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I'll save you from yourself	By : PunkyEmoFreak Category: Singers/Bands/Musicians > Tokio Hotel Views: 2244 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. I do not know the members of Tokio Hotel. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.

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|| Tom’s POV ||

I continued to stare where Bill had been lying after Lacy took him from the room. I was so confused, I couldn’t decide whether or not I was grateful that Lacy took him away, or pissed at her. I knew I should be grateful, any other time I would have been grateful. But some part of me wanted Bill to still be lying in that bed across from mine. Part of me wanted to keep watching him do absolutely nothing.

And the other part of me knew that was an absolutely insane thing to want. Bill Trumper was going to be the death of me, he was confusing more then anyone had ever before in my whole life, I don’t get what was so different about him compared to anyone else I know. He’s more annoying then anyone I know, but when he’s not acting like a total selfish diva slut, he’s actually pretty okay to be around. Actually, when he wasn’t acting like that, he reminded me a lot of Alexia. That should be what wants me to get away from him even more, I didn’t want to remember Alexia. But because of him, I did.

I finally fell asleep only about twenty minutes after he had gone, and I swear, I am never going to sleep again. I usually don’t dream, and when I do- it’s just a jumble of shit that really doesn’t mean anything at all. Like I once dreamed I was hugging a penguin… I’ve never even seen a penguin in person before.

But once I fell asleep this time, all my dreams were just old memories. And pretty much all of them having to do with Alexia in some way. Fuck, if I ever see her again, I’m running in the other direction so she can’t even tell it’s me.

Some of the dreams were a little fucked though, they weren’t exactly memories, though Alexia was in them- Bill was too. Alexia and I were sitting on the couch watching some Care Bears movie she just had to see, but Bill was there too. Sitting Indian style on the other side of the red headed girl. They were sitting the same way. Their hands moved to the bowl of popcorn between them at the same time. They giggled identically at the same parts. It was like they were the same person.

Bill reminded me of Alexia. When I woke up, everything slowly put itself together in my mind, I hated Bill so much the second I saw him because in the back of my mind, he was just like the girl that I hated so much. But just like she had- Bill was breaking through my cold shell. Only, I’m older now and different then I was then, so it was harder for him to do. But now it made sense why I couldn’t hit him. I couldn’t hit Alexia either, even if she was next to me trying to hug me again, I wouldn’t be able to hit her.

“Good morning, Tom.” I heard Bill’s voice sound so sweet to me and the lopsided grin he wore just confused the hell out of me even more then usual. I just looked at him blankly for a moment before I pushed my covers off of me and stood up, stretching out my tight limbs. Wait… morning? How long was I out? I looked at the clock and sure enough the bright red numbers read six-forty five with the tiny AM next to them. Holy fuck, maybe I really was sick.

“There’s a new kid in our group class, she’s taken over your spot and Lacy asked me to show her around this morning. So I’ll meet you in homework later.” He told me, turning back to the dirty mirror and checking to make sure his make-up was absolutely perfect. I don’t care that he wasn’t going to be with me this morning; I don’t know why he was telling me. “See ya, Tomi!” He said in his chipper voice before he was nearly skipping out the room.

I flinched from the name, I wish there was a way I could tell him to stop calling me that without actually saying it to him. That boy makes not speaking hard as fuck to do. I had run to take a quick shower before heading down to breakfast, taking a seat next to Georg when I got down there. Being around Bill was starting to scare me as much as Georg liking me did. “Morning, Tom.” Georg said happily when I sat down next to him. “You still look like shit, man. Lacy said you weren’t feeling well yesterday.”

I rolled my eyes at my friend as Gustav laughed from Georg’s blunt statement. Both of them suck. Come to think of it, humans in general just suck. “You should sleep more, Tom,” Gustav said, I could have shuddered at the thought. I had slept enough to last me a lifetime, I was never sleeping again, “It’ll get rid of the bags under your eyes.” How the fuck was there bags under my eyes?! You would think that eighteen plus hours of sleep would be more then enough to make any bags under someone’s eyes disappear.

I was so grateful when Georg noticed my discomfort about Gustav saying shit about me and changed the subject almost instantly, “Who was that girl Bill was eating with this morning? He walked off with her too.” He asked Gustav, our drummer knew just about everything that went on here, mainly because he paid more attention then anyone else.

As expected, Gustav sighed and shook his head at Georg, “Honestly, Georg. Don’t you ever pay attention to anything that goes on around us?” Georg just shook his head which caused Gustav to glare at him slightly, “That’s the new girl in our group class. She asked Bill to show her around; apparently he knows her or something like that so it would be easier on her if he did it rather then someone else.” If I remember correctly, Andreas had been who showed Bill around this place.

“Oh, well, fine then.” Georg said, though I saw him flash a smile at me. It told me he knew exactly what Gustav was talking about, but it had distracted him from me at least. I really shouldn’t be to cold to Georg anymore… I mean, he never acts upon whatever feelings he has for me. So I shouldn’t be so mean to him. He’s only ever been nice to me. “Oh shit!” Georg hissed, looking at one of the clocks on the wall- all the clocks in this place were the same. Black circles stuck to every wall with bright red numbers. “It’s almost eight, Gustav we got to get to English before we’re killed.” He said, quickly stand up and grabbing Gustav’s arm, “See ya at lunch Tom!” Georg called to me as he dragged off our other friend.

I was bored in homework; I’d finish the math shit I was supposed to be working on three days ago and didn’t feel like starting anymore of it, science and history work was done as well. When you don’t have classes and just a shit lode of free time, you managed to get homework done a lot faster and earlier then you have too. I wish I could just leave the room right now and go back to my own and mess around with my guitar- I still hadn’t taken it back to the music room yet.

Normally, I was helping Bill with his math work about now, but he still wasn’t in here. I couldn’t help but feel a little disappointed at the fact, and that scared me even more then before. For the first twenty minutes I had worked on the paper I had to do for English, but I ended up finishing that too- even if I knew it was going to get a ‘C’ tops. I just can’t put my thoughts into words on the paper, its seriously impossible for me.

“And this is the homework room, where you’re going to spend every single morning from nine to ten thirty in before we go group. Think you understand everything now?” I heard Bill’s voice as he walked into the room and felt my stomach turn a bit. He must have been talking to the new chick Gustav had mentioned at breakfast- he had mentioned her this morning as well I think. But I wasn’t to sure. I frowned though, realizing what he said. This new girl was going to be in here everyday with us… I was so used to having everything by myself, that this instantly pissed me off. Bill was one thing, I was getting used to having him around. Though I’ll never say that I actually like it. Some stupid girl was just going to piss me off and since Bill is the only boy around, he’s going to end up getting hurt.

“Yeah, I think I got it now. Thanks, Billie.” I heard the girl say and I felt my stomach turn even more. Her voice… sounded almost familiar to me. Why, I wasn’t sure. I peaked up from the paper I was drawing random lines on to see the two walking in the room and I felt my heart stop beating when I laid eyes on the girl.

A red headed girl who was standing next to Bill. A red headed girl with straight hair and bright blue eyes. A red headed girl who moved exactly like Bill did. A red headed girl who’s bright blue eyes widened when she saw me sitting at the table. “Oh, yay! Tomi you’re still in here.” Bill said with a happy squeal, but I didn’t really register it, I was to busy staring at the girl behind him. “Tomi, this is my cousin Alexia- she’s going to be in our homework from now on. Alexia, this is my roommate-”

“Tom!” Alexia squeaked, clapping her hands together and jumping on her toes. “Oh my god! I can’t believe you’re here!” Bill looked confused, his eyes going from his over excited cousin to a shocked and pissed off me. “Billie! Th-that’s my Tomi! The one I told you about when we were little, I know it’s him!” She squeaked and Bill’s own eyes widened.

“Wait, what?!” He yelped, his honey coloured brown eyes growing as wide as mine had when I first saw Alexia walk into the room, “My Tom is that Tom kid you knew before you were adopted?” He asked, and Alexia nodded. I don’t think this could get any worse right now. I felt like crawling in a hole and dying. No wonder Bill reminded me so much of this girl! Bill spent the last six years of his life around her!

“I… I’m sure it’s him.” She said, I was still in to much shock to move. “He looks just like him, and he’s not saying anything. And he has dreadlocks like my Tomi did.” I wish she’d stop calling me her Tomi. I wasn’t hers. I wasn’t Bill’s either. “I know that he’s my Tomi.” I wished they’d stop talking about me like I wasn’t in the room. I wish that I really wasn’t in the room. I was wishing for a lot of useless things right now.

“Oh holy hell,” Bill said, smiling widely as though something suddenly made sense to him. “This is perfect! I’m so sure Tom is happy to see you then!” Happy to see her?! HAS HE LOST HIS FUCKING MIND!? I hate Alexia more then I hate him! I glared at the pair of them, my fingers turning into fists on the table.

“I’m not so sure…” Alexia said, her smile turning into a frown as she noticed the glare from me at the both of them, “He looks mad…” She frowned even deeper as she brought one of her hands up to her mouth, “I remember that look, it’s the ‘Fuck off before I kill you’ look he gave to Franklyn every day at Aunt Alice’s.”

Bill just shook his head, “No. I know he’s happy to see you,” Bill said, pushing Alexia’s back and forcing her to come closer to me. I stiffened the closer she was getting.

Alexia gave me a once look over before a smile spread across her red painted lips, “Tomi, I have missed you so much.” She said softly, reaching one of her hands out to me like she wanted a hug. I wouldn’t let her touch me. Instead, my hand moved up from the table and wrapped tightly around her wrist, she gasped in pain and her eyes grew wide at me. “Tomi…” She whispered, my hand only grew tighter around the delicate limb in its grasp- any tighter and I was sure I could break it, especially with the painful tears in her eyes.

I roughly forced her hand down and away from me before pushing myself up from the chair I was in and walking right out the door. There was only ten minutes left in there, they’d get over me leaving. I could hear both their voices when I walked out of the room, but I didn’t bother trying to hear what they said. I didn’t give two shits about what was said.

“So Alexia says she knows you, Tom.” Lacy spoke softly, she had just been watching me for the first ten minutes of our group session. I was still pissed off. I run out of the lunch room as soon as Alexia and Bill walked in there, and since after homework I didn’t have anything to do until I was supposed to be in here, I spent the entire time outside. It was cold, and the icy air burned against my skin as I ran, but it had made me feel better at the time. The only thing I could think of when I was out there was that I was cold, but I couldn’t stop running. I didn’t even know it was time for group until Georg came outside to find me.

I had punched his shoulder hard not knowing it was him at first. It bruised up instantly, and I felt almost bad about it. But Georg understood. I was in a bad mood, he shouldn’t have came up to me out of the blue like that. But he was only looking out for me so I didn’t get sent to lockdown again- I should be more careful around him. “I’m taking that you’re not too happy she’s here.” Lacy said when she didn’t even get me to look up from the ground. “No one has ever seen you so mad. Andreas said he even saw you hit Georg when he came to get you from outside.” Of course Andreas would tell on me. Who the fuck cares. “Georg says it was an accident though, and that he’s fine, so you’re not in trouble.” She assured me. I didn’t care. As a matter of fact, I think I would prefer lockdown right about now.

“Tom Kaulitz, it would be so much better for you if you would just talk to someone. It’s not healthy to keep all that anger and frustration inside of you. It’s why you get into fights, why you get in so much trouble. What did Alexia do that upset you so badly?” I glowered at hearing her name again. She should just go die, her and Bill both. Okay… maybe not Bill- technically he hadn’t done anything wrong, but still, I didn’t like him right now at all.

“You know what, Tom.” Lacy said, her voice suddenly more stern then I had ever heard it before. “You’re not leaving this room until I hear something from you. I don’t care what it is. We’ll sit here for the next month and a half for all I care. But you’re not leaving until you say something. I’m not stupid, I know you can. So get rid of this, ‘I don’t give a fuck’ attitude you have for half a minute and say two words.” I had never heard her like this, I knew she was serious.

I glared at her, I wasn’t just going to sit here for the next month staring at her. I wasn’t going to spend another minute in here with her. She wanted two words? Fine. I’ll give her two god damn words. I stood up from the chair and my glare on her was icy cold. “Fuck you.” I said to her before I turned my back and walked out of the room.
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