would be better all round if he never knows about the baby."
 
"Are you prejudiced against gay people?"
 
"No, absolutely not! I have a couple of gay friends; I don't have a problem with it. I'm one of the most tolerant people you could meet. That's not why I feel this way. I just don't want my partner, the father of my baby to be gay that's all. I'm straight, I want my partner to be straight, I don't think it's too much to ask. Do you?"
 
"No, of course not but you have this baby to consider. If there's any chance of you working this out maybe you should try. Has he ever cheated on you before?"
 
"Not that I know of, but hey he's kept this quiet for six months maybe I'm too dumb to notice that he's cheating on me. Or he's too clever. No, I don't think he has, he can't have. Surely I would have noticed. He said it was only Daniel. He loved me, he says he still loves me. But he loves him too. I want to be his only partner I don't want to share him."
 
"Would he give him up for you? If he did would you consider trying again with him?"
 
"I don't know, would I want him to? He'd resent me if I asked him to choose and he chose me. Obviously Daniel is prepared to share him, he's been doing so all these months. Maybe he loves Daniel more and he only wanted me for what he can't get from him. The one thing Danny can't give him is a child and he really wants kids. Maybe that's all he wants me for?"
 
"Well, you are having his child. If you tell him, it could be the deciding factor in whether he chooses you or him. Why don't you go home and tell him? Then you can decide together what to do about the baby."
 
"No, I don't want him being with me because of the baby. Especially as it will only be because Daniel can't give him a baby. I want him to be with me because he loves me more than him, but he doesn't."
 
"It has to be your choice but in my opinion I really think you should tell him. It's his child too. He has a right to know. Has he ever treated you badly? Abused you in any way? Or is this the only bad thing he's done? We're all allowed one mistake you know."
 
"No, he's always treated me like I'm really special. He's never even raised his voice to me, much less his hand. This is the first time he's ever hurt me. Do you think I should forgive him?"
 
"Only you can decide that Angel, but for what it's worth I think it sounds like you have a really special relationship with this man of yours. It would be a real shame to throw it all away. Talk to him, see if he will give this man up for you."
 
"How will I know he will stay away from him? They work together if I ask him to stay away from him he will have to give up their career; I can't do that to him. And how will I know if he's with me for the right reasons instead of just being with me because of the baby?"
 
"You don't need to tell him about the baby right away, see how he feels about giving this man up. If he's prepared to do that for you then you can tell him about the baby."
 
"I am so confused, I don't know what to do. I love him so much; we've been through so much together. I really don't want to lose him but I don't know if I can forgive him, even if he is prepared to give Daniel up for me."
 
"Why don't you go home and think about it? You can come back here any time if you need to talk more about it before you make a decision."
 
"Yeah, I think I will do that. Thank you for listening to me. This is all confidential, right? You won't tell anyone what I've said?"
 
"Nothing goes out of this room. It's all 100% confidential. You will let me know what you decide?"
 
"Yeah, thanks again. Bye now."
 
"Bye Angel, take care."
 
Angel left the advice centre and went back to the bedsit.