A Step Closer To Hell Book 2

Spencer’s Secret

I have this Secret, which is eating away at me. I can’t let Ryan know, he trusts me.
All I can do is go on comforting him, so he doesn’t freak out and try to run away.

Every time I touch him, I want to be in control so badly. He thinks I am his savior.
I tell myself, when we get back to Las Vegas, I will show my true colors. Brendon called today.
He knows, and wants to make a deal with me. I thought of a way of doing it, I keep a notebook for song ideas and stuff.

I take out my notebook and write this. My confession I write backwards in case Ryan sees it:

I am a moD. I feel better, God, don’t let me burn in hell for this. Ryan Should be coming along so I close my notebook. Ryan comes in and sits down, smiles at me. I want to tear him apart. I need to have control of myself. I can’t wait to see Brendon, only then will I be able to validate myself. Ryan hasn’t a clue of what’s in store for him.

He’ll get a bigger surprise, when he see’s Jon. Oh yes Jon wants in too, but we are going to do this slowly. Ryan doesn’t have a prayer, when the four of us are reunited.