Endless Rain | By : Kimigurl Category: J-Rock/J-Pop & K-Pop > S.K.I.N. Views: 1690 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0 |
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. I do not know the members of S.K.I.N or Dir en Grey. I do not make any money from the writing of this story. |
AN: So last chapter we got a smile from Kaiora after she saw yoshiki playing her favorite song on the piano. Is it possible for us to get something more from her?
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Chapter 5
Laugh
She opened her eyes, and there he was. Staring at her with the same warm brown eyes he’d always stared at her with. She closed her eyes, and still those eyes stared at her. “Why are you crying?” he asked with a smile.
She stared at him “I’m sad” she said.
His smile widened “Why are you sad?”
As she felt the pain of loneliness sting her she felt her eyes begin to water “Because I’ve lost someone.”
“Who?”
“A boy?”
“A boy? He must’ve been kind.”
“A man.”
“A man? He must’ve been handsome.”
“A friend.”
“A friend? He must’ve been fun.”
“A brother.”
“A brother? He must have loved you.”
“You.”
“Me?” The smile dropped from his face and disappeared from his eyes “I’m the one you lost?”
She nodded.
“I’m the reason you’re crying?’
She nodded
“I’m the reason you’re sad?”
She nodded.
His eyes filled with sympathy.
“I’m sorry” he said with guilt “I’m sorry that my memory. That my smile brings you such pain.”
She looked to him with desperate eyes “Why did you leave?” she demanded in anger “Why did you leave me? Why did you go? Why didn’t you take me with you!”
Again his eyes filled with guilt “Sometimes bad things happen. Sometimes, you can’t do anything about them. Sometimes you’re not meant to.”
“That’s no excuse!”
He shook his head and closed his eyes “That is no excuse. I have no excuse. But understand” his hand reached for her “that I did not mean to bring you such pain. The memories I left were meant to look back and smile on. Not to look back and cry over.”
She reached for his hand but he was pulled away, and as she ran to catch him she felt him slipping further and further away. “Forget about me Kaiora” he said “Forget and live your life in happiness and peace.”
“I don’t want to forget” she screamed as tears streaked her face “I don’t want to forget you. I want you back! Please come back!”
His voice was weak as it faded into the darkness “Forget me. Live happy.”
Her eyes shot open with a sob as tears continued to flood her eyes, she attempted to control herself but found it useless as the pain in her hearts grew and grew as she felt him fade further and further from her.
She rolled onto her side feeling her heart pound in her chest, she then saw Jo lying beside her sleeping peacefully and felt the pain grow. The truth of the matter was that she was taking her friends down her road of pain and darkness. She only realized it the night before when Angel and Annette were trying to convince Jo and Minami to go to the concert. Neither wanted to go because of her. Because of her. She was holding them back from something they’d looked forward to since S.K.I.N was announced the year before. She was holding them back from being happy themselves. Reaching over she grabbed onto the tranquilizers staring at them she felt a sort of sickness enter her.
Here she was on tour with the four greatest musicians to come out of Japan and she couldn’t even remember meeting them. Her mind was one big cloud since she found out about Corrin’s death. And through it there were vague images and thoughts, she saw four men staring at her through a crowd, four beautiful men staring at her with shock, and almost...fear in their eyes. She heard her voice “I’m sorry” it said.
Was she sorry? Was she sorry for all that she caused? Was she sorry for the pain she was bringing others though her own?”
What happened?”
What happened to her?
She remembered a time when she would laugh, and smile, and run, and jump. She remembered a time when she would joke, and yell, and have fun. She remembered a time when she was happy. Happy. She’d forgotten tat word, and now for the life of her she couldn’t remember what it meant...or how it felt.
How did if feel to be happy?
Another image accompanied by a beautiful tune reached out to her through the fog of pain. A beautiful image, an image of a man. A man with blond hair, a man sitting at a piano, a man playing the piano, and the turn that accompanied this man, that beautiful music brought with a feeling, a want, a need that she thought once that she would never feel again. Was that happiness? Was that a vague idea of what happiness felt like.
She remembered.
She remembered now.
She remembered getting up.
She remembered walking out of the room.
She remembered walking towards the elevator.
She remembered walking out of the elevator.
She remembered hearing that music begin.
She remembered that tune.
She remembered walking into the bar.
She remembered walking towards the stage.
She remembered him.
She remembered him sitting there.
She remembered him playing.
She remembered watching.
She remembered listening.
She remembered.
She remembered...
She remembered...
Smiling.
She was smiling.
A smile.
When was the last time she smiled before then?
That, she didn’t remember. But she remembered, through the fog that smile and the reason for it seemed to cement in her mind. She looked down at the pills in her hand.
These would create the fog, but at the same time they lessened the pain. They made the pain...bearable.
She reached down and picked up one. Then she tossed the other under the bed. She took one pill and swallowed it. This would not make her forget. She would remember from now on. She would remember that smile, and she would remember that man.
That man.
“Yoshiki.”
“Is everything ready?” Jo asked “do you have your things packed? Where’s Kaiora’s medical bag? Did you remember your toothbrush and paste? Did you search through al the drawers in case you left anything? Did you...”
“Look Ronin” Angel spoke up “We’ve checked our rooms a couple hundred times, and you’ve swept over both rooms with an iron will...nothing...was...left. Now get on the bus so we can get going.”
It had been two days since the beginning of the tour and everyone was running in a fury as they prepared to move to the next city. The five girls were standing with Jo attempting to direct them where to go and what to do, however her four friends just stared at Jo blankly before they had begun to get irritated “Sit back and relax, everything’s going to be fine” Annette told her high strung friend.
Jo nodded “I just want to...you know...oh never mind!”
She threw her hands in the air before folding them over her chest loudly and her bottom lip stuck out. The other’s rolled her eyes at their friends pouting.
Ronin walked up “Okay, is everything ready?” he asked.
The girls turned towards Jo who stared at Ronin for several seconds “yes” she said between clenched teeth.
Ronin seemed surprised at he reply. He quickly checked his board then nodded and hurried off. “Man, subjected to Jo’s look of death” Minami laughed “I feel pity for that man.”
Jo turned with murder in her eyes and Minami only laughed harder “Not a morning person Jojo?”
Jo rolled her eyes at her friend before turning. Miyavi’s face was inches from hers, she cried out and jumped into Annette. The girls laughed “You didn’t hear him walk up?” Annette asked.
“You didn’t smell his cologne” Angel added.
Miyavi’s smile faltered. He lifted his jacket and smelt himself “Small explosion” he explained.
“Isn’t that what you always say?” Gackt asked walking by “Morning ladies” he bowed.
The girls blushed and smiled as he walked by “Morning Gackt” all four said in sync.
They turned to see Miyavi standing with a look that said ‘nothing for me?’ Angel then dove into him “Morning Miyavi!” she said with a kiss on the cheek “Don’t worry, we love you too!”
Miyavi smiled appeared once again and widened when the others repeated the action of their friend. They all parted and laughed. Miyavi looked up at Kaiora. His eyes then bulged from his head.
Kaiora stood looking at him with a gentle look and a small smile on her lips “Good morning Miyavi” she greeted.
Everyone stopped, the girls froze as they stared at their friend smile for the first time in three long months. No one moved or what seemed like hours before Miyavi smiled widely. He walked over and wrapped his arms gently around Kaiora “Good morning Kaiora” he said softly.
A flash set off and both turned to Angel standing there with a camera, she lowered it with tears in her eyes “It’s beautiful Kaiora” she said to her friend “Your smile. I wanted to get a shot of it.”
Kaiora nodded.
Yoshiki and Sugizo suddenly walked up “Looks like you didn’t get much sleep” Angel said looking at Yoshiki’s somewhat frazzled form.
Yoshiki nodded over a frozen yawn. The girls smiled “Good morning, Yoshiki.”
All turned once again to see Kaiora staring at Yoshiki with a small smile. Yoshiki froze mid yawn and stared at the young girl for several seconds, he then nodded “Good morning Kaiora” he said with a smile.
She then turned to Sugizo “Good morning Sugizo.”
Sugizo smiled warmly “Good morning Kaiora. You have a beautiful smile.”
She nodded “Thank-you.”
She then turned and walked towards their bus.
Minami ran after her “Wait up!” she called.
They all turned to one another.
“When did she start smiling?” Sugizo asked remembering the shell she’d been since they’d met her. The girls seemed to be bursting to scream, it was Angel who broke first though. Ignoring Sugizo’s question she started jumping up and down, “Can you believe this! It’s been three days and she’s smiling! She’s smiling! I’m mean it’s a small smile, but a smile nonetheless!”
The others started jumping up and down and Miyavi drawing energy from them started jumping up and down himself “She’s smiling!” he yelled.
The six standing there seemed to celebrate the small, yet large turn of events. Jo stopped “Something must have happened. What could have happened?”
“Don’t question it for now” Annette stopped and told her “If she continues to get better like this she’ll be her normal self before long. Then we can ask what happened. Just be happy for now!”
Jo smiled.
The ride to the next city, everyone had to admit was much lighter. It was as if the cloud had lightened just a bit and that caused a world of difference. Halfway they stopped for a brief break and when everyone gathered on the busses, the girls driver found they were nowhere to be found, but stopped panicking when Ronin informed him that they were found on the S.K.I.N bus.
An energy had seemed to form around the bus as the people on board radiated with energy. Gackt, Annette, Yoshiki, Jo, Kaiora, and Miyavi watched as Angel, Miyavi, and Minami bounced from one side of the bus to the other. Eventually they began to give in as Gackt playfully began to run after Miyavi who avoided grip several times by several centimetres. But when Miyavi grabbed Angel’s hat and began to throw it between himself and Minami, she joined Gackt’s team and tackled the guitarist.
Even Sugizo seemed to feel the energy as he jumped up and the five began to tumble around the floor. “Hey watch out!” Jo yelled as a foot almost struck Kaiora who was staring down at the floor as if watching a birdbath.
Yoshiki laughed as Sugizo put Miyavi in a headlock. The girls immediately dove in and began a tickle torture. Annette then grabbed Minami and Gackt began the same torture. By the end both Miyavi and Minami were begging for mercy.
After the excitement and all parties had called a truce they sat and talked for several hours. All five girls could never have dreamed a year ago they would be sitting on the bus of S.K.I.N talking so casually and informally to all four members. Never had they dreamed that they would laugh and joke and find themselves having such a good time. And certainly with the events of the past three months, never had four of the girls imagined sitting with their friend as her face held a gentle smile throughout the conversation even though she had nothing much to say.
They talked about music, about touring, about movies. They talked about friends, about family about loved ones. They talked about love, about marriage, about children. They talked about weather, and the scenery. They talked about almost everything.
However there was one subject that was no one brought up. Although the boys did wish to they knew it was too soon to speak of such things. Especially when they looked at Kaiora and saw the smile she was giving them, they were afraid to take that smile from her.
And so they strayed and every time it was almost brought up the subject was changed abruptly.
They arrived at the city late. They were quickly escorted inside past fans that’d heard of their arrival, and the girls were asked to stay on the bus as it was parked in the pack and they were escorted inside. Had five girls exited the bus of the biggest musical names of Japan the rumour mill along just might kill them. The girls were joking about it with the boys later over dinner.
“Yeah, I can imagine going on a board and seeing the title ‘Gackt exits bus with girl while both seemed to have dressed in a hurry!’” Jo joked “and the entire board would go on saying how they’d like the kill the ‘succubus’ who seduced Gackt.”
“Poor Gackt would end up being the victim” Annette laughed.
“Why am I the subject here?” Gackt asked.
“Because you’re the prettiest” Annette replid.
Angel started laughing harder “Yeah, next thing it won’t even be any of us that he got off with, it’ll be Miyavi!”
The boys didn’t seem to get the joke but the girls found themselves holding their stomachs with laughter.
The subject changed to scheduled and interviews as the next few days were outlined for the girls. Afterward they decided to get some sleep. Everyone stood an were preparing to leave, suddenly Miyavi turned to leave but his pants were caught on the table cloth, as he quickly turned to detangle himself he lost his balance, he then grabbed onto Sugizo to try balance himself, but as Sugizo was in mid-stand his ankle slipped and the two fell backwards, the cloth went with them and somehow a bowl of rice went flying into the air.
The girls backed away but the boys were not so lucky as the rice fell on Gackt’s head and the bowl hit Yoshiki in the chest leaving a large stain. Looking at the scene before them no one made a move. Sugizo and Miyavi were tangled in cloth, silverware and food. While Yoshiki was staring down at his ruined shirt, and Gackt stood looking extremely perturbed with rice covering him.
There was a sound.
Everyone then turned to see Kaiora holding her stomach, her shoulders were shaking and she was leaning down. Concerned Jo placed her hand on Kaiora’s back “Kaiora...are you okay?” she asked.
Kaiora straightened and let out a loud laugh as she once again viewed the scene before her. Her laugh rang through the room and across the eight stunned people in front of her “That was classic!” she laughed “Did you see Sugizo’s face as they were going down?”
While her laugh and her voice weren’t that strong it still seemed to echo. Another laugh, and this time everyone turned to see Minami laughing “I’m sorry” she said holding up her hand “But it is really funny! I mean you tow looked like you were just waiting for those to hit you! And Miyavi! Can’t you go anywhere without causing some kind of collision!”
Now all the girls were laughing at the boys who were looking on shamefully. But it was Gackt who started laughing out of the four of them, shaking his head and started to brush himself off “I couldn’t agree with you more Minami” he said.
It started a chain reaction as everyone began laughing. However even over the others it seemed that Kaiora’s laugh was the one that everyone seemed to hear. It rang in their ears as the song of a bird would, an they all hoped to hear it again.
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AN: Come on! It had to be Miyavi to make her laugh! he's so cute! And he's such an idiot...in my story anyway. I'm continuing to type the story so let's hope that I'll have more tonight...and personally there's a scene coming up that I'm really excited for...I dont know why though.
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