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Okay I’m not crazy! But maybe Chris is? And again for those of you who are Karrueche’s fans… read with caution!
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Love… Chapter 5
Rihanna lay sprawled out on her hotel bed approximately one week after her vacation with Chris. She went to New York City to finish her clothing line with Armani, shoot her commercial with Vita Coco coconut water, and to visit her manager’s newborn daughter.
She clutched her BlackBerry in her palm and followed his Twitter page, fuming at the pictures and videos of him and his high-priced escort living it up in Cancun, Mexico!
“He’s acting like weren’t together last week! This nigga’s fowl as shit!” The pop star hollered out in anger.
Her best friend Melissa sat next to her on the bed and snatched the songstress’ phone from her. Turning it off she said, “You know Chris is a fuck nigga! I don’t even know why you give him the time of day!”
Snatching her BlackBerry back from her best friend’s hands, Rihanna turned on the phone again and replied, “It’s because I love him, y’know that.” She pulled up her knees and rested her forehead on them. She was ready to cry again when she thought about their peaceful, sublime vacation, then Chris ruining it by saying that he didn’t want to be with her anymore. He was going to dedicate his time to his girlfriend.
Rihanna has been an emotional wreck for a week and things were only getting worse. She tried calling and texting Chris, but to no avail. He ignored her Direct Messages on Twitter, so the only way she felt she could communicate her feelings to him was by tweeting song lyrics and quotes that fit her situation.
@rihanna: Dry cry, even tears…even my heart cries, but who cares?! Whose fault? No one, but myself!
@rihanna: RT @Notebook: Protect her, fight for her, kiss her,love her, hold her, laugh with her. BUT dont make her fall if you dont plan 2 catch her.
After she sent her message to her followers, she replayed the video of her and Chris in the bathtub on their last night in Fiji. The tears that she desperately was holding back finally came pouring down her face, staining the jeans she was wearing.
“Chris…? I asked you a question. I wanted to know how you feel.”
“I love you. Remember tha’.”
Finally looking at her best friend again once the video ended, Rihanna wiped her eyes and asked, “Mel tell me something. How can a man say he loves you, but treats you like shit?”
Seeing the songstress’ distraught face tore at Melissa’s heartstrings. Rihanna’s once gorgeous eyes were red, puffy, and swollen. Her cheeks were stained with dry, crusted tears as new ones rolled down them. Her hair was in disarray and her usual clear skin was acne-prone. In short, the pop star looked a hot mess. And for what? It was all over the lies, bullshit, and games that her ex-boyfriend was playing.
Melissa thought about her words carefully because she didn’t want to upset Rihanna more than Chris already has. She tried to come up with a more… tactful response to her best friend’s question, but nothing came to mind. So she just decided to tell her best friend the truth.
“It’s because you allow him to do it, Rih.” Unfortunately it was the truth. Melissa knew that Rihanna knew that no man will treat a woman any kind of way unless she allows him to do so. Melissa thought about how Chris treated his current girlfriend, The Doormat as she affectionately calls her because her boyfriend tends to walk over her.
Karrueche didn’t care if Chris slept with other women. She didn’t care about the relationship Chris and Rihanna had for several months now. She told TMZ that she and Chris were in an open relationship only moments after the releases of “Turn Up the Music (Remix)” and “Birthday Cake (Remix)”. Karrueche also admitted to TMZ that she doesn’t mind it when Chris would not call or visit her for up to seven days at a time.
Reading about all of that in the gossip blogs and tabloids made Melissa question Karrueche’s true motives for being with Chris. No self-respecting woman would tolerate a man openly cheating on her, unless there was something for that woman to gain. There was something for Karrueche to gain from being Chris’ girlfriend: fame.
Melissa continuously read about Karrueche being a “model” but never having worked for an actual modeling agency before. She wasn’t featured in any magazines, print ads, commercials, or videos. Then the truth came out that Chris’ girlfriend was actually an aspiring model.
And it all started to make sense to Melissa.
Being with Chris would almost guarantee Karrueche exposure and a modeling contract… almost. They’ve been dating for two years and still Karrueche remains unemployed. Nevertheless, Melissa supposed it didn’t matter anymore as long as Karrueche’s name remained in headlines—and it did—only followed by either Chris’ name or Rihanna’s. However as they say, “there’s no such thing as bad publicity” and Melissa knew that Chris’ girlfriend loved every bit of attention the media was showing her.
I wouldn’t be surprised if the opportunistic bitch tried to get on a reality TV show, Melissa thought dryly.
Looking at Rihanna caused Melissa to shake her head in pity. She was with Rihanna everyday during her tumultuous time in 2009. She encouraged the pop star to leave Chris alone for good after the February incident, but Rihanna couldn’t let go. They spent a romantic getaway in Miami at Diddy’s mansion to work on their relationship against the advice of everyone around her.
Melissa especially disapproved, but continued to support her best friend in whatever decision she made. Unlike Jay-Z, Melissa knew trying to control Rihanna’s actions would only make the star rebel even more. Some things a woman has to find out on her own, she remembered telling herself.
Surprisingly enough things started to get better for Chris and Rihanna, but the public heavily disapproved of their mini-reconciliation. Thinking about it now, she was glad that Chris and Rihanna were able to spend some quality time together after that night before the Grammys. With everything that was going to happen afterwards, Rihanna was in dire need of peace, and she got that for those few days with Chris in Miami before their teams and the law separated them.
Melissa recalled Jay-Z being on a rampage at that time and understandably so given the circumstances. However his anger bordered on obsession when it came to the lives of Rihanna and Chris Brown.
He made several payola deals with the biggest urban radio stations in the country to have Chris’ music banned. If that wasn’t enough, Jay-Z also got Chris banned from attending clubs and other venues to promote his music. If it wasn’t for the now-famous YouTube video of his fans dancing to “Forever” at their wedding, she believed Chris never would’ve gotten that call from Larry King to do his interview. That video alone managed to very slowly gain Chris some popularity on the positive side. At least his music was being played on radio stations again.
She wanted Chris to suffer for what he did to Rihanna, but Melissa didn’t want to see his life forever ruined. Or rather, Rihanna didn’t want to see Chris’ life ruined. Even in the midst of everything, there was no doubt to Melissa that her best friend was still deeply in love with her ex-boyfriend.
Love is indeed a funny thing.
Jay-Z worked overtime to repair Rihanna’s image and further ruin Chris’. He set up an interview with Oprah to discuss what happened, and in return Oprah and Tyra dedicated a show to the dangers of teen domestic violence. Throughout the hour-long segment, both iconic women bashed Chris repeatedly, further managing to turn the public against him.
Melissa didn’t mind it, but Rihanna wasn’t happy with the way things were happening. It wasn’t what she wanted, and Jay-Z knew this, but didn’t care. Looking back, Melissa could almost imagine her best friend’s manager taking a sick pride in knowing that he was hurting Rihanna by hurting Chris.
So every radio interview Rihanna did she spoke positively about Chris. She openly admitted to missing him and wanting the best for him. The pop star confided in Melissa saying that if people could see that she wasn’t angry or upset over the ordeal, then they wouldn’t be so hard towards Chris.
Boy was Rihanna wrong!
It pained Rihanna knowing that every time Chris went out in public that he would get cursed out by groups of women. People threw trash at him on the street when he did his community service and constantly reminded him that he was nothing more than a worthless woman-beater. Chris had involuntarily become the new face of domestic abuse offenders.
Jay-Z wouldn’t have it any other way.
Melissa also recalled Jay-Z doing everything to promote Rihanna. He released the song “Run This Town” featuring Kanye West and Rihanna which was well-received by the public. It made its way to number two on the Billboard Hot 100 and number one on the US Billboard Rap Songs chart. It was a step in the right direction to get Rihanna’s career back on track. The three artists even performed the song live on The Jay Leno Show. It was Rihanna’s first live performance since her incident with Chris.
It made Melissa happy in regards Rihanna returning to doing what she loved—music. That’s really what the pop star wanted everyone to focus on, her music and not her personal life. Unfortunately too many people were already invested in Rihanna’s personal life and Jay-Z knew this. He also knew how to capitalize from it as well.
He took complete control of Rihanna’s image, saying since she went through a tragedy that her image should portray that for her next album. Rihanna wanted to protest, but she knew that her words would fall on deaf ears. So she silently allowed herself to be manipulated and controlled by the strings like a puppet.
Her hair was dyed honey blonde with the majority shaved. She wore less clothing to produce a sexier image, and dark, haunting themes surrounded her entire image. Melissa didn’t approve any of it, but just like her best friend, she silently sat back and watched as everything unfolded.
Rihanna started posing nude; she released photos of her body wrapped in barbed wire and surrounded by chains, and her now-famous R emblem was shaped like a dagger. Melissa recalled in one photo, her best friend was topless and was using the emblem like a knife to slice her wrists.
That entire time was eerie and weird for both Caribbean natives, but Rihanna continued to play her role without protest.
With the much-anticipated release of her album Rated R, Melissa supposed all of the dark imagery fit right into the album’s title. Truth be told, Rihanna wasn’t depressed or angry about what transpired nine months prior. However, the pop star deserved an Academy Award for Best Performance during her interview with Diane Sawyer on 20/20.
Two weeks before the release of her critically acclaimed album, Rihanna did her first public interview about what happened that night with Chris Brown. Before then she remained silent about the case. Partly was due to Jay-Z telling her that it wasn’t the right time to discuss it, the other part was simply because Rihanna didn’t want to discuss it.
However, Jay-Z felt that it was time to talk about what happened that night in the car. Against her intuition, Rihanna did just that.
Watching that interview gave Melissa an uneasy feeling. Even though she was still angry at Chris for hurting her best friend, she secretly commended Rihanna for being the bigger person and speaking positively about her ex-boyfriend. With 20/20 all of that changed in an instant.
To say Rihanna threw Chris Brown under the bus in that interview would be an understatement. Rihanna used that interview to completely bash Chris while promoting herself as the face of domestic abuse victims. It was all because of the advice Jay-Z gave her. Inside the pop star knew that it was wrong, but her career was starting to get back on track with her hit single, “Russian Roulette” and she needed the promotion. And the interview was just that—for promotional purposes only!
“This will not turn out good,” Melissa spoke while watching the interview in her home.
It seemed Rihanna tried to rectify her previous statements about Chris when she told Diane that she believed he could change if he wanted to, and that in the future she didn’t know if she and Chris would be romantically involved again but cherished what they had.
Unlike the rest of the world, Melissa knew that Rihanna wanted nothing more than to reunite with Chris again, but just like a puppet, she allowed Jay-Z to pull the strings on her career at the time.
And like lambs to the slaughter people ate it up. When Rated R debuted, it produced Rihanna’s highest first-week album sells of her career at that time. Critics gave it the utmost praise, reveling in the dark theme of the album.
Melissa felt like it was mainly women who were battered and bruised that supported the album. She knew her best friend wasn’t a role model—she only wanted to make music for people to enjoy, not police an entire nation of kids! Nevertheless the damage was done. Now whether the pop star liked it or not, she had a responsibility to children everywhere.
One thing was truthful about the interview, Rihanna didn’t want to see anyone hurt because of the decisions she made in her life. Yet she also wanted the freedom to make certain choices in her life without the world constantly nitpicking about every little thing she did.
In other words the choice was simple but not really for Rihanna: choose her career or choose true love.
At the age of 21 Rihanna made the choice that most 21-year-olds would’ve, but inside she still yearned for the blackballed R&B singer. Well, her career wasn’t a choice she wanted to make; rather it was made for her.
Melissa knew in spite of the new dark, bad girl image her best friend showed the world, Rihanna had an idealistic, almost Harlequin romance novelistic view on love. She knew Rihanna believed it was a way to still have a successful career and to share that with the one she loved.
However the world was a cruel, cruel place and there wasn’t any room to harbor such foolish ideals! If the public had any say so, Chris Brown would either be in prison for the rest of his life, or dead in a grave. Either way, Rihanna wouldn’t be with him.
So it pained her best friend to have a successful career, while watching her ex-boyfriend’s crumble apart.
After the successful completion of Rihanna’s Last Girl on Earth tour, she started to take back the control of her image and album and thus Loud was created.
On the album Melissa noted that her best friend seemed much happier and her mind was at a peaceful place. The songs were upbeat, aside from her number one smash “Love the Way You Lie” with rapper Eminem, and fan-favorite “Man Down”, Rihanna was finally establishing her independence from Jay-Z. She even executive produced the album and when it debuted, it grossed the pop star’s highest first week sales of her career.
The following year when Chris Brown requested for the restraining order to be lifted, Rihanna hesitated. The people surrounding her urged her not to lift the restraining order. So she turned to Melissa for advice, and Melissa told her to do what she felt was right. “Don’t allow anyone else to make your decisions for you. It’s your life and you only get one to live.”
Happy at the thought of her and Chris possibly communicating after two years again, Rihanna while on her Loud tour, told her lawyer to lift the order.
The decision led to public outrage, but the songstress didn’t care. Gradually she was reclaiming her life and she was in control again.
Shortly after Chris’ outburst on Good Morning America, Rihanna followed him on Twitter and he followed her back. Soon after that they exchanged numbers and before either of them knew it, they rekindled their romance.
It was difficult with Chris having a girlfriend and being accepted into the spotlight again, but they would “coincidently” book rooms in the same hotels, have house parties at their friends’ houses and meet there, and she would visit him at his studio.
Melissa almost hoped that they would reunite but she knew the public wouldn’t allow it. Rihanna and Chris also knew the public wouldn’t want them to be together, but they tested the waters anyway.
In December 2011 they both publicly professed their love to each other on Twitter. In February 2012 they met during the Grammys rehearsals and he attended Rihanna’s Valentine’s Day birthday party. Perhaps the biggest shock to the world was when they each posted the remixes to their songs on Twitter featuring guest vocals from the other party. And on Rihanna’s 24th birthday no less!
The world was not enthused!
Tabloids, critics, domestic abuse advocates, fans, television and radio talk show hosts, and everyone else all voiced their disapproving opinion on Rihanna and Chris Brown working together musically. However their voices were met with deaf ears.
While “Turn Up the Music (Remix)” was remotely safe for audiences of all ages, “Birthday Cake (Remix)” was far more explicit of the two songs. Yet it’s also the most popular song between Rihanna and Chris Brown.
It’s been on the Billboard charts for five weeks and it’s already at number four on the US Hot R&B/Hip-Hop Songs chart and number thirty-nine on the US Billboard Hot 100 chart. It’s considered an amazing feat since there was no promotion for the single. There wasn’t (and will not be) a video for the song, and Def Jam records refuses to release the song officially on iTunes because of the featured guest vocalist.
Melissa knew none of this bothered Rihanna because she felt that she already proven her point. The song was widely accepted amongst her real fans, and despite her record label protesting her recording music with her ex-boyfriend, the song was well-received.
She even defended working with Chris Brown on Ryan Seacrest’s morning radio show, and Ryan understood and supported her decision. However journalists and bloggers purposefully misquoted the pop star and twisted her words into something sinister to support their hatred for not only Chris Brown, but Rihanna’s decision to work with him.
It was one person that was determined to stop Rihanna at all costs—her mentor and manager Jay-Z. He was so livid knowing that Rihanna not only secretly started dating Chris again for nearly a year, but she recorded not one, but two songs with him without his knowledge! Multiplatinum Young Money records rapper Drake wrote a song specifically for Rihanna, but Jay-Z took it and gave it to his new artist Rita Ora.
Shaking her head in disgust at the 42-year-old’s antics, Melissa was there to console her best friend who was clearly upset at her manager’s backstabbing ways. Even with Jay-Z threatening to replace Rihanna with Rita Ora wasn’t enough to make the pop star break off things with her ex-boyfriend.
Then things only got worse for the 24-year-old megastar.
Once she returned from her vacation, Rihanna was confronted by Jay-Z’s wife Beyoncé at her hotel. Beyoncé personally delivered Rihanna a message from her husband. Jay-Z was still too upset to speak to his protégé face-to-face. She told the young woman that if she remained involved with Chris Brown both personally and professionally, then she would no longer be able to see their daughter Blue Ivy.
Hearing Beyoncé and Jay-Z’s ultimatum made Melissa want to vomit in disgust! What loving parents in their right minds would use their own child to intimidate and control the life of another human being? Furthermore what does Blue have to do with any of this? She was only born this year! That baby don’t know about nothing that’s going on! Why use her as ransom?
“It’s just that we want Blue to have positive role models around her. And someone who’s willing to accept a person who beat them isn’t a positive role model.” Beyoncé went on to add.
Oh, so that was why.
That’s the dumbest shit I ever heard in my life! Melissa thought unbelievingly. Jay-Z is far from a ‘positive role model’ and Beyoncé ain’t a angel, either! Narcissistic bastards!
Rihanna looked away from Beyoncé and faced her best friend. Her green eyes were pleading, almost begging Melissa to help her make a decision.
Melissa wished the pop star could read her mind, because her mind was screaming, Robyn don’t fall for it! This is stupid! They’re trying to control you! If they were really on your side, they wouldn’t be giving you ultimatums! They would support your decision no matter what! And they would seek out Chris personally to see if he genuinely cares for you, too!
The songstress was already depressed about the way her vacation ended with the R&B star. She was still reeling over the fact that her love chose his girlfriend over her. So with teary eyes, she looked at the blonde beauty and said in a low defeated tone, “You win. I won’t see Chris anymore. I won’t work with Chris anymore, either.”
Rihanna looked at her best friend who rolled her eyes and sucked her teeth in response. Melissa knew that if things ended differently between her and Chris in Fiji, Rihanna would’ve given both Jay-Z and Beyoncé her ass to kiss.
Beyoncé sat next to Rihanna on the sofa and embraced her. The pop star didn’t return the gesture.
“Look I know you’re upset right now, but we’re doing this for your own good.” Beyoncé started. “We’re just giving you some tough love and one day you’re going to thank us for it. Chris isn’t a good man, and he’s not the man for you. You’re still young. Why don’t you wait a little bit to find love? Just focus on your career, okay?”
Once she was finished Beyoncé stood and headed towards the door. Looking over her shoulder she said, “You’re free to come by and visit Blue any time before you return to L.A.” Then she left the hotel room.
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Now it pained Melissa to see Rihanna crying her eyes out over a man that was only using her to stroke his own ego. She reached forward and smoothed Rihanna’s hair hoping the gesture would calm her best friend down.
Wiping her eyes again Rihanna asked her best friend, “What does he see in her? What does she have that I don’t? Got dammit I have everything that any woman would want!” Instantly her voice hardened as anger overtook her.
“I have a career, millions of fans, and more money than I can count! Hell, I’m worth more money than that nigga and he chooses a jobless bitch over me? That nigga had me playing second fiddle to a wannabe model! I was ready to put my career on the line for him! I wanted it to be us against the world like Bonnie and Clyde! So answer me, Mel… Why do I have everything, and I still can’t get the nigga I love?” Rihanna exhaled heavily. Her body was now too drained from her emotions to continue with her tirade.
Melissa kept her composure but on the inside she wanted to cry with her best friend. Nevertheless she knew she’d have to remain strong for Rihanna’s sake. She only pursed her lips together in response because for the first time since their friendship began, she didn’t have an answer.
Without saying anything she rose from the bed and reached for her purse on the dresser. Digging in it, she pulled out a small bag of Jamaican weed, rolling papers, and a lighter. Melissa walked towards the bed, sat down again, and passed the items to the pop star.
For the first time in a week Rihanna smiled while she rolled a joint.
After exhaling the thick smoke in a white cloud, she passed the lit joint to Melissa. Melissa inhaled as she listened to Rihanna’s words. “You wanna order some Ciroc, bitch?”
Laughing at her best friend’s question Melissa answered, “Yeah, ho.”
*****
So the tables have turned. Now Chris chooses his career and Rihanna chooses love. Will these two ever find a common ground? And will meddling, aging rappers ever stay out of their business?
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