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Foolish Games/Goodbye To You COMPLETE	By : RobbiesMonkey Category: Singers/Bands/Musicians > Robbie Williams Views: 898 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Disclaimer: I do not own Robbie Williams. The Songs belong to Jewel and Michelle Branch. Don't Sue Me.

Foolish Games

You took your coat off and stood in the rain
You were always crazy like that
I watched from my window
Always felt I was outside looking in on you
You were always the mysterious one with dark eyes and careless hair

The cruel irony of it all isn't lost on me. How many times have I said I wanted to feel love? Prayed for it at night, wallowed to my mates about it? Well I have love now; the fact that it is killing me to feel this way is a twisted joke God is playing on me. The careless way she treats me, dismisses my feelings, my words, my thoughts. It's a cut to my heart each time. Yet the scars healed and the skin grows thicker, stronger, just as my love is....growing stronger. Mad Madeline they called her. When I met her she was young and carefree, and mad. Full of insane laughter, a free spirit that seemed to flit from interest to interest. There was pottery and sculpture, then Wedding cake decorating, breaking the hula hoop world record, dental hygienist, personal assistant, Fed/Ex Delivery person, candle making and door to door make up sales. She was terrible at them all, but I loved her for her unending laughter and joy of life. When had things changed? I don't really know...one night she's dancing in the rain, throwing off her jacket, calling for me to join her from the safety of the house. I shook my head no....not wanting to get wet. When she pulled her top off and let the rain trail over her bare skin I couldn't move, she was like no one I had ever known before, more brazen and adventurous then everyone. Soon she was standing nude in the rain, her long hair, plastered to her back and I was too afraid to join her...brazen on stage but terrified in real life.

You were fashionably sensitive, but too cool to care
Then you stood in my doorway, with nothing to say
Besides some comment on the weather

I suppose it was the job she took for her father. He was a rich business man, owning several corporations and companies. He called Her to see him, after the failed attempt at candle making, told her she was too old to be so flighty, that he had a job for her. It was an important job, I never really understood the title, All I knew was she was working long hours, spending more time at the office. We argued, I made a few jokes and she didn't smile, always so quick with a kind word or a smile...yet her smile seemed to be lost. I asked her why she would even take a job that had such a negative effect on her and she had become furious.

“This job is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I have finally learned that I needed to settle down and get my head out of the clouds. I can make something of myself now.”

“What about me?” I asked.

“Don't take everything to heart...you read too much into things. I had better go before the rain starts.” She said and then left out the door, leaving me to wonder when I had stopped being the best thing that had ever happened to her.

Well in case you failed to notice, in case you failed to see
This is my heart bleeding before you, this is me down on my knees
These foolish games are tearing me apart
Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart

I don't know when I became her lapdog. It seems as the stronger she became the weaker I became. I stopped questioning her choices and kept silent. Where did the girl with the flashing dark eyes and the sweet disposition go? I barely see her buried in the woman in the designer business suits and go for the jugular attitude. Does she even love me anymore? Sometimes I think I am just there because it's convenient for her, always a handsome man for her to take to business dinners and office parties. Had she felt like this? When I was obsessed with my career? Breaking records, selling out stadiums, showing up at Awards shows with her in a sexy dress and sparkling diamonds? Like nobody? Why do I still love her? Is it the girl I knew, that I still long for? The hard as nails woman that frightens me? Or am I so fucked up that I like the pain, the hurt. Maybe she is payback for all the hurt I have caused in my past? Whatever it is, I feel like the pain in my heart might kill me but still I stay and take whatever she gives me.

You were always brilliant in morning
Smoking your cigarettes and talking over coffee
You philosophies on art, Baroque moved you
You loved Mozart and you'd speak of your loved ones
As I clumsily strummed my guitar

I remember our time in Berlin, I had promotion there and when we arrived we locked ourselves in the suite and made love all day. Josie and David hammered on the door and I told them to piss off. We could barely keep our hands off each other long enough for me to go to the interviews. She stayed in the hotel and I found her there when I got back, white hotel robe, barely concealing her curves, hanging open for me to get an occasional flash to confirm she wore no panties, smoking cigarette after cigarette laughing over espressos and chocolate sundaes. Licking whipped cream off her fingers and then offering me a taste as well. God I loved her more than I could bear, she was so good for me. She made me feel sane.

You'd teach me of honest things
Things that were daring, things that were clean
Things that knew what an honest dollar did mean
So I hid my soiled hands behind my back

Maybe that is where I've gone wrong...maybe I put her pedestal so high, she can't reach it. Did I try to make her into something she never was. With her I tried to be a better person. I worked hard at being a good person, I ended a lot of the verbal feuds I had engaged in for years. Apologized to people who had hurt me and whom I had hurt in response, pushed myself to be a better man professionally and personally. I tried to be a man worthy of Madeline.

Somewhere along the line I must've gone off track with you
Excuse me, think I've mistaken you for somebody else
Somebody who gave a damn, somebody more like myself

Somewhere along the line I must've gone off track with you...I am not enough for you. And you treat me coldly. You dismiss me like a child and treat me like a stranger. Instead of love flowing from your eyes I see annoyance. You didn't come home last night...that's the third time this month. Are you really staying at the office? Is there someone else? Or is it me? Please tell me, whatever it is, I can change. I'll do whatever you ask....I'm begging you, down on my knees. Don't leave me. I love you.

These foolish games are tearing me apart
You're tearing me, tearing me, tearing me apart
Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart

You took off your coat and stood in the rain
You were always crazy like that

GoodBye To You

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I came home tonight and found your letter, you were sleeping on our bed, my pillow curled in your arms, like I used to be.

Somewhere along the line I must've gone off track with you...I am not enough for you. And you treat me coldly. You dismiss me like a child and treat me like a stranger. Instead of love flowing from your eyes I see annoyance. You didn't come home last night...that's the third time this month. Are you really staying at the office? Is there someone else? Or is it me? Please tell me, whatever it is, I can change. I'll do whatever you ask....I'm begging you, down on my knees. Don't leave me. I love you.

I've let this go on too long, I've should have told you sooner but I wanted to avoid the mess. Maybe I hoped things would go back to the way they were but they don't, do they? There is no other man, really there couldn't be...you have touched my heart like no other. But we are strangers now. Strangers that sleep side by side and brush our teeth together. Perhaps I should wake you and say the words we both know one of us has to say. But I don't. I sit down next to you and study your sleeping face.

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend

You want to go back, I know that, some days I do too, but I can't. I have too much to lose. I know you think I am not myself now I wasn't that girl then. This is the real me, I have never been satisfied like I am closing a deal or stealing a big account away from someone else. Well you satisfied me but now I can't be with you, the guilt of you, every time you look at me with that sad look, look look of a whipped puppy my heart aches....how can I be so happy with my job and so so sad at home? Doing all those jobs that I tried out before should have been a signal to me, a signal that I was drifting without purpose. I was a fraud then. I know what I need to say, silently I whisper the words I should be saying to you....

And I said,
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I must have made a noise because you move, opening your eyes and looking at me, in your sleepy state you must have forgotten all that has come between us because you smile, a sweet genuine smile that reaches your eyes. God, your eyes...I could stare into them for eternity. For a moment I am tempted to pretend...to climb into the bed and your arms, to kiss you, touch and explore you one last time before we are over. You must see it on my face because your smile slips off and that hurt look replaces them. Please don't look at me like that....I close my eyes and force back the tears. It would be easy to succumb to them...to you. To go to ecstasy and pleasure, were only we exist. Biting my lip I open my eyes and with resolve I hold up your letter.

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

“I'm sorry Rob...” I whisper, my voice thick with emotion.

“Madeline...please don't.” You know why I am sorry. I get up and go to the closet, pulling out a suitcase. You sit up in bed to watch me but say nothing as I begin to pull my clothes out of the dresser. The only sound is the gentle whisper of the clothes being folded and our haggard breathing as we fight to keep the tears at bay. As I zip up the suitcase, I feel your hand on my arm, turning me to you.

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

“In case you failed to notice, in case you fail to see this is my heart bleeding for you. This is me down on my knees. Don't leave me like this.”

“Of all the things I've believed in I just want to get it over with.” I reply, my own heart bleeding for him for us.

“I'll always love you.”

“You were the one thing I tried to hold onto. I love you too.” I lean in and kiss him one last time, my knees are shaking and my heart is pounding, why am I doing this? Where did we go wrong? We had a love so deep and pure and strong and now we are broken.

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

At the door I turn to you and take one last look and whisper...

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star

The End
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