The beginning of the end

Hey!!! *waves nervously* I wanna apologize first off for taking so damn long to update! i had total writers block with this one so i decided to just forget about it and move on, but it wont let me go!!! I've recently had a brainwave on where this is gonna go so hopefully the updates should be a bit more frequent now!! but i am writing two other fics as well as this one so we shall see!!!


Ville and Mige snuck out of the house the next morning to avoid having to stop and talk to Ville's parents. They knew about their son's sexuality and didn't mind, in fact they adored Mige and was glad Ville had found someone to love, but they were over-protective as all parents are, and they wouldn't have been too thrilled to find they'd slept in the same bed.

They reached school five minutes late due to the fact that Mige had pushed Ville into an alleyway half way there and proceeded to show him several uses for his tongue. They went their separate ways as soon as they entered the building, each heading for their first class of the day.

By the end of school, Ville had decided that he was having a great day. He was back with his boyfriend, Bam had been nowhere to be found all day, he'd got an A* on his English essay and he'd managed to get out of gym class by faking a sprained ankle.

He met Mige, Gas, Linde and Burton at the school gates and they started walking home, Mige pulling Ville behind everyone else so they could walk hand in hand. They were so engrossed with each other that they never noticed they'd reached the road where they all had to go different ways.

"Aah, look who's back together!" teased Gas, looking at their clasped hands, and Ville smiled shyly and blushed as their friends teased them.

"Alright, knock it off" grinned Mige. They all exchanged goodbyes and promises to chat online that night before heading off to their homes, Ville waiting a bit longer to say goodbye to Mige without the teasing of their friends.

"Did you wanna come round mine? I don't think anyone's gonna be there, we could hang out for a while if you liked." Mige suggested.

"I can't. I'd love to but my parents are complaining that they never see me and Jesse any more so we're being forced to have a family dinner. It sucks but I can't get out of it without really pissing them off.

"It's ok, maybe tomorrow." Mige pulled him closer and Ville allowed himself to be drawn into a sensual kiss that broke only when breathing was neccessary.

"Definately tomorrow." Ville breathed.

Mige chuckled and pulled away causing the smaller boy to whimper in protest. "You have to go home before your parents get really annoyed. I'll talk to you later tonight I promise."

"Ok, I'll see you later. I love you."

"Love you too Ville."

Ville watched Mige walk away until he could no longer see him, before starting his own journey home. He sighed happily to himself as he walked through the park. It was a beautiful place and he always went there when he needed time to think and be by himself.

He started to walk down the gravel path by the river that was almost hidden from view and he'd found one day by accident. An arm suddenly wrapped around him from behind and he smiled to himself. *I can't believe Mige decided to walk with me, that's so sweet of him!*

His smile vanished though as an all too familiar voice whispered in his ear "hello lover."

Ville felt his blood turn to ice as he found himself being turned around to face Bam.

"Ya know, I love this park. It's so quiet and hardly anyone comes here, I don't know why cos it's beautiful." Bam said conversationally, or it would have been if he weren't holding on to Ville's arm hard enough to leave bruises.

"W...what do you want?" Ville stuttered, trying to sound brave but failing miserably.

"You." that was all the warning Ville got before he found himself on his back in the gravel with Bam straddling him.

his lips latched onto Ville's neck in a violent mockery of a kiss as his hands roamed over his body. He tore off Ville's clothes quickly, carelessly throwing them to the side. The weight on him shifted, and Bam used his knees to force Ville's thighs apart.

"No! Oh god, please, not again.." Ville sobbed, bucking his hips, trying to knock Bam off him. One of Bam's hands let go of him, but he was strong enough to keep him in place with just one.

He guided his cock to Ville's ass and thrust in fully with one motion.

Bam used his free hand to cover Ville's mouth as he screamed at the invasion, trying to pull away from him. Ville squeezed his eyes shut, willing himself not to cry, in his happiness at being back with Mige he'd started to forget about Bam. His body was shaking with the force of Bam's thrusts and he felt like he was being ripped into pieces. The hardness pounding into him was breaking him and sharp pieces of gravel were digging into his skin and he knew some would leave scars.

Bam grabbed Ville's hair and pulled hard, almost twisting his neck in the process. He licked and kissed his neck, finally biting down managing to break the skin and draw blood at once. Ville moaned as a sucking sensation on his neck suddenly teased him into a slight arousal. Bam grunted and threw his head back, his grip on Ville's hips tightening as he came, pumping harder and faster into his ass.

He pulled out roughly, hauling Ville into a sitting position when the younger boy refused to move. Innocent green eyes looked up at him with a mixture of fear and loathing and it just made Bam angrier. In a fit of rage that was directed at himself almost as much as Ville, Bam let his fist fly, hitting the boy directly in the face and feeling a sadistic sense of satisfaction when he saw blood start to trickle from Ville's nose.

"You little whore." He spat. "I saw you with your fag boyfriend today, all over each other in the middle of the street. Don't think that this means I'll give you up, because it doesn't."

His expression became softer and almost regretful as he watched unwanted tears start to slide down Ville's face. "I never wanted to do this to you Ville. All you had to do was love me back and none of this would have happened. I would have made you happy if you'd have chosen me, you know I would."

Ville nodded frantically. "I know, I believe you but I love Mige. If you hadn't hurt me like that I might have ended up with you instead of getting back with Mige." He confessed.

"You turned me down, you never wanted to be with me." Bam argued.

"I didn't turn you down, I asked you to wait for a couple of days while I started to try and get over Mige dumping me."

Realization swept over Bam and made him feel sick. "So I fucked up getting to be with you because my anger took control of me."

Ville nodded nervously, wincing when any movement caused his body to scream in agony. "Bam, you need to get help. I think you need to talk to a shrink or something."

"Are you kidding me? If I do that then they'll lock me up."

"No they won't. They can't unless I agree to testify and I won't if you promise to get professional help."

"Don't treat me like I'm a fucking idiot." Bam spat, his anger coming back slightly. "As soon as I tell someone why I need a shrink, they're gonna lock me away in an insitute until they think I'm 'better' and I'm allowed into the world again."

"Yeah they will. I'm not gonna pretend that they won't because we both know it will be a lie but it'll help you. You keep saying that you love me and I believe you but you ruined your chance with me because of whatever it is that makes you this way, you need to fix it before you end up in an even worse place than an institute."

Bam sighed heavily and glared down at Ville as if it were his fault, as he thought about what to do. Finally he grudgingly admitted defeat. "Fine. I will but only on the conditions that you come and visit me every week and that you just consider being with me when I'm better and back out again."

Ville wanted to say no. He wanted to get as far away from Bam as possible and stay there but he knew if he denied Bam's request, Bam would refuse to be treated and things would just stay as they were.

"I promise." He said shakily, nodding his head for emphasis.

"Ok, I'll do it but only for as long as you keep your end of the deal. Come on, I'll help you home." Bam helped him back into his pants and jacket, his shirt too badly torn to be wearable. As Bam helped him up, an almost protective arm around his waist, Ville contemplated how fucked up his life was.

He allowed Bam to help him part of the way as his entire body was in complete pain and he was having trouble walking, but the more he felt Bam's arm around him and his body against his own, the worse he felt. Gently pushing Bam's arm away, he took a few shaky steps forward.

"I'm ok, I don't need help getting home, just promise me that you'll do what you agreed, and find a place that can help you."

Bam nodded, relieved that he wouldn't have to walk Ville home. It was the first time he'd felt guilty about what he was doing and he wasn't sure how to deal with it especially as the young boy was still being his usual sweet self and not running straight to the police like anyone else would have.

"I'll call you and let you know where I'll be when I've found somewhere."

Ville just smiled slighty, feeling dizzy and weak but not wanting Bam to know how badly he was hurt. All he really wanted was to get home, have a long bath, clean his wounds and sleep until all the pain, physical and emotional, was gone.

He waited silently until Bam turned and walked away, not daring to breathe properly until he was positive that he was alone in the park. It was then that he started to stumble home.

Every step he took made him cry out in pain and his face was throbbing where Bam had punched him. He was determined not to give in and cry like he wanted to so he kept his thoughts trained on Mige; his smile, how gentle he was with him, his love for him.

His pace became slower and slower as the burning pain became worse and darkness started to cloud his vision. He fought it off for as long as he could until, by the gates of his favourite park, he collapsed, unconsciousness finally claiming him.


please review and let me know whether it is worth me continuing or if it's dead now!! thank you!