Gotta knock a little harder
Chapter 5.
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I’ve never cried in my life. Not ever. Never shed a single tear. I would like to know how it feels. What does it feel like when those rivers of water go down on your cheeks? Does it feel nice? I don’t think so, because people always cry when they are unhappy. I don’t wanna be unhappy. Though some people say that crying is releasing. And then there’s also these people who cry when they are happy. I’ve never been happy. I wonder, how it feels. Though I’ve never been happy, it doesn’t mean that my life would have been somehow miserable, no. I just haven’t ever felt that certain feeling. Or maybe I did, before my daddy laid his hand on me. Before he ever had touched me. But that’s so long ago that I can’t remember what it feels like. Now I’m feeling very hopeful and kind of excited. I wonder, what it’s gonna be like tomorrow at Gackts apartment.
He really took my invitation! I can not believe it! this is just awesome. Thank you Kami for making me do this!!! I luv you so much, as a friend, though. So he’s coming tomorrow… this is just wicked. What is it gonna be like? Will I be able to say him, what I’m supposed to? What am I supposed to say to him? Gosh! This is just wearing me out, I mean… I’m not gonna manage from tomorrow. And how am I supposed to be able to sleep? This is just impossible. What if he just brakes his promise, and doesn’t come? What shall I do then? God! I gotta stop thinking like
this! I need to go to sleep, it’s two o’ clock am. And I should get up early tomorrow, gotta get myself ready for him.
Sound of a ringing phone woke Gackt up from his thoughts. He picked the phone up, still deep in his thoughts
-Yea?
-Hi Gackt, it's me...
-Oh, hey, Kami!
-So is he gonna come tomorrow?
-Huh?
-Is Mana coming tomorrow?
-How did you know??
-Hey, you are my closest friend after all, aren’t you? I just knew that you were gonna do it today... you were so distracted at the rehearsal and everything. So... is he coming?
-Oh, yes...
-What! Are you saying that he really said yes??
-Am I really that unattractive?
-No, you know that I didn’t mean that! You know what I meant...
-Yes, I know. I was quite shocked myself when he said yes.
-So what are you going to do tomorrow?
-Umm... well... we are gone make some food and maybe rent some movie or something like that. Argghh! Kami! You got to help me! I don’t have a clue, what should I do. What should I say to him... oh, I don’t know...
-Don’t worry, everything’s gonna be all right. It’s gonna go fine, you know that. Just relax Gackt. Anyway, you should be going to sleep now. Big day tomorrow...
-You’re right, I’d better be going to sleep now. See you on Monday. Bye
-Bye and good luck, Kami said with kind of a depressed voice.
Deep inside Kami was very unhappy, because Gackt was going to see Mana tomorrow. Kami had always liked Gackt, more than in a state of a friend. He just never couldn’t tell that to Gackt. On the other hand, he was really happy for Gackt. this was like a dream come true to Gackt
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