Until You Lose Your Breath II | By : theProphet Category: > Kyo/Kaoru Views: 1783 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0 |
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CHAPTER 11
The next day at studio was very tense, but they managed to end the day without any more conflicts. The week ended and the mood seemed to gradually get better. Toshiya still ignored Die even while talking about work, but he started to talk to Shinya again and Kaoru was glad even for this. When Friday came, Kaoru perhaps for the first time in his life was glad that the work for that week was over. He and Kyo went home to spend time together.
Die was the first to leave the studio as always and seeing this Shinya sighted. He somehow expected that Die would try to get his forgiveness, to try and soften Shinya’s heart. But Die ignored Shinya, he seemed to even be afraid to look at the drummer now and it was driving Shinya crazy. Shinya didn’t know if he would be able to forgive him, but the fact that Die wasn’t even trying to win Shinya back was even more painful. Shinya couldn’t understand such Die’s behavior. He even envied the fact that Miyavi came back to Toshiya declaring that he wanted him back and wasn’t going to give up.
Shinya sighted and went home himself. He felt tears gathering at his eyes again.
* I love you so much Die… what should I do? Why don’t you come home? All your things are there, at my place… why don’t you come home and say you want me? Why?*
Shinya sobbed and tried to clean the tears from his face but in vein. He dreaded coming home. There were all Die’s things: his favorite cd’s, books, all his clothes, tooth brush and other things. Even pictures of Shinya were standing at Die’s bedside. Shinya now had just an empty space in the bed and a picture of a smiling Die on the table near the bed.
***
Toshiya stopped walking when he saw a familiar figure at his doorstep. It was Miyavi again. But Toshiya couldn’t turn back, it was his home, so he gulped and went up to him.
-What do you want? –Toshiya asked not letting Miyavi even say hi.
-I wanted to see you, -Miyavi smiled. –This is for you, -he added and gave Toshiya a rose.
-I don’t need anything from you, -Toshiya glared at him. –I want to go home so leave.
-Can I come in?
-No! Of course not!
-Oh, Totchi, but I miss you so much… please, let me in just for a cup of tea!
-No! –Toshiya felt like crying. –Can’t you hear me?! Why do you keep torturing me? It’s over between us!
-No, Totchi, don’t say that! I love you! I can’t be without you!
Toshiya felt he was already crying again. He pushed roughly Miyavi aside and quickly unlocked the door. Then he slipped in and closed the door.
-Totchi, please, let me in!
-No! Go away!
-I won’t go anywhere until you let me in!
-Then you can sleep on the doormat if you want it so much! I don’t care! –Toshiya kicked off his shoes and ran to his bed. He fell on top of it and started crying.
In the morning he found a rose at his door. He wanted to throw it away, but ended up putting it on the table and crying there again.
***
Next week they started to work on a new album. After some days Kaoru finally arranged several concerts in various cities of Japan. They were going to work on a new album and at the same time perform live as much as possible. No wonder that suddenly there were lots of things to be done and Kaoru started to work twice harder than usual. Now he even brought papers home and worked there leaving Kyo on his own.
Kyo had his own things to do. Toshiya called him often and asked to come over and stay for the night. Shinya also invited him for dinner frequently. Kyo tried his best to help his friends, but he was getting tired of all this. He knew that it was all up to Shinya and Toshiya to decide. But it seemed that they both were unable to firmly say ‘it’s over’ as well as to forgive.
Kyo slumped on the couch at his living room and sighted. Kaoru didn’t even hear him. He was concentrating on some sheet music. Again.
-Kao!
-Hm? –Kaoru didn’t look at Kyo but kept listing the papers.
-It’s Sunday evening. Maybe you should rest?
-I haven’t finished yet.
-But you need to rest.
-I have to finish this first.
Kyo stood up and came closer to Kaoru. He then put his arms on Kaoru’s shoulders and put his cheek against Kaoru’s hair.
-I want you to fuck me senseless… -he whispered. –I’m so horny today that I can’t stop thinking about your hot hard manhood slamming roughly into me over and over again…
Kaoru stiffened at hearing that and stopped writing.
-Um… That sounds like a lot of fun, but…
Kyo tightened a hold on Kaoru and kissed his ear lightly biting on it.
-Go to bed and wait for me, I’ll try to finish it as soon as I can…
Kyo smiled and went to the bedroom. He took a quick shower and lied in bed with the smile on his face. He didn’t notice how he fell asleep. But when he opened his eyes, it was dark. Kyo turned and saw Kaoru sleeping near him. For a minute Kyo was confused but then saw a clock on the table – it was almost four in the morning.
So he fell asleep while waiting and apparently Kaoru didn’t finish as soon as Kyo hoped. And when he finally finished his work, it was already late in the night.
Kyo turned his back to Kaoru and tried to fall asleep again.
***
Kaoru entered the studio. He was late and he looked tired and worried.
-Hey everyone, -Kaoru greeted and only then looked around.
-Where’s Kyo? –he asked.
-What do you mean? –Toshiya asked. –Who’s living with him?
-He didn’t come? –Kaoru asked again.
-No. Did something happen? –Shinya sounded worried.
Kaoru was not sure. He wanted to go to Kyo that night, but when he finally was done, it was almost one o’clock at night and he found Kyo already asleep. In the morning Kaoru woke up to find his bed empty and Kyo was not at home at all. He tried to call him, but Kyo didn’t pick up. Kaoru thought Kyo was angry and left for work early. But he was not here.
-Kaoru? –Shinya tried to get his attention.
-Nothing really happened, -he started slowly. –I just…
-What did you do? –Toshiya inquired. –Why Kyo’s not here?
But at that moment the doors opened and Kyo entered the room. Everyone saw straight away that Kyo had done a new tattoo. Actually, he had completed his tattoo on his right hand. Now both his hands were with tattoos up to his wrists. And also he removed all the piercings except the ones in his ears.
Kaoru stared at Kyo in disbelief. It’s not that Kaoru didn’t like Kyo’s tattoos. He himself had one on his right hand, but it were just some words tattooed on his hand. It was cool to have one if you wanted to be a real rock star. But he never thought Kyo would do more of them.
-Kyo, why did you do it so suddenly? –Kaoru asked.
-Why do you care?
-What’s that supposed to mean?
-I’m surprised you even noticed.
Kaoru frowned but told himself to calm down. After all, it was his fault that Kyo was angry with him.
-I’m sorry, Kyo. I didn’t mean for it to turn out like that yesterday. I got carried away and forgot.
-Forgot? You forgot me?
-No, not you!
-Yes, you forgot me! You prefer working that having sex with me!
The other three members of the band suddenly got uncomfortable hearing this. It was a couple’s fight.
-Why is it so important to you? Can’t you live without it for a while?
-Look who’s talking! –Kyo was furious now. –Should I remind you why you left me the first time?! It was because I couldn’t let you fuck me! You were the one who left me because of sex! And now you’re asking me why I can’t live without it?!
-You’re right. I’m sorry. But it’s very responsible time for us. We must focus on work because so much depends on how we manage to work now.
-But you haven’t touched me for weeks! I knew this was going to happen! I knew I should have never agreed to be in this stupid band again! You value Dir En Grey more than me!!! I hate it!!!
-Kyo, stop shouting and calm down. These things that you say are not true. Just because I’m so busy it doesn’t mean I don’t love you. I’m so tired all the time I can barely take a shower in the evening. As much as I would like to make love to you, I’m afraid that I wouldn’t even get it up. Kyo, it’s just the beginning that’s hard. When we’ll be in the spot light again, everything’s going to be as it was and we’ll have lots of time again to spend together.
Kaoru tried not to look at his friends while talking these private things. He was embarrassed but making Kyo understand him was more important than his pride. He couldn’t understand why Kyo was so insecure about Kaoru’s feelings. Kaoru loved him.
-Yeah, whatever… -Kyo turned and took out a cigarette.
-Kyo, now tell me why did you do a tattoo without talking about it with me first?
-Do I have to get your permission? I just felt like getting a tattoo and feeling some pain without being called a masochist.
-Kyo…
-This is pointless, -Kyo cut him off. –Let’s start working.
Kaoru didn’t want to leave things like that, but he also didn’t want to argue in front of the others, so he kept silent. But after work when they were going home and Kyo was still silent, Kaoru got worried. But he understood that thinking that Kyo would just forget everything was stupid. Kyo was always stubborn.
-Kyo…
-Hm?
-I’m sorry for yesterday. I really am…
Kyo didn’t say anything, but just sighted.
-So what if you are sorry? That day will still be like it was, it will not change, so will the memory of that day.
-Kyo… Please, just forgive me and forget it. I love you and I don’t want to fight with you…
-You should have thought about it before forgetting your promise to me! You don’t want me any more! You haven’t touched me for weeks! Did you get bored of me or did I suddenly become unattractive? Huh? Which one is it?
Kyo barely kept himself from crying and he didn’t look at Kaoru while talking. But as the car suddenly stopped and he felt Kaoru grab his hand, Kyo turned to look at him.
-Kyo, don’t ever talk like that again! You are the most beautiful creature on earth! I love you so much… I desire you so badly… And I will never ever get bored with you, don’t even think I ever could…
Kaoru kissed Kyo on the lips and slowly Kyo gave up and answered the kiss. But as he felt that Kaoru was trying to undo his jeans, he had to break the kiss.
-What are you doing?
-I’m trying to get you out of those pants.
-Kaoru, we’re…
-Where? Look around – we’re in an empty street that barely has a house with windows, nobody will see us…
And after saying this, Kaoru undid Kyo’s pants and tried to slide them down, but Kyo still was not giving in.
-Kaoru, stop it! Anybody might come here!
But Kaoru didn’t listen and Kyo got scared. It wasn’t like him to forget where they were and risk being caught! It wasn’t like Kaoru at all!
Kaoru quickly managed to slide Kyo’s pants until Kyo’s knees and then he did the same with Kyo’s boxers. Kaoru was already breathing hard and Kyo could feel with his thighs Kaoru’s hard member. Then Kaoru bent down the passenger’s seat so that Kyo now appeared in an almost lying position. Kaoru turned Kyo so that Kyo would lie on his stomach now, with his legs a bit spread.
-Kaoru, stop this, it is insane, -Kyo tried still to reason with him. But as he said that, Kaoru grabbed Kyo’s penis and whispered:
-But it is so clear that you want this as well, Kyo… You’re so hard…
Kaoru then undid his pants and slid them down with his boxers.
-Why does it always has to be the way you want? –Kyo hissed. –Why can’t you ever do it when I want it! Why can’t you ever fuck me when I want to be fucked, not when you want to fuck me!
It seemed that Kaoru didn’t hear him. Kyo felt wet fingers being pressed to his opening and then they entered him. It was still too dry and it wasn’t very comfortable.
-Kaoru… -Kyo whispered, -I don’t want this right now…
To Kyo’s surprise the fingers were withdrawn and Kyo could no longer feel another body pressing to him. He turned back and saw Kaoru looking at him strangely.
-You don’t want this? You don’t want me? –Kaoru asked silently. –Have you been fucking with Toshiya when you stay over for a night with him?! Or maybe with Shinya?!
-What?! Are you mad?!
-Tell me the truth! TELL ME!
Despite the fact that Kaoru was screaming and looking angry, sadness was clearly seen in his eyes. Kyo looked at him in disbelief.
-What is it with you, Kaoru? Why are you acting like this?
-Kyo… is it true? Tell me?
-What true? Are you… are you serious?
It looked like Kaoru was going to say something, but suddenly he hugged Kyo, clinging to his chest.
-No… no, I’m not… I know you would never do that… Kyo, I’m sorry… But I love you so much and I want you so badly…
Kyo sighted and stroked Kaoru’s head, threading his fingers in Kaoru’s hair. Then he pushed Kaoru from him and lied on his stomach again. When Kaoru didn’t do anything, he turned to look at him.
-I’m not going to wait for you forever, I’m hard right now…
Kaoru hesitated just for a second. He grabbed Kyo’s hip with one hand and with the other helped himself to enter Kyo. Then without any other preparations he now was holding Kyo’s hips with both of his hands and started to move inside of his lover. It quickly ended in hard, rough slamming into Kyo’s opening, as much as the lack of space allowed. Kyo was breathing hard and trying to help himself with one hand, while he tried to keep his balance with the other.
Kaoru roughly slammed into Kyo, his rhythm getting quicker and quicker until he released himself inside of Kyo. With a sight he lie on top of Kyo breathing hard, feeling exhausted.
-Kaoru…
-Yes?
-I’m still not done…
Kaoru blinked and then watched as Kyo turned to lie on his back. Kyo was still hard as stone down there. Kaoru took Kyo into his hand and started jerking him off until Kyo finally reached his orgasm too. Then Kaoru sat back in his driver’s seat breathing hard.
-Are you still mad at me? –he asked Kyo.
-I don’t know. I’m too tired to be mad right now…
Kaoru chuckled and turned to look at Kyo.
-Kyo… I’m sorry for accusing you of those stupid things… I know you would never cheat on me with any of them. I’m just getting paranoid these days…
-You should take some days off, I think, Kaoru. You’ve been working too hard lately.
-I know, but I can’t. There are lots of things to do, but…
-What?
-The only thing that bothers me now the most is that we argue so much lately…
-Well, mostly it’s your fault, -Kyo shot back.
-Kyo, you can’t say this! You know you’re difficult to deal with sometimes!
-What does that mean?
-I just don’t want you to start blaming only me. You should also take responsibility. Kyo…
-What?
-I’m sorry for yesterday, I really am…
-I forgive you, Kao-kun…
Kaoru bent to kiss Kyo and smiled in the kiss as he felt Kyo kiss him back.
-I hate it when we fight, -Kyo whispered.
-Me too… I love you, Kyo. I love you very much…
Kyo smiled happily, he still didn’t get bored of hearing this.
-I love you too.
-Well, we should get moving just in case…
-Ha! Your leader-sama attitude is back! I almost whish somebody saw us and took photos of us going at it. And tomorrow these photos would be all over the newspapers!
-KYO! Are you mad?!
Kyo just laughed.
-Wouldn’t it be entertaining? And we wouldn’t have to hide anymore!
-Kyo! I just pretend I haven’t heard any of this!
Looking frustrated, Kaoru pulled his pants on and started driving again. Kyo still lay on his seat looking smug.
-I just had to be fucked, you know? –he said after some time. –Then I’d be a lot easier to handle.
-I’ll have that in mind, -Kaoru chuckled smiling inwardly to himself that the old sarcastic Kyo was back. As they were finally driving into their car park near the house, Kyo was already dozing. Kaoru looked gently at him feeling happy that yesterday’s conflict was finally resolved.
TBC
One more chapter :) Still a lot to go >_<
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