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Keeping you awake	By : Semichan Category: > Die/Shinya Views: 1507 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. I do not know the members of Dir en grey. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.

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Title : Keeping you awake
Author : Me. Well, Semichan so.
Pairing : Die x Shinya
Summary : …Difficult to sum up, since there's no plot, but well. One random Tour night, Dir en grey stop by a hotel, Die & Shinya share a room… Shinya's nervous, Die is clueless… What's gonna happen ?

A/N : So, first post on AFF. It's an old fic, maybe one of my firsts… Ah, and please, keep in mind that English is not my native tongue, and that I'm truly sorry for the mistakes I might have been making. Anyway, enjoy ! ^_^ (And before I forget, this is taking place during the Macabre era (2000/01).)

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There was one day left . Just one stupid day and it’ll be all over . Just 24 last hours . 24 little hours and he’ll go home. 24 little hours and he’ll saw her again, he would hug her, kiss her, crawl into bed with her and curl her up all night… Oh how he missed her. Shinya continued pouting in the van. Die , who was sitting newt to him, noticed it and decided saying something.
- Why are you pouting ? He could have come up with something better but well.
The drummer didn’t answer, he just couldn’t stop thinking of his little ball of fur, his little Miyu ! He just so wanted to hug her tight right now … But all he had next to him currently were his two taller bandmates ; Die and Toshiya. And he sure didn’t wanna hug anyone of them.
- Neeeee, Shinchan … The guitarist tried again, poking his friend. The frail man groaned a bit and gave him a quite angry look.
- Shinya’s tired. Toshiya suddenly said looking at the countryside by the window.
- Who’s not… Kaoru added turning over to look at his three bandmates at the back of the van.
- I wanna go home… Shinya discreetly said sighing a bit looking very sad.
- We’re almost done Shinshin ! Kyo said gently; just one night at the hotel and then we’re going back home.
- "Almost done, almost done"…! We’re driving since 10 and it’s already midnight ! Die suddenly snapped, crossing his arms.
- Yeah… ; Toshiya continued; I’m actually wondering why we’re driving to a hotel that’s so far from the hall we just played ...
- Just ask the staff, they probably know. Kaoru answered in a somewhat bored tone.
The bassist sighed and gave up.

An hour or so passed again and they finally arrived to the hotel. Shinya was totally worn out and just wanted to sleep, and surely would have killed someone if he couldn’t right now. He almost jumped out of the van, took his things and ran towards the hotel. He then realized he had to wait for his bandmates if he wanted to get his room. Hey, in fact, who am I sleeping with this time ? He couldn’t remember…
- Shinya ! A voice called entering the hotel; you could have wait a bit, since we’re finally here there’s no need to act so fast… Die said holding various bags in both hands.
Shinya didn’t respond and just waited for someone to ask for their room.

The door of his room opened and the first thing Shinya did was jumping on the bed to lie down on it. He was so damn tired.
- Wow…! You’re really acting fast tonight ! Die giggled. He put his and his friend’s bags that he'd been carrying all the way to their room without complaining on the floor.
Shinya stayed in this position a bit, totally silent. He had to spend the night with Die. He forgot it was his turn. Yes, Die was a so agreeable person to sleep with they were making kind of a schedule to plan who was going to sleep with him and when. And unluckily, the only day he was extremely weary and absolutely needed to have some rest, he had to be paired with the redhead. He would have preferred to spend it with Totchi or even better, Kaoru; given that Kyo was impossible to sleep with too; this case he sure would have a good night rest … But with Die it wasn’t so sure. Not at all.
- Die… He somewhat asked; promise you would let me sleep ?
The guitarist left his stuff that he was unpacking for a second and turned to look at his friend, arching a brow.
- Huh ? Why wouldn’t I ? He answered sincerely.
Obviously Die didn’t know he was really noisy when he was sleeping, but worst of all, he was always sprawling himself all over the bed and kicking. Or sometimes; and that was probably the worst; he just spent all the night speaking and joking, in any case keeping the poor person he was with awake.
Shinya didn't had anything then, not knowing what to add to that. Die, he, came back to his bags and after a while, started rambling on about various shows he saw recently on TV, not caring about the fact it wasn't interesting his bandmate the least bit.

An hour and a half or so later they were both in bed, Shinya hopelessly trying to sleep while Die was silently watching TV. Well, rather playing with the remote actually. The drummer couldn't bear hearing a small piece of a thousand different programs every 5 seconds anymore. He tried not to sigh of annoyance but hardly could do it. Why is he watching TV that late anyway ? There's nothing interesting on ! The drummer thought, sighing audibly now.
- What ? Die asked looking at Shinya’s back beside him.
- Nothing .
- What’s the matter with you today ? You’re constantly pouting.
- I just wanna get some rest … Shinya sighed.
- Since this morning ? Die answered sarcastically .
Shinya growled a bit in response.
- I’m just kidding. The guitarist suddenly switched the TV off and laid down instantaneously.
Shinya raised his upper body a bit and turned to Die, frowning.
- You turned the TV off ? He asked disbelievingly more to himself than to his friend.
- I did . The redhead answered smiling sweetly.
Shinya didn’t know why but he suddenly blushed . He hoped the room was dark enough for Die not to notice it though.
He laid back down and turned his back to the redhead once more, feeling more comfortable not facing him. Damn, why am I so nervous suddenly ? He shook his head a bit an closed his eyes tight .
- Shinchan…
he heard his friend whispering.
- What ? He replied a bit aggressively now. He didn't want to talk at all, just sleep.
- Don’t you wanna talk a tad bit with me ? he asked getting closer to his friend.
- Die I’m tir¾
- I know ! But please, I just so can’t sleep right now… And we don‘t have any gig tomorrow !
Shinya sighed again.
- What do you wanna talk about then ? He asked awkwardly, shifting to face him trying to distinguish the guitarist’s features in the dark.
- I…. Dunno… Die said biting his lower lip a bit uneasily. He did wanted to talk but he didn’t know about what.
The drummer fought back a sigh and adjusted his position a bit .
- Okay. What about… asking each other some questions ? he said randomly.
- Huh ?
- I mean, there’s surely something we don’t know about each other, some simple things, I don’t know ….Just ;well getting to know us better … He explained yawning a bit.
- We already know each other quite well Shinchan… He chuckled.
- I know ! He rolled his eyes and followed; I mean like a little quiz, I don't know…You see ?
- Well…Okay, why not ! Die suddenly made up his mind looking at the sheets, not really knowing how to react though.
A silence took place then and Shinya felt like he had to make the first step to get his friend in .
- So… um… can I start ?
The guitarist raised his head at his friend’s level and nodded quickly.
- Ok. um… Coffee or tea ? he asked not really thinking of a real question. He was so tired .
- What ?! Die answered laughing a bit.
- Just answer me Die… we’ll see if I find something better later ok…? the drummer said rolling his eyes and sighing.
- Coffee. He said still giggling .
- Your turn . Shinya said firmly looking at Die who visibly didn’t really get he had to speak now.
- Oh … Um…. The man stood silent and thoughtful for what seemed like ages for Shinya, who was so exhausted he was having trouble keeping his eyes open .
- Uke or Seme ? He suddenly spoke looking innocent.
Shinya immediately hit him on the head.
- Die !! he blushed hard .
- What ? Isn’t that a good question ? The guitarist answered laughing at his own joke .
Shinya pouted and gave him an angry look then.
- Ok, ok. So… Are you straight or…
- Die you’d better shut up your mouth before I …! he stopped in mid sentence and glared at Die still rather angrily. Why can’t he just be serious ? Just one time !
- Shinchan, I’m just kidding…! he said trying to lock his friend’s glance with his but failed. Shinya was now somewhat deep in thought and didn’t pay attention to him anymore.
- Shinya ? …Hello ?
- It’s ok… Shinya mumbled, not looking at Die, a slight blush staining his cheeks.
- Shinya … the guitarist said softly putting his hand on his friend’s shoulder stroking it a bit. He didn’t really get what was going on in the drummer’s mind but also knew him to be a bit difficult to understand so he just waited for the rest to come, and react if necessary.
- Maybe I shouldn’t have… He started.
- Uke… Shinya suddenly said before he could finish. He slowly raised his head and look straight at the guitarist.
- Always Uke… He repeated blushing harder. By telling this he was answering Die’s 2 questions, and it made him feel quite awkward. What if he's just joking ? Maybe he just asked this knowing it would annoy me… maybe he didn’t mean it at all! Shinya was so lost in thoughts he unconsciously started to quiver a bit.
Die on his side couldn’t believe what he just heard ; he indeed didn’t really mean it; and remained silent, searching for some clever words to say. The drummer though just couldn’t bear this silence anymore and spoke.
- Please…; He started softly ; Say something… It was almost a whisper.
Despite his efforts, the guitarist didn’t say anything and so Shinya thought he really shouldn’t have told such a thing. It totally ruined the game, the night, and their friendship. He suddenly sat and searched for the lamp next to the bed .
- What are you doing ? Die suddenly reacted grabbing one of Shinya’s arms .You’re not going to…
- I’ll sleep with Kaoru, maybe it wouldn’t annoy him too much. The frail man said , voice trembling a bit. If…if I am lucky he probably wouldn’t notice me at all… He continued now getting out of the bed and standing . He grabbed some of his clothes and personal things and looked back at his friend shyly.
- …Well… Goodnight..! and with that he left rapidly, leaving his friend alone.
Die stayed in the middle of the bed, not knowing what to say, or do.
- What the hell…? He muttered to himself still not understanding what was going on in the other’s head.

Shinya was slowly and carefully walking in the dark corridor of the hotel. He was shivering madly, almost sobbing now. He felt so stupid. Why did I answer that ? Why did I say such a thing ?! He repeated in his mind again and again, trying to remember what number was Kao’s room.
He and Die’s was 201, Kyo and Totchi’s was 207 and Kaoru’s… Well he couldn't remember but if he was lucky, maybe he would seeing the right number on a door. That really would be the only moment of luck this night.
But sadly, the hallway was so large and long he didn’t know if he’ll have the courage to walk until the end. It was so dark…and a bit scary. He usually liked silence and stillness but now… It wasn't really pleasing him. His old childhood's fears were starting to come back to is mind and he absolutely didn't like that. But one thing was sure, he couldn’t return to his room now. Not after what happened.
Suddenly, Shinya stopped walking seeing the number 207 on a door on his left. He thought a bit. Maybe I should go see them ? They probably would be nicer and gentler than Kaoru… But well, they're already 2. And even if the rooms and beds are quite big…3 in the same bed would be a bit too much. Plus Shinya remembered Kyo wasn’t really of the sharing type in term of bed; he even couldn’t bear sleeping with another person so…
The drummer approached the door to see if he could hear something. He then smiled a bit hearing Kyo’s loud snores through it.
- Poor Totchi … He whispered leaving the door and kept on walking.
Just a few meters after he saw another door that he thought to be Kao’s room; number 211. He walked a bit hurriedly and stopped only a few centimetres away from it. He took a deep breath before knocking but was cut in his actions hearing some muffled noises . He waited and put his ear on the door and suddenly heard Kaoru moaning. He backed off.
What …? He made a face. He stayed a bit more and suddenly heard another voice…
- Toshiya !? He said quite loud, without thinking. He put a hand on his mouth realizing what he had done, staying completely silent and still for a few seconds. Apparently, nobody heard him. He sighed feebly and released his mouth slowly, staying a bit more to try hearing some other things that could answer his question definitely. He then realized his two bandmates actually were shamelessly fucking, in an absolutely not discreet way.
An almost silent ’oh my god’ left Shinya’s lips and he walked back , a bit disturbed. How can they be doing this !? He shook his head as he walked back in the hallway, wondering if he was angry because he couldn't enter the room, or because their bandmates were having a bit of fun while he was in what he considered to be a hopeless situation. It was screwing all his plans for the night and he was now at a total loss. He couldn’t sleep with Kaoru so, couldn’t go to Kyo cause it would mean wake him up and so, risk his life, make him know about Totchi and their leader, the conversation with Die and all. Briefly, it would be Hell.
At this very moment Shinya wished he could be alone, in his house with his dear Miyu peacefully sleeping. But Fate visibly decided it other way, and even seemed to like torturing the poor young man tonight. He had to face this horrible night alone indeed, but in a random hotel, kilometres away from his home, looking for a room where he could sleep because he couldn’t stay walking back and forth in a dark and cold corridor 'til the sun shows up.
- Watcha doing ? A sleepy voice came from behind . Shinya turned quickly and saw the little warumono staring at him, eyes half closed in tiredness .
- Kyo-kun ! You scared me… He said softly; …I was …. I needed to get out a bit. He said hesitantly hoping Kyo wouldn’t want to know more .
The vocalist didn’t respond and stayed still, watching his drummer very tiredly. He yawned .
- Kyo…. Are you alright ?…
- I’m fine. Goodnight . and with that he returned in his room and closed the door.
Shinya stayed startled in the hallway , not really understanding what had just happened . Am I hallucinating or did I just had an extremely weird conversation with Kyo…? If one can call that a conversation… He shrugged a bit and was going to walk further when he heard the door cracked open once more.
- Where is Toshiya ? The blonde suddenly asked.
Shinya froze.
- I… I don’t know Kyo-kun…. He said, sounding unsure.
Kyo arched an eyebrow and added :
- Don’t call me that. And he shut the door; again.
The younger man tried not to pay attention to his friend ever so strange behaviour and walked a bit further again as he had planed to do earlier.
But then he stopped again. Where am I going ? He was unconsciously coming back to his previous room where Die still was. No, I cannot go back there. What would he say ? He left only a few minutes ago and so couldn’t come back saying he didn’t find any room to sleep cause Kyo was kind of dangerous to wake up , and he already was sleeping with Totchi logically, but the bassist actually was in bed with their leader and not really sleeping, so he truly couldn’t come in and ask if he could sleep there … He thought he couldn’t, but he simply had no other choices. The guitarist was the last person he could ever talk to yet, unfortunately. He sighed heavily and decided to walk to room 201.

Die was silently watching TV again, thinking of Shinya, when he heard a shy knock on the door. He immediately got up and ran to the door to open it .
- Shinya ! He said a bit too loud considering the time it was, and embraced him tight .
The drummer’s eyes widened a bit at the gesture and tried to push his friend away gently. The man let him in and waited for him to speak.
- I didn’t leave. He said a bit coldly as if his guitarist's gesture displeased him.
- Almost ! Die replied smiling brightly. I was scared you know, I thought you were really mad at me… Shinya turned to face him at the words.
- What ? He thought that Die was angry, not that he was !
- Yeah, when you left I really didn’t get it you know… He added.
- I thought that you were angry… Shinya said shyly.
- Why ? The man asked a bit surprised. You know…. « Always uke » … He said shamefully .
- Oh !… Die suddenly understood; So you left cause you thought I was… The redhead tried, not really wanting to end his sentence.
- I thought I made a mistake ! the drummer answered; so I thought it would be better if you were sleeping alone … He continued smiling timidly. He suddenly felt quite relieved seeing how things were going on. Die wasn’t angry at all, that was a good point, but Kaoru and Totchi still were on his mind.
He was a bit lost in thought when a slight but quite strong pair of arms suddenly hugged him friendly. He jumped a bit and hesitated before doing the same back. Die didn’t seem to refuse his embrace so Shinya relaxed a bit. But just as he started to get used to the feeling of his friend’s body against his, the guitarist pulled away and sighed a bit, happy to know everything was ok with his dear Shinchan.
- Okay then, wanna sleep now ? He asked walking to the bed, crawling into it and yawning .
Shinya stayed a bit startled in the middle of the room, and hesitated again but spoke nevertheless .
- Well… Ok…
Die raised an eyebrow and giggled a bit.
- You aren’t tired anymore ?
The drummer got into bed too and nodded shyly, not looking at his friend. How could he be tired now he got so nervous and fully awake because of their 'dispute', all this walking in this damn cold hallway…? And don't forget hearing Kao and Totchi screwing like rabbits ! He thought bitterly, lying down his back turned to Die again.
- Ah… Do you wanna talk a bit again ? He asked resting his head on his hand looking at the slim body resting beside him.
- I don’t think so… Shinya sighed heavily closing his eyes.
The guitarist waited before adding something .
- Shinya… He said, poking his shoulder a bit . The younger man turned his body slowly to face his guitarist .
- What‘s the matter ? Die asked whispering softly, looking a bit concerned .
- It’s alright … He whispered back blushing a little. I just … well … I just would have preferred to… Have a better night .
- What happened ? The guitarist asked .
- What ? You're asking ?
- I mean in the hallway Shin. Why did you come back ?
Shinya’s eyes widened a bit .
- I mean…; Die corrected his sentence; why didn’t you go to Kao ?
And there he was… Shinya blushed hard and started to feel a bit uneasy thinking of what he would say; or not; to his friend guitarist .
- I couldn’t … He muttered, lowering his head awkwardly .
Die thought it might not be the right time to ask such things. He would try to know more tomorrow. So, he nodded to himself and laid back .
- Ok Shinchan… He answered with a smile .
The drummer blushed even more hearing this and tried to hide it but failed miserably .
- Hey, what’s going on ? He then asked giggling a bit, touching his friend’s cheek.
Shinya backed off nervously and hugged the blankets tighter around him.
- I’m not going to hurt you Shin… Die said a bit ironically seeing his friend's sudden quite strange behaviour .
- I‘m sorry, I… I‘m not feeling very well, I… Shinya mumbled looking perturbed. I’m sorry. he said again, glancing at Die .
The other man chuckled a bit more and stroked Shinya’s shoulder again but more in a reassuring way this time . He was very patient; anyone else in the band would already have told the drummer to shut up and sleep, or stop being this embarrassed ’cause it was kind of stupid since they were all close friends .
- There’s no need to ! the redhead said sounding a bit surprised by the younger ’s words.
- O…Ok… Shinya answered nodding his head and propping himself up with his arms to change his position.
- What are you doing ? Die suddenly asked thinking his friend was going to leave again.
- I ’m… changing position… He answered a bit confused.
- Oh… The guitarist uttered, feeling foolish to react like this since there was no need to.
- Goodnight… Shinya whispered softly, lying back and turning his back another time to the redhead . The latter didn’t respond and turned a bit too, looking at the wall in front of him eyes wide open; he wasn’t tired the least bit anymore . He sighed softly , hoping Shinya wouldn’t hear…
- Die ?
…But apparently he did.
- What ? The guitarist whispered turning instinctively and involuntary came in contact with the drummer’s body who also turned to face him just a few seconds before, but he actually was so thin he didn‘t even realize it.
Shinya blushed hard feeling Die’s body against his like that and let out a slight squeak.
- Oops. Die stated and tried to move a bit aside seeing how red his friend suddenly was. I’m sorry ! he giggled a bit but the drummer didn’t seem to find the situation as funny as he did.
He nervously brushed some strands of hair with his hands and avoided his friend’s gaze awkwardly.
- Shinya … Die spoke ; What’s the matter ? He repeated again for the 3rd or 4th time tonight. The other remained silent. The guitarist suddenly became really serious and took word once more.
- I know you’re not telling me the truth !
- It’s ok Die, please speak more quietly… Shinya whispered .
- No it’s not ! Look at you, you’re totally flushed since the beginning of the night !
- Don’t scream like that … The drummer shyly said, looking elsewhere.
- I'm not screaming… He sighed.
- You're speaking too loud in any case ! He finally looked up at him.
- I'm sorry, k ? the redhead rolled his eyes and sighed once more.
A little silence then took place and Shinya hesitated a few seconds before speaking.
- I …
- What ? Die cut him off before he could follow.
- I’m not feeling very comfortable… He said blushing even harder.
- What’s the matter ?… The red head asked again calming down a bit. It’s me ?
Shinya raised his head swiftly looking at Die eyes wide open for a few seconds before saying something.
- Well… ‘Not exactly…’ He thought . …I wouldn’t say this but… Yes; Kinda.
- Oh… Die simply stated lowering his gaze on the sheets. Did I… Say something wrong ?
- No, no ! that’s not really you … Shinya added; Maybe I… Maybe I just really need some rest ! He chuckled nervously. As the blush that was staining his cheeks since a moment now didn't seem to wanna go away the drummer started fidgeting slightly and most of all, thinking of the real reason why it was so. He couldn’t believe that was actually happening, but the more he thought the more he couldn't deny the redhead was attracting him.
- Ah. The guitarist said a bit puzzled.
- In fact… I didn’t explain you something…
- What ? Die replied .
- When I went to Kao… I couldn’t enter because….
- What happened ? He asked, feeling more at ease seeing Shinya forgot about the "I wouldn’t say it but yes" subject.
- He was a bit busy…
- ’Busy’ ? Die repeated , frowning.
- Well … Totchi and he were a bit busy, actually… He blushed.
- What ?!
- Hush !! Shinya whispered putting a finger on Die’s mouth. The guitarist was a bit surprised by the gesture but obeyed nonetheless.
The drummer blushed for some reason and was going to remove his finger when one of Die’s hands came to hold his wrist and a pair of lips came in contact with his.
Shinya whined and backed up quickly, blushing a deep crimson. The redhead didn’t seem to accept it though and grabbed his right arm to prevent him from getting out of the bed.
- Don’t pull away… He whispered and leaned closer to lock their lips again.
Shinya resisted a bit for the first seconds but quickly got into the kiss. He didn’t know what he was doing at all but damn, that was good. And that precisely was what frightened him. It didn’t felt abnormal.
- Your lips are so sweet… Die whispered between kisses, his hands firmly gripping the other’s waist now.
- Die … what are you doing…? Shinya whispered also, trying to find a place to put his hands on. He was asking but didn’t really want an answer.
- I don’t know… He answered planting some kisses on his friend’s neck , rising to his chin and his mouth. Shinya immediately approached his head to join their lips and finally put his hand behind his bandmate’s neck. After a minute or so kissing his red-headed bandmate rather languidly he broke their kiss and released his neck, shyly bringing one hand on the sheets between them and the other on his friend's shoulder.
- That's …a bit weird. He stated, awkward.
- I know. Die quickly said and meshed their lips once more, not really wanting to discuss right now.
He held the other's thin body closer and slowly moved them aside so he was on top of him. Shinya moaned a bit in the other’s mouth, clutching his shirt quite strongly as to prevent him from going away. It was so surreal. How could they be doing this right now ? Shinya didn’t remember having been charming his friend or even saying he wanted something to happen between them earlier that night.
Suddenly, Die broke the kiss to catch his breath a bit and looked at the drummer fondly.
- Are we going to… He asked softly, panting a bit.
Shinya was panting as well, and after a second or two realized what his friend just said. What is he saying ?! Well… Take a breath Shinya… Think of something smart … He blushed extremely hard and closed his eyes slowly, indeed taking a deep breath.
- I…I want you. He answered whispering and stroking the guitarist’s cheek somehow lovingly. It took him an immense amount of courage to form his thoughts into words. He couldn’t imagine himself getting laid with one of his bandmates.
Die didn’t say anything more and leaned forward to kiss Shinya again. The drummer quickly closed his eyes and kissed back, almost immediately darting his tongue out and forcing his way in the other’s hot mouth. He started to become so needy that he didn’t want things to go slow now. He brought his hands under Die’s shirt and held him close .
The guitarist had started to whine and moan repeatedly now, he apparently couldn’t hold his feelings back and unconsciously started to thrust his hips against the other's. He didn’t know what they were doing either but he wasn’t really thinking of the fact he wasn’t gay at all at this very moment.
This time that was Shinya that broke the kiss and spoke.
- Die… He timidly started off ; I want you inside me… He mumbled eyes down. He actually didn't realize he was saying such a thing but as it didn't seem to shock the other there was no reason to wonder stupidly.
The guitarist didn’t think twice about it and nodded, sitting on the bed, clutching the hem of his shirt to take it off .
When he was done, Shinya sat too and before his friend could do anything started to lick and kiss his chest and neck, gently nibbling at it. Die moaned and closed his eyes, tilting his head a bit to give him more access.
He felt the drummer go further down on his body , making him understand he wanted him to lie with his hands pushing on his torso a bit. He obeyed and let out a small sigh, now wondering if what he was doing wasn’t a mistake.
All his thoughts disappeared when he felt Shinya’s hands slowly removing his pajama pants though. His eyes fluttered open and he shook his head a bit, not knowing if he should stop or cheer his friend on.
- Shinya… He just said, moaning even more seeing the drummer remove his boxers too. He closed his eyes again and suddenly arched his back feeling a hot tongue licking at the head of his already hard member.
Shinya put his hands on the other's hips to prevent him from thrusting and slowly took him in his mouth, changing his position a bit and relaxing his throat muscles.
Die, on his side, was completely lost in thoughts again, this time wondering about a lot of things, but not those he previously was wondering about. He could only think of Shinya now, about what he was doing to him and what will happen next .
Wait a minute…He suddenly thought . What If he’s doing this to me and that I…
Die widened his eyes slightly as he realized that if Shinya succeeded on pushing him over the edge too fast; and that certainly was what was going to happen; he couldn’t make love to him right after. Or at least he would have to wait a tad bit. And he didn't want to upset the drummer.
He raised his head a bit, not very sure if he should look at his friend or just talk to him ; and suddenly saw he was gazing at him, as if he knew something was wrong .
Die blushed hard at the sight of the drummer blowing and watching him at the same time without any shame at all. Seeing it, Shinya closed his eyes slowly and kept on sucking , licking and kissing the guitarist’s cock, blindly searching for his right hand to hold it, and , once he found it, entwined his fingers with the other’s.
- Shinya… Die moaned again, a bit reassured by his friend’s gentleness and consideration though . He probably understood that he wasn’t really at ease, and he was kinda grateful he wasn't looking at him anymore .
- Aah… The guitarist groaned as the other sped up his movements a bit. I…Shinya…! Die cried feeling his climax drawing near already. He was so hard and excited it almost hurt and the fact it was Shinya that was doing this to him wasn’t helping that much. The innocent, pure and shy Shinya…Or supposed to be innocent at least, was giving him his best blowjob ever. If he knew it would be so damn arousing he would’ve done it earlier.
So that’s true, men do it better than women… He thought blushing even more if possible. He always heard people saying boys were far more skilled on blowjobs than girls were, because they were male themselves, and so they exactly knew what another man would like or want in terms of sex. He first didn't really believe it, mostly because he was considering himself as straight actually, but he couldn't deny he never ever thought of trying just in order to compare. Although he did had the idea, he never did. So tonight kinda was a new thing for him.
- Shinya…. He suddenly said in a quite demanding tone.
The drummer answered with a "hm", continuing what he was doing , waiting for his guitarist to talk again.
- Please……Stop… He murmured not really wanting it.
Shinya opened his eyes and looked straight into the other’s, releasing him and raising his body a bit .
- Why …? He asked a bit confused, unconsciously stroking Die’s member with his free hand while speaking.
The redhead fought back a moan at the touch and tried to concentrate a bit. Damn, why am I so nervous and excited ? It's not like it's the first time you're having sex, man ! Why are you feeling so fragile and needy then ? Die thought giving himself a mental lecture.
- I… You’re… He started a bit shakily. I’m not sure I can…
- It’s ok, relax… Shinya said holding both of his friend’s hands and helping him up.
They were both sitting in front of each other now, Die looking very awkward and Shinya very lustful. He moved his head closer to the guitarist’s and kissed him lightly . The other mimicked his actions and did it a couple of times, and then they shared another passionate kiss, deeper and longer , still holding hands.
Putting his hands on Shinya’s hips, Die realized the drummer still had his big nightshirt on, and felt a bit more awkward being completely exposed like this. He didn’t dare to take the material off though and waited for their kiss to end to see what was going to happen next.
- Do you feel like you can hold on longer enough to… Shinya panted between kisses, not really wanting to end his sentence.
Even if he wasn’t really sure of it, even not at all, Die nodded firmly clutching the other’s small waist tighter. He wasn’t going to tell him he was close to coming with oral already…
The older suddenly felt a pair of smooth hands on his chest pushing him slightly to lie back on the bed. He let himself fall on the sheets, releasing the drummer’s waist, who on his side moved a bit so that he was now straddling the guitarist. Die suddenly felt his body tense thinking of what was going to happen.
He was going to make love with Shinya.
He was going to have sex with Shinya.
Damn, he never screwed a guy before !
He panicked a bit , hoping all would be fine, but he just couldn’t imagine himself doing this .
But then, when he looked at his friend again… He forgot all his doubts and just wanted to get inside him.
Shinya was positioning himself at the right place when he felt Die’s hands coming to grasp his hips again, and smiled slightly at the gesture.
- You sure you wanna ? He suddenly asked looking at him a bit worriedly. He was more asking to earn a little bit more of time to get along with the idea of being taken completely dry since he couldn’t ask Die to stretch him out now, because as he had expected, the guitarist was heterosexual and never dated a boy before. And moreover, as surprising as it was the red-haired man didn't seem to be that experienced.
- Yeah… Die answered nodding again, feeling his cock throbbing with need .
- O…Ok; Shinya continued , now feeling a bit uneasy; I’ll help you out. he said turning his head a bit , looking for the guitarist’s member with his right hand and grabbing it, then guiding it to his entrance. He took a deep breath and slowly and carefully let his hips sink down on Die’s large erection, closing his eyes tight and fighting back cries of pain not to startle his friend .
When all of the organ was engulfed in his body, Shinya sighed heavily and tried to adjust to the hurting feeling a bit, but didn’t really succeed. He couldn’t hold it anymore and moaned painfully, tears slowly rolling down his quite flushed cheeks. Die immediately raised his upper body a bit and wiped his friend’s tears away .
- I'm hurting you ? He asked worryingly, stroking the other’s face tenderly.
- That’s ok… Shinya whispered, looking hurt. That’s kinda…normal. He added.
- Normal ? What do you mean by… Die asked a bit confused by the situation.
- I’m usually using lubricant you know… The young drummer continued; but there’s always a part of pain. he said bringing his hands to Die’s face .
- I’m sorry… The redhead whispered apologetically and kissed his friend lovingly .
- Could you… Lay back ? The drummer asked politely ; the position he was currently in wasn’t very comfortable since he didn’t really had time to adjust and get used to the sudden intrusion. The guitarist obeyed, repositioning his hands on the other’s hips, gently caressing them.
After a while, Shinya started to move his hips up and down slowly, to stretch his opening some before doing really serious movements. He cried a bit, the pain was truly hard to hold. Die didn’t know what to do exactly, since the drummer seemed to be suffering a lot he didn’t dare to move and just stayed more or less static, waiting for his friend to do something.
Some minutes passed and then Shinya had started to build a steady rhythm, cries of pain and whimpers changing into rather appreciative noises and moans. Die was now enjoying himself thoroughly, moaning out the drummer’s name and holding his hips tighter, helping him out to thrust up and down more and more quickly.
The pain had practically ebbed away now and Shinya, too, was feeling a lot better ,being filled by his friend guitarist was so pleasurable.
- Die… He panted clutching the sheets on both side of his friend’s chest; You fill me so much…Feels so good …! He said moaning with each thrust.
The redhead blushed slightly hearing such words coming from their drummer’s mouth, but tried to concentrate on lasting as long as possible, cause it was starting to become extremely hard.
Die had started to move his hips along with the other’s movements for some minutes now, and really wondered about the time he would last . He truthfully wanted to please Shinya, but his own pleasure began to seem more important in his mind, and so he forgot about time, and just enjoyed what was going on right now, pushing into his friend quite roughly, eliciting a lot of moans from the other.
- Shinya…! I…I’m going to…! He said arching his back and ramming one last time into the drummer’s body, shooting his seeds deep within him.
Shinya cried out and collapsed onto the bed, exhausted and sweaty, while Die stayed eyes closed for some seconds trying to get his breath back to normal.
For a short while, Shinya remained silent and eyes wide open, staring at the ceiling. Wasn't that a bit too loud …? What if someone heard us ?
Die, he, didn't seem that preoccupied by what they'd just been doing. He was panting, eyes closed, his chest rising and sinking repeatedly.
The younger man looked at him a few seconds and sighed, then lazily got up, drawing without knowing it Die’s attention to him .
- Where are you going… ? He said still lying on the bed, too exhausted to even sit up.
- Just taking a quick shower, I’m hot. Shinya said somehow coldly, walking to the bathroom without looking back.
First the guitarist didn’t pay attention to it but his friend was acting a bit weirdly. He heard the shower being switched on and he slowly sat, wondering about if he should go check on him or just wait .
He waited about one or two minutes and got up also, walking to the bathroom and stopping right before entering, instinctively trying to see if he could hear something. But nothing could be heard save from the noise the water was making.
He entered the room slowly, looking for Shinya with his eyes, and first saw his large nightshirt lying on the floor, when he suddenly heard a slightly muffled moan coming from the shower. He immediately rushed to it and pulled the curtain away, exposing a very mortified Shinya trying to hide his naked body and screaming at the surprise of seeing his bandmate here.
Die didn’t wait long before speaking.
- So I didn’t finish the whole job, right ? He said looking at the other’s crotch .
- Ano… Shinya answered shyly feeling ashamed of being exposed like this to his best friend, jerking himself off whereas they just made love a few minutes earlier.
- Need some help ? Die added getting into the shower and stroking the drummer’s body a bit.
Shinya didn’t have time to respond that he felt a bigger hand than his around his shaft, starting to move quite fast and lips gently sucking on his neck from behind. He sighed softly and let the other stroke him, murmuring soft nothings while he was doing so.

The night had been short. Short and painful. At least for Shinya. Even if he was used to such things, this time had been fairly different due to his guitarist’s ignorance. Die had been quite rough, maybe without meaning it but he really had been.
The drummer was hopelessly trying to sleep. He knew it was the morning, but just didn't wanna get up already. Die seemed to be vast asleep anyway, so there was no point in staying awake, all alone like that. Not that he really wanted to talk or something, but he sure didn't wanna stay awake either.
After some minutes, seeing he couldn’t slumber anymore, he sighed heavily and shifted a bit .
- A problem …? A voice said behind him and gently put a hand on his waist.
- Hello… Shinya said turning to face his friend. He was slightly astonished finding the other awake but well.
Die smiled kindly and leaned forward to kiss him. The drummer was a bit surprised but accepted the gesture, putting his arms around the other’s neck. He really didn’t think he would be doing such things with his best friend one day… That was pretty odd, yes.
To Shinya’s surprise the kiss lasted a little bit longer than he'd thought and he felt the guitarist’s tongue fondling his lower lip. He didn’t wait much before opening his mouth and let his friend explore it.
Die seems to be pretty aroused already… Shinya thought moving closer to the other’s body, who unexpectedly broke the kiss and spoke.
- Get on all four. He said, sitting in the bed and urging the drummer to move.
- W…What ? Shinya uttered sitting also, glaring at Die with wide eyes.
- I’m sure I can make you come ! The older then added as if it was obviously what he'd been meaning with 'get on all four'.
The frail man blushed slightly, not knowing what to say. That sure was unexpected, but after all, maybe his friend’s idea wasn’t so bad. And why would he refuse ? He had been longing for so long for a thing of that kind to happen it would be rather stupid to say no now.
- Well…Ok but…; he shyly said; But can I ask you something first…?
Die nodded firmly, happy to see his friend agreed to do it another time . He wasn’t really sure about the conclusion of it all but promised himself he would ask for a second round in the morning, since the first round didn’t end very properly.
Shinya, who was kinda kneeling in front of the guitarist now, spoke softly.
- I need you to do something before … He timidly grabbed one of his friend’s hands and held it to his mouth.
Die somehow understood what the younger was going to do and offered him two fingers, which the drummer slowly took into his mouth and started to suck quite slowly. Once he'd been covering them with his saliva as best as he could, he directed the other’s hand down his body and bent forward a little.
- Die-kun… He started whispering hoarsely; I need you to ready me…
- For what ?… Die answered with a smirk, now getting what the other wanted him to do.
Shinya leaned even closer and kissed his friend lightly, blushing in advance thinking of what he was going to say.
- I need you to ready me for your hard, wonderful cock… He said still whispering, lips touching the other’s right now and then.
Hearing such words coming from Shinya made the guitarist feel himself harden even more. He just couldn’t get used to hear this coming from their little drummer’s mouth…. That was so strange… But so arousing at the same time.
Die captured Shinya’s lips all of a sudden and brought his hand between his legs, searching for his entrance .

- Kyo… Toshiya said for the third time already . Kyo ! He sighed heavily.
- …..Whaaaat…..? A sleepy blonde answered, growling a bit.
- Finally awake ! I’m trying to wake you up since 8 ! He said angrily.
- Liar….
- what ? He raised a brow.
- You called me four time and that’s all… It‘s been a minute or two… Not more…
Toshiya stayed a bit startled sitting on the bed , looking at his vocalist weirdly.
- Well…! Kyo then said, getting out of bed more or less lazily; did you have a good night ? He suddenly asked walking to the bathroom.
- Um… Yes … Yes ! Toshiya answered a bit bashfully. Why do you ask ?
- Just in order to know ! Kyo answered from the adjoining room.
While his friend was absent, the bassist started to get a bit nervous, knowing Kyo wouldn’t ask such a thing if there wasn’t a real reason. Please, don’t tell that me he knows…
- Doesn’t your ass hurt a bit ? The vocalist suddenly said returning to the bedroom, looking at the black haired man in front of him .
Toshiya immediately understood and laughed a bit; nervously though.
- Okay… He said and stood up; And what are you trying to do with that Kyo ?
That was Kyo’s time to laugh.
- Nothing.
- Nothing ? Toshiya asked raising a brow. Why did you ask then ?
- Just wanted to tease you a bit… You do what you want with your ass it's not my problem ! He laughed and then paused, glancing at the bassist a few times before finally speaking. So you really like cocks… Die owes me a bill !
- What ?! The bassist almost shouted, eyes wide.
- Hey, don’t yell like this ! You’re hurting my ears !…They’re injured enough, don’t you think ? He said angrily.
- Kyo you’re such a…
- Such a what ? The blonde cut him off .
- Nevermind. Toshiya mumbled. Well… Everybody knows i’m not straight ! Why did you two put money on it ? He suddenly added a bit sadly.
- Dunno… Maybe we were a bit drunk. Kyo spoke; well very drunk, cause Kao bet too !
Toshiya’s heartbeat suddenly quickened hearing his vocalist’s quite cruel words.
- Kyo, that ’s not funny. He said trying to avoid his friend’s glance.
- That's not a joke. He answered coldly.
The young bassist closed his eyes sorrowfully, yet frustratingly. He couldn’t believe it .What was his vocalist saying ? Kaoru bet that he was gay ? So he wasn’t acting truthfully …?
- I’m going to Shinya. Kyo suddenly said taking Toshiya away from his apparently deep thoughts.
- Oh, um… Okay… Was the only thing he could reply. He was a bit lost.

- Oh Die…! Harder …Harder ! Shinya moaned out thrusting his hips faster and faster against the guitarist’s.
- I’m coming Shinya… The other admitted a bit shamefully.
- No ! Not yet ! The drummer said suddenly slowing down his movements. You promised … He added raising his body up to bring his arm and hand behind the other‘s neck . Hold still… He whispered softly, closing his eyes.
Die tried to regain his breath and clutched his bandmate’s hips tighter.
- I’m really sorry…
- If it can help you, do it slow… Shinya answered .
The redhead sighed softly and started to move again quite slowly so, trying to concentrate as best as he could on lasting until the other would climax.

Kyo was walking to room 201 thinking about the strange manner Shinya acted last night. He didn’t wanna deal with it in the middle of the night; since his rest time was really important; but really thought there was a problem.
He arrived in front of said door and knocked. If it wasn’t Shinya’s room, he wouldn’t have done it.
Shinya suddenly opened his eyes and froze .
- Someone knocked ? He whispered, looking at Die.
The guitarist started to panic .
- …Maybe room service ? He said whispering too.
- Shinchaaan~~ ! A voice they knew all too well called behind the door.
- Kyo ! Shinya muttered realizing the small blonde would probably enter the room if nobody reacted quickly . He suddenly moved away from his friend's embrace and stood, looking for something to wear, like a bathrobe preferably.
Once he found one, he glanced at Die who was now sitting on the bed, looking all awkward and perturbed .
- Get under the blankets ! Shinya somewhat ordered, quietly enough for Kyo not to hear.
- I’m naked !
- Put a shirt on !
- He wouldn’t believe we were sleeping !
- I’ll find something to say ! He said rushing to the door, looking one last time at his bandmate. Try to look like you’re still asleep ! he added and opened the door.
The guitarist quickly turned his back to him and closed his eyes.
- Ah ! Kyo sighed angrily. I thought you’d never come !
Die rolled his eyes as he couldn’t help thinking of Shinya hearing such words.
- I’m sorry … Shinya said softly, brushing some strand of hair kinda nervously.
- Why are you speaking so low …? The vocalist asked suspiciously.
- Die’s still sleeping… The drummer said pointing at the bed in the middle of the room.
- Oh. I‘ll wake him up.
- No ! Shinya almost yelled, preventing his friend from walking into the room.
- It’s already 10 Shinchan…
- But he had a really bad night Kyo kun, he…. Shinya mumbled; Let him sleep a tad bit !
Die sighed mentally seeing his drummer was a pretty good liar, even if it all seemed a bit strange nonetheless. He was kinda grateful the younger didn't let the warumono come in though. He was so damn hard and excited Kyo would have immediately realized what was going on before he rushed in.
But…But ! And Shinya ?? Wasn’t he hard too ?? He suddenly thought, frowning.
- Oh my god… He whispered extremely low, hoping the other’s bathrobe was large enough to hide it. His own hardness wouldn’t be too difficult to explain since he was said to be asleep but Shinya’s…
- Well, don’t forget to wake him up before we go… Kyo said putting his hands on his hips. Can I ask you something before I come back to Totchi ? he added.
- Yes, go on… Shinya answered a bit awkwardly, wondering what was the question about .
- It’s about last night… When you needed to get out a bit…; He started; … With almost all your stuff in your arms.
- Ah… The drummer blushed.
- I’m not stupid Shinchan. You weren't just taking some fresh air. What happened with Die ? He asked straightforwardly.
- Nothing you should wonder about Kyo, I assure you…
- Did he hurt you ?
Die's eyes shot open and he felt a bit angry hearing the blonde’s statement about him.
- No ! Not at all … That‘s not important Ky--
- Why do I have the feeling you’re trying to make me go away !? Kyo suddenly said louder, making a brutal arm movement.
- I’m not, Kyo-kun ! I’m just telling you there’s nothing to worry about ! Shinya answered confidently now.
- I ’d rather say there’s nothing for me to know … The small blonde replied and looked at Die angrily.
- Die, you can stop faking sleep ! And then he looked at the drummer even more irately; And you, please take care of this before opening the door next time ! He said tapping Shinya’s crotch furtively, making the auburn blush and jump a bit, letting out a gasp of surprise.
Kyo looked at their guitarist, who was now propped up on his elbow, looking quite uncomfortable. He sighed and turned his back to his friends, taking his leave rapidly. Shinya brought his hands to his face and let out a deep and shaky sigh.
- Shinchan… Die immediately got up, wrapping a blanket around him and walking to the younger man; Come here. He said, offering him his arms and guiding him to the bed to sit on. Don’t cry… He added as he saw the other kinda was trying to hold back some tears.
- I won’t, it’s ok… Shinya said raising his head a bit, taking a deep breath. He suddenly took Die’s chin in his hand and started to kiss him lovingly.
- Wait. the guitarist said standing up and walking to the door to shut and lock it this time. Better lock it this time, ne ? He added smiling brightly, making Shinya giggle a bit.
- Take this shirt off . The young man ordered removing his bathrobe.
- See the previous facts didn’t affect that much finally… Die teased walking to his bandmate and forcing him to lie on the bed.
- I want you to make your promise a success. The drummer said huskily, bringing his arms on the other‘s back and reaching to kiss him on the lips once more.

- Wow ! What’s the matter ?! Toshiya asked seeing the warumono coming back in their room briskly, looking rather furious.
- Nothing ! Everything's fucking perfect !
- What ? The bassist giggled.
Kyo sat on the bed and sighed heavily.
- You saw Shinya ?
- I did.
- What did you …
- That’s none of your business Totchi.
- Ok, ok… Toshiya said and went to another part of the room to pack his things; I’m sure you’re hiding things again but well. I'm used to it anyway.
The small man laughed and lit a cigarette.
- So are you…
- Do the 2 words « private » and « life » mean something to you ? Toshiya sighed.
- They do. Not when that's you we're talking about though. The vocalist chuckled. Kaoru isn’t gay Totchi… He added.
- He’s playing his role very well whatever the case may be… The bassist answered coldly, Kyo’s behaviour making him angrier and angrier every new second. He finished gathering his stuff and walked to his friend, looking at him really seriously .
- I’m with him.
Kyo laughed sarcastically in response.
- What’s so funny ? Toshiya immediately said louder .
- You’re so cute Totchi-chan… The blonde answered taking a drag of his cancer stick.
- Stop mocking me for a second ! I’m serious ! That’s not the first time we did it; this is really deep Kyo ! The younger yelled.
- His girlfriend wouldn’t appreciate.
- You’re disgusting !
- Thank you. the warumono answered smiling mischievously.
Suddenly, the bassist took his bags and walked to the door angrily, saying his last words before leaving - It’s time to go, don’t be late !
Kyo giggled a bit and then sighed, letting his body fall on the bed to calm down a bit. Even if he didn’t seem to be so, he was stressed out. He somehow spent his nerves on the poor Totchi… But he wasn’t lying about Kaoru’s girlfriend though; he really did have one, and so was cheating on her and their bassist at the same time. I should talk to him a bit about this… Kyo thought.

- I hate him… Toshiya muttered, walking angrily in the hallway of the hotel, meeting a certain guitarist on his way.
- Hi sweetie ! Kaoru spoke, a broad smile on his lips .
- Fuck you ! the bassist instantaneously answered in a near shout, keeping on walking without looking at his bandmate.
- Huh ?
- And don’t fucking ask me why !! Toshiya added pointing at the guitarist without turning to face him, still. He almost ran to his drummer’s room then and roughly hit the door with anger with one of his bags, though the poor Shinya didn’t do anything to him.
- Shinya !! He screamed ; Get your cute little ass out of your fucking bed and hurry !! We’re late already!
- Yeeees ! Shinya cried out in a way too much pleased manner considering the way Toshiya just talked to him ; but the bassist didn’t pay attention to it and just shook his head a bit, now walking down the stairs, leaving a very puzzled Kaoru in the corridor behind him.

- How does he know you do have a cute little ass ? Die teased smiling impishly, still pushing into his friend repeatedly.
- He… screwed me…once…! Shinya answered eyes closed in pleasure, difficultly trying to speak correctly .
- What ?? The guitarist said thrusting harder without warning. He isn’t supposed to say such things when I’m fucking him !!
The drummer moaned louder, feeling his bandmate brush his length over his prostate with every single movement.
- Don’t be… So harsh… He started panting loudly; I was just… Joking… The younger man brought his hand behind the other’s neck and pulled him down to kiss him before he could even say something.
Die whined a bit and broke off the kiss, concentrating on his thrusts again. He couldn’t help but feel a bit sad thinking of the way Shinya was apparently seeing their so fresh and new; but real nonetheless; relationship. For him that wasn’t friendship at all anymore , but he really didn’t know how Shinya felt about it.
- Shinya… He moaned feeling a lot more at ease than earlier. He wasn’t as excited as he was first and could handle the situation a bit more.
- Yeah… The drummer answered, totally lost in his personal pleasure.
- …I think I love you . He tried, looking straight at the other.
- Oh my God ! Shinya cried out and suddenly came, arching his back and staining his and Die’s chest with white strands of cum.
The sight made the guitarist come almost simultaneously, moaning out his bandmate’s name, collapsing on his body quite heavily. Shinya moaned one last time and sighed, closing his eyes and trying to bring his breath back to normal.
Seeing his friend wasn't moving at all and stayed completely silent, Die raised his upper body a bit and claimed Shinya’s lips one more time. First the other didn’t respond and the guitarist started to doubt a bit, wondering if he wasn’t being too optimistic about his love life again.
But soon he felt a hand reach his cheek and another move behind his neck , and a pair of sweet and swollen lips caress his.
- Hm… Shinya moaned and quickly broke of the kiss before it could be deeper. We should get clean if we don’t wanna be late… He whispered and slowly got out off the bed, leaving a quite confused Die laying there wordless.
He headed towards the bathroom and once he closed the door behind him, sighed deeply, closing his eyes. His hands reached his cheeks and, as he'd thought, they were burning.
- Damn … He whispered squeezing his eyes shut as if it really could help him making the blush on his face go away.
He took a deep breath and decided to focus on something else, walking to the shower stall, thinking a cold one could be helping and somehow relaxing for him. They didn’t have much time but well, he wouldn’t be too long.
As he heard the shower being switched on, Die raised a brow .
- What the hell he’s doing ? He said out loud starting to look for clothes and cleaning his chest and abdomen with the shirt he was wearing earlier, not really thinking of what he was doing.
He then threw it to a random corner of the room, not caring about the fact someone would find it later.
- What are you doing damnit ?! He suddenly said looking at the bathroom door angrily.
Shinya heard, but didn’t respond . He nervously brought his hand to his cheeks again and felt a bit sad at the other’s reaction. He knew it; he didn’t answer his friend’s previous statement. Not for the moment.
- ‘We should get clean if we don’t wanna be late’…! Die said lowly, imitating Shinya’s voice and making a mocking face while stuffing his things in his bags.
Suddenly, he realized he no longer was hearing the shower and saw an awkward looking Shinya coming out of the room, a long towel wrapped around him. He didn’t look at Die and grabbed some clothes , quickly going to the bathroom once more and locking himself in.
The guitarist felt more and more stupid, this was so odd. As if Shinya wasn’t even able to show himself naked right before him just after the night they spent…. He shrugged his shoulders a bit and finished dressing up; not caring about his hair ; and sat on the bed, waiting for the drummer to come back .

- Finally ! He said five good minutes later, earning a quite surprised look from the younger man.
- Sorry… He simply stated, quickly going to his bags and collecting his things before leaving too. Die used this to speak again.
- So… He started off.
- What ?
- Suppose you’re not going to answer me, ever … He said somehow sadly.
- Die, I…
- It’s ok ! I’m not asking you to say something.
- Die … Shinya repeated a bit more firmly; You don’t even let me the chance to say something.
The red-haired boy felt his heart jump hard in his chest. He quickly turned to face the drummer. Shinya blushed hard. It was far more easier to speak to someone’s who’s not looking at you.
- I… Actually… He began titling his head a bit.
The guitarist was about to say something a quite loud noise made him jump . He turned to the direction he thought the sound came from.
- Ah. An apparently still angry Kyo stated firmly holding the knob of the door he just slammed open; You’re still here ? Do you know we’re waiting for the both of you till 20 good minutes now !? he almost yelled.
Shinya froze, he didn’t think their vocalist would suddenly appear out of nowhere to interrupt them -again-, so he blushed without any real reason. Die saw it, and felt a bit sorry, a bit sad too, cause his friend was apparently trying to speak just before the little angry blond came ;or maybe rushed; in.
- Be there in the 3 next minutes or I’ll be forced to say Kao we need a new guitarist and drummer ! he growled , taking his leave and kicking the wall on his left .
Shinya nodded quickly and mumbled something Die didn’t quite get, but he didn’t really mind, he was going to ask his friend about the whole situation later, maybe in the van if he could .

Sadly it all didn’t turn the way the guitarist wanted it to, and he was sitting just between Kyo and Kaoru, at the back of the van. Shinya, he, was in the front with Toshiya , looking rather bored and tired.
Anyone really seemed to wanna say something, Toshiya was listening to his music looking at the scenery by the window, sometimes sighing. Kaoru looked a bit preoccupied… And Kyo… Die didn’t want to think about it at all. He was almost glaring at him constantly for the first hour of the trip, making him feel extremely uncomfortable. After another hour or so, someone decided to speak nonetheless.
- Ano… Kaoru said quite lowly, looking at Toshiya; Totchi…
- What ? Toshiya answered immediately, proving he wasn’t paying much attention to the music he was supposed to listen to since the beginning of the journey .
Kaoru froze a bit at his friend coldness, but tried to say something clever in reply .
- Is there… A problem with me ? Was all he could manage to ask.
Kyo let out a sarcastic chuckle and shook his head. Neither of the bassist and the leader appreciated it and both threw him a quite icy look. The vocalist didn’t considered it at all and just kept on smiling sarcastically at the situation.
Die sighed mentally and rolled his eyes a bit, suddenly trying to see if Shinya was looking at him or not; in the best case he maybe could have been able to get a smile or something that could make him happier and most of all, relaxed.
And Just as he was thinking , the drummer was looking at them, quite discreetly but he was. Maybe he thought he, too, that he would look back at him and earn a little something to cheer him on a bit. Die smiled shyly to Shinya who returned the gesture without anyone noticing.
- Don’t tell me you don’t know ! Toshiya argued answering his leader’s question not looking at him anymore.
- But I swear I don’t know why you’re pouting like this ! Kaoru responded making a terrible face, contorted between angriness, frustration and some kind of astonishment .
- Oh shut up ! Toshiya screamed slapping his own thighs with anger .
Die suddenly bent forward and grabbed the back of Shinya’s seat, shifting a bit so he could bring his head next to the drummer’s. Toshiya seemed surprised but didn’t say a thing, keeping on screaming at Kaoru without looking at him. Kyo on his side didn’t appreciate the movement but he couldn’t stop Die from talking to Shinya just because it didn‘t please him.
- Hello… Die said lowly, looking straight at Shinya on his left .
The drummer blushed slightly and smiled, not really knowing what to say . He nodded his head a bit, and kept on looking at his guitarist, completely silent. Even if it could have been embarrassing, Die didn’t feel like this at all; he could be staying there the whole trip, looking at his friend without saying anything. But the other would start to wonder a bit probably.
Shinya suddenly opened his mouth but no words came out. He felt a bit more awkward, having Die so close to him like this… It was so hard to hold back his desire; he so wanted to kiss him right now !
- I… He finally managed to form a word.
- No need to be so shy. the older whispered, smiling .
After another moment of silence, Die added something.
- What about you come to mine tonight ? He said extremely lowly, in order to keep their conversation secret.
Shinya blushed harder at the mention of the night.
- I dunno … He answered quickly, widening his eyes a bit and locking his glance on his knees, where his hands were firmly gripped. I prefer you--
- Would you mind get back to your seat, Die ?! I’m a bit tired of facing your ass ! Kyo suddenly said, cutting his drummer off.
The redhead turned back a bit to see a very pissed off vocalist. He grimaced slightly and chose to sit back, not really wanting to confront their short, but redoubtable vocalist. Shinya stiffened a bit on his side, rather surprised by his friend’s words, even if he should be used to it by now.
An embarrassing silence took place then, Toshiya and Kaoru having been ending their argument since quite a time now. Kyo on his side decided it would be a lot funnier if he didn’t utter a word and kept on staring at the guitarist during the whole trip.
The only thing that could be heard were various sighs, mostly coming from Shinya and Totchi, who were both worried and affected by their situations. The bassist didn’t know what to do at all, If his leader did have a girlfriend then he couldn’t keep on seeing him like this. Or maybe I should try to find a way to make her leave him ? He thought a quite satisfied smile slowly spreading on his lips. The drummer saw it and didn’t get it at all. Wasn’t he supposed to be… Angry ?
He shook his head a bit and looked at the roof of the van absentmindedly. Not long after he realized they weren’t moving anymore and that the car was standing on a road that looked quite familiar to him.
- You’re finally home Shinchan ! Kyo said not sounding so happy.
The drummer turned to look at his 3 friends at the back of the van and widened his eyes realizing he was indeed home.
- What’s the matter ? Kaoru asked, arching a brow.
- Oh, um… Nothing ! Shinya said suddenly regaining a bit of self control. An idea quickly formed into his mind and he voiced it almost while thinking. Ne, Die; get out of here and grab your bags ! he said casually, getting out of the van.
- Huh ? Die responded looking rather taken aback.
- Didn’t you say you wanted to see what Yuyu was looking like ?
- Yuyu ? Toshiya said giggling. Who’s ‘Yu-yu’ ?
- You gave Miyu a new name …? The purple haired guitarist asked, chin resting in his right hand . He was looking utterly bored.
For once Shinya didn’t blush even though totally assaulted by various questions, and quickly responded. - Yuyu is Miyu’s baby ! Aren't you listening to what I’m saying when I come to practice ?
- Oh Yuyu ! Die suddenly spoke again trying to sound like he had been forgetting; Yep, let’s go and see Yuyu then ! He said happily and got off the van, smiling broadly to Shinya.
They quickly grabbed their bags and headed towards the drummer’s house, Die being unable to keep his eyes away from his frail friend the whole time.
Once they reached the entry door, Shinya slowly and carefully put his bags on the floor to look for his keys when he felt his guitarist’s arms enveloping him and his body being pulled against another.
- D…Die… He whispered arms stuck between his and the other’s chest.
He awkwardly removed them to put them around his friend’s waist, and gently leaned into the hug, resting his head on the guitarist’s shoulder; Sorry for having bringing you here without permission… He whispered, chuckling. Die chuckled as well .
- I love you. He said for the second time of the day, this time hoping he would get answer. He hugged Shinya even tighter.
- I … Shinya began, taking a deep breath; I think I do, too… He shyly said and tried to hold his friend closer and tighter too.
Even though this wasn’t really what he'd wished, Die smiled to himself and moved back a bit, facing Shinya. He slowly brought his hands to the other’s face and leaned forward to kiss him. The drummer almost simultaneously closed his eyes and accepted the gesture with quite much enthusiasm, moaning a bit at the simple feeling of having his friend against him. The guitarist suddenly broke off the kiss and smiled at his drummer fondly.
- I’m not sure they will believe I really wanted to see Yuyu… He giggled.
- I don’t care . Shinya answered happily, bringing his hands behind the other’s neck to pull him forward and crush their lips together again.

- AHAH !! I told you he wasn’t really there to see Shin’s puppies ! Toshiya said victoriously , discreetly trying to watch their two bandmates through the windows of the van, parked a few meters away but far enough for Die and Shinya not to notice.
- Damn it Totchi I told you I knew they were together ! Kyo added, rolling his eyes .
Kaoru snickered a bit sarcastically. He didn’t really care about other’s love life.
- Shut up. Toshiya addressed him.
- Pardon ?
- Please Kao, shut up… He sighed as if hearing Kaoru’s voice was the most annoying thing in the world.
- Stop spying on Shinya for a second !
- I’m spying Die.
- Well stop spying on them …
- Stop seeing your girlfriend.
- Huh ??
This time Kyo laughed. A short silence followed and the leader suddenly relaxed, realizing what the other just meant.
- Ah…So this is why you were pouting… He said grinning.
- I don’t see what’s so funny ! He moped.
- Ok, I will; Kaoru immediately answered, without wondering even a single second; But only if you do something in return.
- Like what ? Toshiya said sounding disgusted, but was really interested though. His plan; as simple as it was; was apparently working quite well.
- Stop spending nights with Shinya right there and then…
Toshiya blushed hard and adverted his eyes, thinking of the right thing to answer to that. How did he get to know…? he thought before speaking again.
- Ok, Ok ! But you’ll have to tell me how the hell you got to learn such things ! He said now smirking, awkwardly leaving his seat and moving towards Kaoru to sit on his lap and straddle him, holding his chin in his hands, immediately darting his tongue out to lick at the other’s lips.
- Yerk… Kyo growled making a face. Go get a room ! He muttered, leaving the two at the back of the van , moving to sit next to the driver.
- Hope it won't take too much time to reach one of those horny bastard’s apartments… He growled once more and not so gently slap the driver’s thigh to urge him on driving away.
- I don’t think so… The man answered a bit bashfully, immediately starting to drive, making the two musicians loosing balance at the back of the van due to the unexpected movement.
- Hey !! Toshiya yelled .
- This time, you shut up please ! Kyo said angrily, making random movements with his hands.
- I do what I want !
- Hm. Kyo burbled. Ne, Totchi, wanna know something about our dear leader ?
- Don’t tease me again…
- I'm not teasing… He sighed; But did he introduce Kumiko to you already ?
- Ku…miko …? Toshiya repeated, gazing at Kaoru suspiciously as he didn’t get any reaction from him.
- Who the hell is Kumiko ?! He then shouted, getting off the other’s lap ; Hope this is not another of your numerous girlfriends !? He added, folding his arms on his chest.
- Actually… Kaoru started off somehow shyly.
- Actually what ??
- She’s only three ! The vocalist took word grinning madly, waiting for their bassist's reaction.
Toshiya’s eyes went extremely wide and he slowly turned his head to Kaoru. He stayed silent for some seconds.
- Toshiya…? The purple-haired guitarist said quite awkwardly, waving his hand in front of his face as to wake him up.
- I don't wanna see you ever again !! He screamed in response and started kicking and hitting the poor boy, making the vocalist burst out laughing.
- But Totchi… Wait !
- Wait what ?! You’ve got a daughter and I don’t even know it !? What the hell is going on in this band !? You decided I would be the only one who doesn’t deserve to know what's going on in your life !? That is so ?! He continued yelling, torturing their leader mercilessly.
Kyo continued to laugh, watching and liking every second of it. He so loved making people’s life a mess. He should try it with another two persons …
- Well… He turned a bit and looked at the driver innocently. Know something that could make Shinya and Die break up ?

*The End*

Semichan's Last comment : Oh my, so many blushing in that fic … (and so many childish reactions!) O.o Well, let me know what you thought of this ….'thing' that first fic was. Thx for reading !
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