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Missing	By : SpiderTears Category: J-Rock/J-Pop & K-Pop > Pierrot Views: 904 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Did you know emptiness can be youre friend? Did you know hopelessness can become your companion in the darkest hours of the night. When everyone else has abandon you to your selfdestructive thoughts as the shadows takes your heart away in the night. I realised that years ago... Did you know that even though people say they are your friends, even those who say that they want you to be happy, did you know that not even they can you trust with youre innermost hopes and feelings.

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.

Im so tired of beeing here, so tired of the emptiness keeping me company, tired of the hopelessness holding me at night... Tired of all the words they say, tired of their promises that never came true. You know they say they want you as their friend that they like my company... but it's all lies... nothing more than broken promises

Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"

If I went away, if I left this place they call my home, will they even notice my absence? When the shadows comes crawling taking away whats left of this broken soul, will they now? Will they shed those tears for me that I cried for them? Will they even know something was wrong?
They say they care, but will they know, know that those whispers and smirks hurt more than the shimmering daggers. That their laughs and jokes hurts more than the absence of air. That their lies and decites hurts more than the darkness that take me in its arms when the fall reach its end.

You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.

The silence fills my ears and the pale moon looks down on me as I walk the empty streets. Would they care if they knew how the darkness surrounds me, how the shadows whipes away those smiles I keep as my protection. A smile to keep safe... Walls build to protect from harm, they are taken away by the silver rays of the pale moon. Will they know or will they care. Or will they leave it all in the misty gray where no tears will come.

Am I that unimportant...?

His smile so warm, his touch caring, was it ever even real. Shadows hold my heart when he turns away. Smiling for someone else. It was nothing more than a lie. Nothing true. Nothing real.

Am I so insignificant...?

Why did you promise to care? Why did you say that nothing could hurt? Why did break what little was left? Did it really mean than little? Were I nothing more than a distraction in an life filled with happines?

Isn't something missing?

Will he know when I'm gone, will he even care? Will he shed those tears that I shed for him? Or will he even care? Darkness has taken over what little he left intact. Becoming my only friend, my only protection against a world I don't want to know. A world i can't even recognize. A world where I'm not accepted and not wanted. A world belonging to him.

Isn't someone missing me?

Will anyone notice? Will they care? Will he cry for me as I for him. Am I to lost in this nightmare for them to care. Will it ever change?

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.

Those tear I cried for you, those tears that like crimson drops fell. Those tear did they really matter? Did even make you care when the ground disappaered underneath my shivering body? Would it matter if it all stopped, if I made it stop? If the darkness surrounding me finally took over... would you try to stop it? Or would you just turn away...

Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.

His words they hurt, they tear my hopes to pieces... Shattering what was left of my dreams. Those cruel words echo in my mind as I watch the pale face shining above. Wishing I could hide somewhere where its merciless rays won't tear down what little defence I have. My hand reaching up begging for an answer to the ever unanswerd question, why?

Isn't someone missing me?

The darkness is the only thing to welcome me at home, the silence the only thing to say “welcome home” as I step into the place where I hide, where the darkness takes my tears and silently lets me fall asleep, forgetting this cruel world. Why wont he hold me like this? Why wont they be true?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out,
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"

The tears, the silvery tears left of my broken hopes and shattered dreams, they fall freely as the darkness surround me. As the darkness holds me and takes away my pain.

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.

I watch those crimson drops as they fall, like shimmering pearls in the darkened room, making a pattern on the once white sheets. I watch them silently as I feel the dakness in my mind take over, holding me tight.

And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?

The darkness it holds me tight as those feared and yet so loved dreams takes over. Your smile so warm, your touch so caring, Your armes so safe. A home to belong to, a love to trust. Somewhere to belong. The peace in my mind possesing my very beeing, just for a while, until the emptiness of reality takes hold again. A silent whisper is all that is heard as I close my tired eyes, letting the sweet arms of my dreams take my soul...

“kirito...”

Isn't something...
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